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FG DFKGHDAS@HDA



Dfcj R. Brkbkr

FG

DFKGHDAS@HDA

Bkwfagkt akd Gkdsclkd,afk gft gkfdkg Rhldsfdd `kmkd gðsskd

uda gfcl bkrhak akslh`m ahnðr `fkmkd.



Fdlh`tsvkrzkfcldfs

Hdstk``k kfdks îrwirtks . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 6

Hg Hdnhdb whr akr Dhrzfsst . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 86

Afk Bkmurt aks Ri`nks . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . =2

Afk Jfdalkft fd akr Ghsclfdk . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 3;

Afk Eubkda uda afk sfhgksfsclkd Jhgpnsclk . . . ;3

Mfàvkrzkfcldfs . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 21

Ahs Krwhclskdwkrakd fg ]httkdjáb . . . . . . . . . . <?

Ahs @kmkd fg Ascludbk` . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 8?>

Ahs @kmkd h`s @kfdwhda . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 83=

Hdstk``k kfdks Sclùsswirtks . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 81?

BruÙwirtk . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 813

Mfàkrhdlhdb . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 811

Xuk``kdhdbhmkd . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 8;8



Jkfdk ]hst

Skk`k, mhdbkr îbk` au,

Fggkr wfkakr gusst au nrhbkd5

Rhdd dhcl sivfk` wfàkd Qhbkd

Jiggt akr Nrfkak, jiggt afk ]ul 9

I fcl wkfÙ5 jhug lhmkd wfr

[dtkrg Miakd stf``k Qhbk,

Rfra vid dkukr Skldsuclt afr

Ekakr `fkmk Qhb zur _`hbk.

[da au wfrst, bkmirbkd jhug,Afcl dkukd @kfakd gðlkd

[da vi`` [dbkauà akd ]hug

H`s akr eðdbstk Stkrd aurclb`ðlkd.

Lkrghdd Lkssk



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Hdstk``k kfdks îrwirtks

S fkmkd Ehlrk fst ks lkr, skft fcl gkfd krstks Mucl^K]SCLKDJQK EHL]K sclrfkm. ̂ fk` fst fd akr Uwfsclkd-

zkft bksclklkd uda gkfdk @kskr nrhbkd sfcl, whs hus DfcjBrkbkr bkwirakd fst, akr kfd nðlrkdakr Dkidhzf whr udasfcl hun akg Lþlkpudjt skfdkr ]hssfstkdjhrrfkrk fd kfdLkrkrigáaclkd vkr`fkmtk. Lht kr sfcl vig rhssfstfsclkd

Shuùs zug Butgkdsclkd _huùs bkwhdak`t 9 Gusstk K]dicl gh` fds Bknádbdfs, bfdb kr zurðcj dhcl Dhgfmfh,fst kr wfrj`fcl bk`áutkrt iakr bhdz kfdnhcl5 Rhs fst husakg Ghdd bkwirakd, akr fd akd akutsclkd Gkafkd h`sQkrrirjipn akr rkcltkd Szkdk uda bhr fd akd kdb`fsclkdGkafkd h`s kfdkr akr bkwh`ttátfbstkd Gáddkr Kuriphs

mktftk`t wurak, akg Kx-Dkidhzfnðlrkr, akg _hrhgf`ftár,akg vkrurtkf`tkd Qkrrirfstkd, akr gft Kfdrkfskvkrmitkd fdafk [SH, BriÙmrfthddfkd, Sðahnrfjh siwfk akr Akgijrh-tfsclkd ]kpum`fj Jidbi mk`kbt wurak 9 !

Fcl wkrak kucl lfkr afk Hdtwirtkd bkmkd.Hucl gþcltk fcl afk tkf`wkfsk udmknrfkafbtkd Jrftfjkr

gkfdks krstkd Muclks dfclt kdttáusclkd, ah bkdþrbk`twurak, ahss ^K]SCLKDJQK EHL]K dfclt bkdub Sk`mst-rkkxfid kdtlfk`t, whs fggkr ahs hucl lkfÙkd ghb,ah fcl fg îrwirt aks Muclks akut`fcl ghcltk, ahss^K]SCLKDJQK EHL]K fd krstkr @fdfk kfd Kr`kmdfsmkrfcltuda jkfdk jrftfsclk Sftuhtfidshdh`ysk skfd si``tk.

Rhs afk Jrftfjkr fd Rhlrlkft wi``tkd, whr kfdk Clh-rhjtkrhdh`ysk gkfdkr _krsþd`fcljkft, uda ah lht ks hdkdtsprkclkdakd Husshbkd fd gkfdkg Mucl innkdsfclt-`fcl bkghdbk`t, h`si lht gfcl zug Mkfspfk` kfdk Nrhu



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_sycliìbfd Mfrbftt ]iggk`smhclkr vid kfdkr [dfvkrsftátfd Mkr`fd zug Fdtkrvfkw nðr flr _riekjt bkbkd ]hssfsguskfdbk`hakd, ug dhcl kfdkr 6?-gfdðtfbkd [dtkrlh`tudb

kfdkd Dfcj Brkbkr zu zkfcldkd, wfk kr dhcl flrkd ̂ irstk`-ùdbkd skfd gðsstk … Hmkr bhdz si imkrácl`fcl fst akrGhdd kmkd dfclt ! Skfd Fddkrstks fst tfknkr uda hmbrðd-afbkr, hmkr hucl lþlkr uda wkftsfcltfbkr, h`s kr hun akdkrstkd M`fcj vkrgutkd `ásst.

Afk gkfstkd Gkdsclkd, afk flr @kmkd fd kfdkg Qrðg-

gkrlhunkd zkrscl`hbkd lhmkd, stklkd ahdd vir akdSclkrmkd uda vkrsfdjkd ahrfd, hmkr fcl mfd kfdkr akrek-dfbkd, afk kfdk si`clk Sk`mstzkrstþrudb mkdþtfbkd, ugmkðbk`t zu wkrakd. Fcl j`fggk akd Sclkrmkdmkrb lfdhunhun afk ]ufdkd gkfdks @kmkds. Fcl sklk vi``kr Gft`kfa lf-dhm zu akd Sclwhclkd, afk sfcl vir flrkg zkrscl`hbkdkd

@kmkd krbhmkd, uda bkdfkÙk fd Gk`hdcli`fk akd M`fcj fdafk Nkrdk, akd gfr akr Bfpnk` gkfdkr ]ufdkd krgþb`fclt.Fd akd Ládakd kfd Sclwkrt, gft akg fcl gfr Bklþr vkr-sclhnnk. Ahs Sclwkrt fst afk Rhlrlkft, afk fcl bknudakdlhmk, afk Rhlrlkft fst kfdk Rhnnk uda ahs î`j wfk huclafk Nðrstkd nðrcltkd sfk.

Ks sfda Gkdsclkd wfk fcl, afk skft eklkr kdtwkakr bk-`fkmt iakr bklhsst wkrakd, kfdkd Rkb ahzwfsclkd bfmtks dfclt.

Fcl mfd skft thuskdakd vid Ehlrkd ah, ghd lht gfclhds Jrkuz bkscl`hbkd, h`s Hunwfkb`kr vkrmhddt, bkácltktuda vkrni`bt, ghd lht gfcl akr Fdqufsftfid ðmkrbkmkd

uda h`s Lkxk vkrmrhddt, ghd lht gfcl fd _hrfs bkjþpnt,h`s Hmtrðddfbkd fd akd Jkrjkr bkwirnkd, fd Jkttkd bk-`kbt uda zu Qiak ahrmkd ̀ hsskd, hmkr dhcl ekakg Qia, akdfcl sthrm, wuclskd gkfdk Sclwfdbkd uda ghd lþrt akd



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Scl`hb gkfdkr N`ðbk` bhr mfs fd afk nkrdstkd @ádakr. Aiclzukrst guss fcl stkrmkd, ug krjhddt zu wkrakd. Ks bfmthmkr Scl`fggkrks h`s akd Qia uda ahs fst afk [dnrkflkft

aks Fdafvfauugs !Fcl mfd aurcl kfdk pkstf`kdzfh`fscl stfdjkdak J`i-

hjk bkbhdbkd uda lhmk thuskda udkdtmklr`fclk Rhlr-lkftkd ahrfd bkshggk`t. Uwhr lhmk fcl dicl dfclt ahsdkuk Ekrush`kg krm`fcjt, wil` hmkr mfd aurcl ahs sðd-afbk ]ig bkscl`kdakrt. Fcl mfd ahdjmhr ahnðr, akdd

afk gkfstkd Gkdsclkd mkjiggkd si kfdk Clhdck dfclt,ahs zu wkrakd, whs fcl lkutk rkpráskdtfkrk. Fcl gþcltkdfclt thusclkd gft akg Lkrakdgkdsclkd, hucl wkddgkfd @kmkd ahaurcl kfdnhclkr wárk, akdd sclwkr wfkbtafk Jridk uda wfkakr kfdgh` lhmk fcl gfcl sk`mst zugJþdfb bkjrþdt uda tlridk hun akd Qrðggkrd gkfdks

@kmkds.

Rf``jiggkd fd gkfdkr Rk`t5 FG DFKGHDAS@HDA ! Ks fstkfdshg airt, ks fst akr tfknstk Hmbruda uda zub`kfcl akrlþclstk Bfpnk`, akd ghd krj`fggkd jhdd.

Gft DFKGHDAS@HDA gkfdk fcl Bkmfktk, bkfst`fclk wfk

hucl wk`t`fclk, fd afk sfcl dur wkdfbk Gkdsclkd mkbk-mkd, uda dicl wkdfbkr dakd fd afkskg DFKGHDAS@HDAktwhs, wirhd sfk sfcl irfkdtfkrkd jþddkd. Afk gkfstkdvkr`fkrkd sfcl ahrfd !

Hun _i`ftfch` Cirrkctdkss uda Qhmus jhdd fcl lfkr jkfdk]ðcjsfclt dklgkd, ks sfda Jkttkd, vid akdkd fcl gfcl

sclid `ádbst mknrkftk. Rfk @utlkr jhdz`k fcl afk Qyrhd-dkf uda [dwfsskdlkft h`` aks sclgutzfbkd _hcjs hm. H``kwudakrd sfcl, sfk lhmkd si ktwhs sk`tkd bk`kskd uda h``kwhrtkd dud, whs gfr nðr Ðmk` ahrhus krwhclskd gþbkd.



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Fcl zðdak kfd Nkukr hd, hmkr si bksclfklt ks gft akd Rir-tkd akr Rhlrlkft, akdd ks fst udgþb`fcl, afk Nhcjk` akrRhlrlkft aurcls Bkarádbk zu trhbkd, ildk ekghdakd akd

Mhrt zu vkrskdbkd.Afk Jrftfj nðr afksks Mucl wfra wfk kfdk Lfdrfcltudb

skfd, hmkr ks stþrt gfcl dfclt, ah fcl sclid udzál`fbklfdtkr gfr lhmk !

Siwfksi bklt ks vfk`kd @kutkd, skft fcl akdjkd jhdd,dur ahrug, gfcl si runscláafbkda wfk gþb`fcl ahrzustk`-

`kd, gft afkskg Mucl gþcltk fcl si`clkd SpfkÙbksk``kdkfd wkdfb udtkr afk Hrgk brkfnkd.

Rkdd flr kucl mkj`hbt uda gkfd Mucl h`s `ftkrhrfsclkHdhrclfk vkrsclgált, si `hsst gfcl kucl shbkd, ahss fclFG DFKGHDAS@HDA jkfdk clridiìbfsclk Hdiradudbaks zu _hpfkr Bkmrhcltkd fg Sfdd lhttk, uda si``tk ks

akddicl akd Hdsclkfd ahdhcl lhmkd, si fst afks zuná``fbbksclklkd. Hucl mkhdspruclt gkfd Mucl wkakr î``-stádafbjkft, dicl wf`` ks fd akg Dfkakrbksclrfkmkdkdkrsclþpnkda skfd, flg kfdk clridiìbfsclk Mklhdaùdbðmkrzustð`pkd, kdtsprfclt dfclt gkfdkg Gitfv. Rkdd flrks akd bhcjkrdakd Lðldkrd zug NrhÙ virwkrnt, si ghclk

fcl ks gfr mkqukg uda shbk kucl, fcl lhmk afksks Mucldfclt h`s Hutir, sidakrd h`s Jðdst`kr bksclrfkmkd … Fdakr Judst fst eh mkf kucl h``ks kr`humt, shbtkt flr gfr siint. Uuakg nðrcltk fcl hucl jkfdk Sclhnk, ah fcl kfd Ri`nmfd ! Scl`kcltk _rkssk jhdd gfr jkfdk Hdbst ghclkd udamk`kfafbt gfcl hucl dfclt.

Fcl mfd kfd Uhrhtlustrh, dur lhmk fcl gkfd Kvhdbk-`fug fd akd Jkrjkrd kurkr Eustftfh sclrkfmkd gðsskd.Rkfslkftkd uda _lfìsiplfkd kfdks vid kurkr Bksk``-sclhnt ^krmhddtkd – kfdks ^krmhddtkd, akr akd Sfdd akr



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Bkrkcltfbjkft ðmkr ahs vid kurkg Sthht vkriradktk ]kcltstk``t, afk Stfggk akr Bkácltktkd, akr Stuggkd. [da h`sStrhnk gkfdkr Hutirftátsvkrhcltudb lht gfcl ahs Sclfcj-

sh` sk`mst zu kfdkr Hutirftát bkghclt !Afk Jrftfjkr wkrakd gfcl jrkuzfbkd, ghd si`` sclrkf-

mkd, FG DFKGHDAS@HDA fst afk Sk`mstmkwkflráuclkrudbkfdkr dhrzfsstfsclkd _krsþd`fcljkft akr Sclrkcjkd ekakrgirh`fsclkd ]kcltsiradudb. Ks fst hmkr dur akr Spfkbk`kfdkr Bksk``sclhnt, afk gfcl krsclhnnkd lht … lfdtkr Bft-

tkrd uda Sthclk`arhlt.Akddicl, afk Rhlrlkft fst kfd Sclwkrt uda lfkr wfra ks

Jkttkd zkrscl`hbkd. Hucl wkdd fcl gfr Qkf`k aks Sclwkr-tks bk`fklkd lhmk, bksclgfkakt lhmk fcl ks sk`mst fgNkukr aks Sclhnnkds, fd akg fcl nhst vkrb`ðlt wárk ! ^kr-mrkddkd gusst au afcl wi``kd fd akfdkr kfbdkd N`hggk5

Rfk wi``tkst au dku wkrakd, wkdd au dfclt krst Hsclkbkwirakd mfst !

Fcl wkrak kucl mkrfcltkd, whrug flr afk Audjk`lkftnðrcltkt. Fcl lhmk h``ks bksklkd5 afk Sclrkcjkdswk`t akrBknádbdfssk, Ni`tkr, Bkwh`t, Mruth`ftát uda Gkdsclkd-vkrhcltudb, Qitscl`hb uda Gira … hmkr hucl Gkdscl-

`fcljkft, butk uda mþsk Sthhtsafkdkr, akd tkxhdfsclkdQiakstrhjt uda skfdk Kxkjutfidsjhdafahtkd, Jrfkbsvkr-mrkclkr uda Afjthtirkd mfs lfd zu akd dfkakrtrácltfbkdGhclkdsclhntkd akr _lhrghfdaustrfk. Fcl wkrak kuclvig Sclkfd aks ]it`fcltks mkrfcltkd, vid bkmriclkdkdGkdsclkd uda bkehbtkd Skk`kd, vid Jrfkbkd, vid akd

Qitkd uda akd @kmkdakd, vid kfdkr vkr`irkdkd Bkdkrh-tfid uda vig Kdak akr Ukft, akrkd [dkda`fcljkft fcl dfcltbkphcltkt lhmk ! Kfdk Iaysskk aurcls Dfkghdas`hda gftgfr h`s ]kfskmkb`kftudb !



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Rkdd flr nrhbt, fd wk`clkr Kcjk fcl airt gkfdkd ^kr-sthda vkrìr, si jhdd fcl kucl afk Nrhbk dfclt mkhdtwir-tkd, ks jþddtk ðmkrh`` bkwkskd skfd, hmkr whlrsclkfd-

`fcl vkrìr fcl fld Stðcj nðr Stðcj hg Rkbksrhda … hungkfdkr Iaysskk aurcl udzál`fbk Bknádbdfssk kmkdsi wfkhun gkfdkr Frrnhlrt aurcl Sðahnrfjh, Dhgfmfh, Hdbi`h,[bhdah, Jidbi, Shgmfh, Qhdshdfh, Jkdfh, Dfbkrfh, Blhdh,afk K`nkdmkfdjðstk, @fmkrfh uda hucl fd Jhfri, Liustid,@fvfdbstid, fd ]ugádfkd uda Giàhwfkd uda hd vfk`kd

wkftkrkd Irtkd. Kt`fclk gkfdkr Sfddk `fkÙ fcl fd thuskdaDhcltcùms, Spkùdjkd uda mkf zhl`ìskd _ristftufkrtkd.Rhs zurðcjm`fkm, fst gkfdk Skldsuclt, afk vfk` wkftkr kdt-nkrdt ̀ fkbt h`s Hnrfjh, uda wfk kfd Mksksskdkr rfsjfkrk fclfggkr wfkakr h``ks nðr kfd Dfclts.

Afk Gkdsclkd sclhukd sfcl afk brhushgstkd Nf`gk

hd, ug [dtkrlh`tudb zu dakd. Afk brþmstkd Sprðclkjrfkb fcl int zu lþrkd. —Lhst au bksklkd, wfk akr udaakr bkni`tkrt iakr ugbkmrhclt wurak 9‐ usw. Gkdsclkdnhszfdfkrt afk Bkwh`t … si`hdbk sfk akd Mfàsclfrg dfcltvkr`ásst, dfclt fd flrk vkrgkfdt`fcl sfclkrkd Rildzfggkrjiggt.

@fkmk @kutk, wkdd flr gkfdk Lhda sclðttk`t, si jþddtflr sfclkr skfd, afksk Ládak sclùbkd Gkdsclkd lh`m tit,afksk Ládak mhutkd Migmkd uda mkafkdtkd Rhnnkd, vfk`-`kfclt ni`tkrtkd sfk sibhr uda rfsskd Ilrkd hm.

Kukr Lhss uda kurk ^krhcltudb scl`hbkd gfr kdtbk-bkd, flr wi``t hus gkfdkg @kmkd dfclts sklkd uda hus

gkfdkg Guda dfclts lþrkd. Rhrug dfclt 9 ! Rkf` ks kcltfst uda dfclt fg Nkrdsklkd bkspfk`t 9 !

Flr vkruclt gfcl, wkf` fcl kfd phhr Qripnkd Mùt vkr-bisskd lhmk, hmkr flr skfa ks, afk afksks Mùt `ftkrwkfsk



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lfdudtkrscl`fdbkd. Rfk ^hgpfrk krdálrt flr kucl ahvid,ug kfd mfssclkd Hdstrfcl fd kurkd m`hsskd H``thb zu mk-jiggkd. Fcl mfd kfdnhcl dur akr Gh`kr, akr kfd mfssclkd

Nhrmk fd kukr jh`jwkfÙks @kmkd mrfdbt. Eh, fcl lhmk Bkwh`t fd gfr, hmkr jkfdk dkbhtfvk. Rkdd

kfd Qfbkr skfdkd Aigptkur zkrrkfÙt, si shbt ghd, akr Qf- bkr skf bkwh`ttátfb uda sclfkÙt flg kfdk Jubk` fd akdJipn. Gkfdk Bkwh`t fst afk Bkwh`t aks Nrkfkd, akr sfclwkfbkrt, sfcl zu udtkrwkrnkd. Afk Sclþpnudb fst bkwh`t-

shg. @kmkd fst bkwh`tshg. Bkmurt fst kfd bkwh`tshgkrîrbhdb. Kfd Sturg, kfd Kramkmkd sfda bkwh`tshgk Mk-wkbudbkd akr Dhtur. Gkfdk Bkwh`t fst afk Bkwh`t aks@kmkds. Ks fst jkfdk Bkwh`t wfakr afk Dhtur wfk afk Bk-wh`t aks Sthhtks, akr kurk Jfdakr fd Jrfkbk sclfcjt, kurkBklfrdk wásclt uda kurk Skk`kd hustrkfmt !

Kfdk kxpìafkrkdak Qhuskdawhttmfrdk mfd fcl dur,wkdd fcl H`jili` bktrudjkd lhmk, ahdd wkrak fcl wfkkfd zug @kmkd krwkcjtks ]k`fjt hus akr [rzkft, zu h``kgmkrkft, sk`mstgirabknálrakt, uda akdjk dfclt hd afkJidskqukdzkd gkfdks Lhdak`ds. Mkfg brþÙtkd Clhis,ahs fcl ahdd hdrfcltk, shbk fcl gfr kfdnhcl dur5 —Kda`fcl

mkwkbt sfcl ktwhs fd gkfdkg @kmkd !‐Fcl bklþrk zu akdekdfbkd, afk zwfsclkd zwkf Skftkd

lfdkfdbkrhtkd, afk hus h``kr [dscluà uda Bkmirbkdlkftlkrhusbknh``kd sfda, zu akdkd, akrkd Sclfcjsh` ks fst,h``k Nrhbwðrafbjkftkd aks Gkdsclkd`kmkds bkstkfbkrth`s pkrsþd`fclk Xuh` uda Lþ``k zu kr`kmkd.

Aks kfdkd Ghddks Rhldsfdd fst aks hdarkd Ghddks]kh`ftát. Fcl lhmk afk Rk`t, afk fcl fd afkskg Mucl mk-sclrkfmkd wkrak, dfclt bkghclt, ks fst afk Rk`t, fd akrfcl ̀ kmk, bkzwudbkd mfd zu ̀ kmkd. Sfk lá`t gfcl bknhdbkd



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uda wf`` gfr afk @unt zug Htgkd dklgkd. Ahlkr `hunkuda `hunk fcl, akdd wkdd ghd kfdgh` stklkd bkm`fkmkdfst, bklt ghd dfclt gklr wkftkr. Fcl hmkr suclk kfd @hda

ildk Stáatk uda Aþrnkr uda lhmk ahlkr dfclt vfk` Ukft,ug akd Aunt akr ]iskd hg Rkbksrhda zu bkdfkÙkd, hmkrahs fst hucl dfclt dþtfb, akdd whs gfr fd gkfdkd sk`tkdkdNrkuakdstudakd bksclfklt, whs nðr gfcl Nrkuak, Kjsthskuda Krlkmudb fst, ahs jkddt uda suclt uda `fkmt afk Rk`tlþclstkds fd Afcltudbkd, fg rkh`kd @kmkd dakd sfk ks

vkrrðcjt.Afk gkfstkd Gkdsclkd, h``k ekdk vid akr Lkrak, lhmkd

dfk afk Kfdshgjkft bksclgkcjt. Sfk trkddtkd sfcl kfdgh`vid ^htkr uda Guttkr, hmkr dur, ug zu kfdkg Rkfmk zujrfkclkd uda scldk`` fd kfdkr dkukd Rárgk uda Uushg-gkdbklþrfbjkft udtkrzubklkd. Dfkgh`s sfda sfk h``kfd,

dfkgh`s rkakd sfk gft sfcl sk`mst. Akd Kfdshgkd, hmkrwkdd kr fldkd ðmkr akd Rkb `áunt, nðrcltkd uda lhs-skd sfk wfk afk _kst, wkrnkd gft Stkfdkd dhcl flg udadakd jkfdk ]ulk, klk sfk fld wkft vid sfcl wkbbkehbtlhmkd. Fld ugbfmt kfdk @unt, afk dhcl Stkrdkd uda dhclakr Já`tk akr Stkrdkdráugk rfkclt, uda sfk wfsskd, ahss

sfk flrk ]iskd aurcl fld vkr`fkrkd, wkf` sfk skfdkg Auntni`bkd !

Fg Qfknkd gkfdks Lkrzkds whr fcl skft ek kfd Hmtrðddf-bkr, kfd Hmkdtkurkr, Fakh`fst, ]knirgkr uda `ktztkda`fcl]kviùtfidár. Fcl lhmk afk B`ðcjsspfk`kr hus akd Qkgpk`dvkrtrfkmkd, afk Rk`t ugskbk`t, ahs Fdjhrkfcl krimkrt, akd

Jfdakrjrkuzzub bknðlrt, gkfdk 6; Qlkskd hds Jfrcl-tir bkscl`hbkd, afk Mhstf``k krstðrgt uda `ktztkda`fclafk Jiìdfh`fstkd fd Hnrfjh hd akd ^krlhdaùdbstfsclbkzwudbkd.



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Fcl mfd kfd Qráugkr, nrkf`fcl kfd Qráugkr ekdkr hdakrkduda vfk` sk`tkdkrkd Hrt, afk ks vkrstklt, aurcl flrkd Rf`-`kd Qráugk fd Rfrj`fcljkft zu vkrwhdak`d.

Ks fst kmkd h``kzkft ahs Gkrjzkfclkd kfdks udbklkurkdRf``kds, ahs kr [dgþb`fclks fd Rfrj`fcljkft vkrwhdak`t,Bksk``sclhntsstrujturkd fds Rhdjkd mrfdbt, ]kmk``fidkdkdtnhclt, ahs Mkwusstskfd vid Gkdsclkd nðr fggkr vkr-ádakrt, akdd kr gþcltk dfclt ahs _riaujt skfdkr [gwk`tskfd, sidakrd ahss skfdk [gwk`t kfd _riaujt vid flg

wfra !Akr Rkb, ug kfdkd si`clkd Rf``kd zu bkmárkd, fst ̀ hdb

uda stkfdfb. Au gusst nálfb skfd, Mkrbk tritz Lþlkdhdbstzu mkstkfbkd, au gusst akd Izkhd ðmkrqukrkd, imwilàu dfclt sclwfggkd jhddst, au gusst fd kfsfbkr Já`tksftzkd, ildk zu krnrfkrkd, ̀ ktztkda`fcl ahrnst au fg Nkukr

dfclt vkrb`ðlkd, sidakrd si``st bkstál`t lkrhusjiggkduda ahdhcl afk Dhrmkd akr ^krmrkddudb vi``kr Sti`z zurSclhu stk``kd, ug kfd Ukfclkd zu sktzkd !

Ri kfd Rkrj bksclhnnkd, wi kfd Qrhug wkftkr bk-tráugt, kfd Mhug bkphdzt, kfd Jfda bkzkubt wfra, ah fstahs @kmkd hg Rkrj uda kfdk Mrksclk fds Audjk` akr Ukft

bkscl`hbkd. Fcl lhmk @fclt fd afk Audjk`lkft bkmrhclt.Gkfd Nrkuda, afk wfrj`fclkd _krsþd`fcljkftkd lhmkd

ks hun Krakd sclwkrkr, hmkr hucl sclþdkr, sfk bkdfkÙkddfclt akd Sclutz akr Lkrak, hmkr afk Nrkuakd akr kfbkdkd_krsþd`fcljkftskdtwfcjùdb, uda gðsskd, wkdd sfk afkEubkdaehlrk ðmkrstklkd, kfdk sklr briÙk ̂ krhdtwirtudb

trhbkd.Fcl spðrk kfdk Jrhnt fd gfr, afk fcl wkftkr husmfàkd

guss, kfd Nkukr, ahs fcl dfclt aágpnkd, sidakrd hdnh-clkd guss, imwil` fcl dfclt wkfÙ, zu wk`clkg Kdak ks



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gfcl nðlrkd wfra – wkdd ks kfd aðstkrks wárk, wðrak ksgfcl dfclt wudakrd.

Fd kfdkr Ukft wfk akr lkutfbkd – whs si`` akr Gkdscl

sfcl ah wðdsclkd 9 Rk`clks fst ahs vkrlá`tdfsgáÙfbb`ðcj`fclstk @is 9

[dtkr ghdclkd [gstádakd fst ks mksskr, akr Mksfkbtkzu skfd h`s akr Sfkbkr, zug Mkfspfk` `fkmkr _rigktlkus h`sEupftkr. Dud, ks fst kfd h`tks Sprfclwirt5

@hss jiggkd, whs jiggkd guss !



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Hg Hdnhdb whr akr Dhrzfsst

Eh, fcl mfd kfd Dhrzfsst ! Fd gkfdkd Hubkd afk kfdzfbkwhlrk uda pisftfvk _ribdisk, afk gfr ek kfd Bknádbdfs-

psycliìbk httkstfkrt lht, sfk wurak bhr vid kfdkg Imkr-`hdaksbkrfclt mkstátfbt uda akd Mksclùss lhmk fcl gfrkfdbkrhlgt wfk kfdk wkrtvi``k [rjudak, afk kfd Gkfstkrdhcl skfdkr mksthdakdkd _rðnudb mkjiggt. Akdd `hsst

gfcl kucl shbkd, ks wárk nh`scl, h``k Dhrzfsstkd h`s lkg-gudbsìsk Kbifstkd hmzutud. Kfdkrskfts kxfstfkrt akr Clh-rhjtkr aks kfbkdsðcltfbkd, sk`mstbkná``fbkd Kbighdkd,hdakrkrskfts bfmt ks hucl akd Qypus aks hunipnkrudbsvi`-`kd, sclþpnkrfscl bkstfggtkd Dhrzfsstkd. Afksk Gkdsclkdmkgðlkd sfcl flr @kmkd ̀ hdb, jrkhtfv zu skfd uda BriÙks zu

krsclhnnkd. Flr Kdbhbkgkdt afkdt dfclt dur akr Krlþludbakr kfbkdkd _krsid, sidakrd lht hucl nðr hdakrk pisftfvkNi`bkd. Afksk Dhrzfsstkd mhukd fgpishdtk Bkmáuak, wkr-akd clhrfsghtfsclk _i`ftfjkr, `kfakdsclhnt`fclk Bkwkrj-sclhnt`kr iakr _hpst, irbhdfsfkrkd Ril`tátfbjkftsmá``kuda kdbhbfkrkd sfcl nðr afk Hrgkd, nðr akd [gwk`tsclutz

uda nðr afk Nþrakrudb akr Judst. Sfk lhmkd nðr h``k kfdnrkuda`fclks @hclkd ðmrfb. Sfk ju`tfvfkrkd fdtkrksshdtkLimmys uda mkwudakrdswkrtk Mkbhmudbkd. Sfk lh`tkdhdakrk mkf @hudk – aurcl Nf`gk, Mðclkr uda îr`ksudbkd,J`hvfkrsidhtkd, k`kbhdtk _hrtys iakr Judsthusstk`ùdbkd.Sfk nhszfdfkrkd _krsidkd aks hdakrkd Bkscl`kclts aurcl

flr bkpkbtks, hdbkdklgks ÁuÙkrks. Sfk `kbkd sfcl dfkgft Butgkdsclkd hd, sidakrd sktzkd sfcl kfd, ug scláa-`fclkd Ukftbkdisskd wfk jirruptkd _i`ftfjkrd iakr nhu`kdMkhgtkd ahs Lhdawkrj zu `kbkd.



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Gkdsclkd, afk dhcl flrkg Hm`kmkd fd akr Ukftudb mk-sidakrs ̀ hdbk Dhclrunk mkjiggkd, whrkd fd flrkg @kmkdint —butk‐ Dhrzfsstkd.

Afksk Gkdsclkd lh`tkd afk Rk`t hg @kmkd. Dhrzfssgusjhdd h`si aurclhus kfd pisftfvkr Clhrhjtkrzub skfd, fdkfdkg si`clkd Nh``k jhdd ghd dfclt vid kfdkr —_krsþd-`fcljkftsstþrudb‐ rkakd. Akddicl, akr Ðmkrbhdb zwf-sclkd —_krsþd`fcljkft‐ uda —_krsþd`fcljkftsstþrudb‐fst fkÙkda. Husbkprábtk Clhrhjtkrkfbkdsclhntkd akr

Gkdsclkd jþddkd Hus`kdjudbkd fg Dirgmkrkfcl skfd,hmkr sfk jþddkd hucl afk Brkdzk akr Dirgh`ftát vkr`hs-skd. Rimkf lfkr udwkfbkr`fcl afk Nrhbk hunthuclt, whsðmkrlhupt —dirgh`‐ fst. Ks bfmt jkfd hmsi`utks Jrftkrfug,gft akg ghd zwfsclkd dirgbkrkcltkg uda jrhdjlhntkg^krlh`tkd udtkrsclkfakd jhdd.

Hucl fst akr Dirgh`ftátsmkbrfnn vig ekwkf`fbkd bksk``-sclhnt`fclkd Uushggkdlhdb hmládbfb. Fd ghdclkd Bk-gkfdsclhntkd bf`t ks h`s —dfclt dirgh`‐, wkdd kfd Ghddzug Afddkr mrhudk sthtt sclwhrzk Sclulk trábt, uda fdhdakrkd Nirgkd gkdscl`fclkd Uushggkd`kmkds wfra ksnðr —dirgh`‐ bklh`tkd, afk kfbkdk Qicltkr zu krstkclkd,

wkdd sfk vir akr Klk Skx lhttk. Ahs —hmdirgh`k‐ ^kr-lh`tkd kfdkr _krsþd`fcljkftsstþrudb guss h`si fggkr fdUushggkdlhdb gft akr ekwkf`fbkd Ju`tur bksklkd wkr-akd. Ks m`kfmt afk Nrhbk —Mfd fcl dud kfd butkr iakr mþskrDhrzfsst 9‐.

Fcl akdjk, ahss gkfdk _krsþd`fcljkft fg Brkdzmkrkfcl

zwfsclkd But uda Mþsk sclwhdjt, bkdhusi wfk ahs @k-mkd, ahs fcl nðlrk.

Dkidhzf-Nðlrkr, Jðdst`kr, Qkrrirfst, Muclhutir, _hrh-gf`ftár uda _rkafbkr … Mfd fcl sclfziplrkd 9 Gkfd Nrkuda,



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fcl shbk afr, wkdd fd mksidakrs mkbhmtkd Gkdsclkdskk-`kd afk Hldudb flrkr ^fk`spá`tfbjkft hunaággkrt, wkddsfk, wfk ekaks Bkdfk, akd Rhld akr _krsþd`fcljkftskfdlkft

aurclmrkclkd uda sfcl h`s gklrtkf`fb, h`s kfd Mðdak` vidvfk`kd Fcls kgpdakd, si mrhuclkd sfk ahs dur zu áuÙkrduda h`smhà spkrrt afk Gheirftát sfk kfd, runt Rfsskdsclhntzur Lf`nk, jidsthtfkrt Sclfziplrkdfk uda mksclðtzt afkGkdscllkft ahvir, hus akg Gudak afkskr [db`ðcj`fclkdkfdkd ]un akr Rhlrlkft vkrdklgkd zu gðsskd.

Akr Gkdscl, wfk fld afk Dhtur krsclhnnt, fst ktwhs [d-mkrkclkdmhrks, [daurclsfcltfbks, Bknálr`fclks. Kr fst kfdvid udmkjhddtkg Mkrbk lkrhmmrkclkdakr Strig uda fstkfd [rwhà ildk Rkb uda Iradudb. [da wfk kfd [rwhàbk`fcltkt uda bkrkfdfbt uda bkwh`tshg kfdbksclrádjtwkrakd guss, si guss afk Sclu`k akd dhtðr`fclkd Gkd-

sclkd zkrmrkclkd, mksfkbkd uda bkwh`tshg kfdsclrád-jkd: flrk Hunbhmk fst ks, fld dhcl imrfbjkft`fclkrskftsbkmf``fbtkd Brudasátzkd zu kfdkg dðtz`fclkd B`fkak akrBksk``sclhnt zu ghclkd uda afk Kfbkdsclhntkd fd flg zuwkcjkd, akrkd vþ``fbk Husmfàudb h`sahdd afk Uuclt akrJhskrdk jrþdkda mkkdafbt.

^htkr Sthht, afk Ghsclfdk, afk uds mkscldkfakt uda ud-skrk Skk`kd hustrkfmt, kfdk Ghsclfdk, afk sk`kjtfkrt udaafk udmádafbkd K`kgkdtk, akrkr sfk dfclt Lkrr wfra, fdsNkukr sclgkfÙt iakr aurcl akd N`kfsclwi`n arklt. Rkddkfd Mhug kdtbfpnk`t wfra, trkfmt kr bkrd fd Rurzk`dálkdkuk Sprisskd lkrvir uda si jklrt int hucl kfdk Skk`k,

afk fd akr M`ðtk jrhdj wurak uda vkrahrm, fd afk nrðl-`fdbslhntk Ukft akr Hdnádbk uda hldudbsvi``kd Jfdalkftzurðcj, h`s jþddtk sfk airt dkuk Linndudb kdtakcjkd udaakd hmbkmriclkdkd @kmkdsnhakd huns Dkuk hdjdðpnkd.



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Afk Rurzk`sprisskd whclskd kf`fb, hmkr ks fst kfd Sclkfd-`kmkd uda ks wfra dfk wfkakr kfd rkcltkr Mhug ahrhus.

Afk nrðl`fdblhntk Ukft akr Hdnádbk kdaktk nðr gfcl gft

akg krstkd Sclu`thb, akr Qhb, hd akg fcl gfcl hun akrSk`kjtfidsrhgpk vir akr Ghsclfdk kfdrkflkd gusstk.

îr dfclts brhut @klrkrd si sklr wfk vir akd sk`tshgkdKrsclkfdudbkd, afk fg Rkskd nrðl kdtwfcjk`tkr Jdhmkd fdakg ildklfd bknálr`fclkd H`tkr akr mkbfddkdakd Eðdb-`fdbsbárudb lkrvirtrktkd. Uwfsclkd Bkdfk uda @klrkr-

zudnt fst kmkd vid h`tkrs kfdk tfknk Jùnt mknkstfbt udawhs vid si`clkd @kutkd sfcl hun Sclu`kd zkfbt, fst akd_rinkssirkd vid virdlkrkfd kfd Bráuk`. Nðr sfk sfda Bk-dfks ekdk Scl`fggkd, afk jkfdkd ]kspkjt vir fldkd lh-mkd, afk gft 81 Ehlrkd zu rhuclkd mkbfddkd, gft 8; sfclvkr`fkmkd, gft 8> fd afk Jdkfpkd bklkd, wk`clk vkrmitkdk

Mðclkr `kskd, nrkclk Hunsátzk sclrkfmkd, akd @klrkr bk-`kbkdt`fcl lþldfscl xfkrkd uda fg Afhrfug h`s Hdnðlrkruda Jhrzkrjhdafahtkd ditfkrt wkrakd. Kfd Sclu`gkfstkrlht `fkmkr kfdfbk Ksk` h`s kfd Bkdfk fd skfdkr J`hssk udabkdhu mktrhcltkt lht kr eh rkclt, akdd skfdk Hunbhmk fstks dfclt, kxtrhvhbhdtk Bkfstkr lkrhdzumfàkd, sidakrd

butk @htkfdkr, ]kcldkr uda Mfkakrgáddkr. Rkr hmkr gklruda sclwkrkr vig hdakrd `kfakt, akr @klrkr vig Jdhmkdiakr ugbkjklrt, wkr vid mkfakd gklr Qyrhdd, gklr Xuá`-bkfst fst uda wkr vid mkfakd ks fst, akr akg hdakrkd Qkf`kskfdkr Skk`k uda skfdks @kmkds vkrafrmt uda scládakt, ahsjhdd ghd dfclt udtkrsuclkd, ildk gft Uird uda Sclhg

hd afk kfbkdk Eubkda zu akdjkd. Aicl fst ahs dfclt ud-skrk Shclk uda wfr lhmkd akd Qrist, ahss mkf akd wfrj`fclBkdfh`kd nhst fggkr afk Rudakd vkrdhrmkd uda ahss husfldkd @kutk wkrakd, afk akr Sclu`k zug Qritz flrk butkd



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Rkrjk sclhnnkd, uda wk`clk spátkr, wkdd sfk tit uda vighdbkdklgkd Dfgmus akr Nkrdk ugisskd sfda, hdakrkdBkdkrhtfidkd vid flrkd Sclu`gkfstkrd h`s _rhcltstðcj

uda ka`k Mkfspfk`k virbknðlrt wkrakd. Ks whr gft akgAfcltkr bkdhusi wfk ks gft akg Lkàkd whr uda gft h``kdsthrjkd iakr sclþdkd Liclbkgutkd uda dfclt h``táb`f-clkd Bksth`tkd uda Mkstrkmudbkd5 Fd akr ̂ krbhdbkdlkftwhrkd sfk lkrr`fcl, h``k Sclu`mðclkr sthdakd vi`` flrks@imks, fd akr Bkbkdwhrt uda Rfrj`fcljkft hmkr lhsstk

ghd sfk uda vkrgut`fcl whrkd afk @klrkr bkrhakzu ahzuhdbkstk``t uda husbkmfàkt, ug ahs Lkrhdwhclskd vidnhgiskd, nrkfkd Gkdsclkd uda ahs Bksclklkd vid bri-Ùkd prácltfbkd Qhtkd dhcl Gþb`fcljkft zu vkrlfdakrd.

[dskrk @klrkr `klrtkd uds zwhr fd ekdkg hgðshdtkd@klrnhcl, ahss sfk Rk`tbksclfcltk dhddtkd, ahss stkts

afk Rk`t vid si`clkd Gkdsclkd rkbfkrt uda bk`kdjt udavkrádakrt wirakd whr, wk`clk sfcl flr kfbkdks Bksktz bh-mkd uda gft akd ðmkrjiggkdkd Bksktzkd mrhclkd, udaks wurak bkshbt, ahss afksk Gkdsclkd vkrklrudbswðrafbskfkd. H``kfd afks whr kmkdsi bkìbkd wfk akr bhdzk ðm-rfbk [dtkrrfclt, akdd wkdd kfdkr vid uds, skf ks dud fd

butkr iakr mþskr Gkfdudb, kfdgh` Gut zkfbtk uda bkbkdfrbkdakfd Bkmit iakr hucl mìÙ bkbkd kfdk auggk Bk-wildlkft iakr Giak pritkstfkrtk, ahdd wurak kr wkakrvkrklrt dicl zug îrmfà kgpnil`kd, sidakrd mkstrhnt,vkrlþldt uda vid akr nkfbkd Ðmkrghclt akr @klrkr kr-arðcjt.

Si wfkakrli`t sfcl vid Sclu`k zu Sclu`k ahs Sclhu-spfk` aks Jhgpnks zwfsclkd Bksktz uda Bkfst uda fggkrwfkakr sklkd wfr Sthht uda Sclu`k htkgìs mkgðlt, afk

eálr`fcl hunthuclkdakd phhr tfknkrkd uda wkrtvi``krkd



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Bkfstkr hd akr Rurzk` zu jdfcjkd uda fggkr wfkakr sfdaks vir h``kg afk vid akd Sclu`gkfstkrd Bklhsstkd, afkIntmkstrhntkd, Kdt`hunkdkd, Ahvidbkehbtkd, afk dhcl-

lkr Bksclfcltk sclrkfmkd. Ghdclk hmkr – uda wkr wkfÙwfk vfk`k 9 – vkrzklrkd sfcl fg stf``kd Qritz uda bklkdudtkr … Aicl fcl dfclt ! @fkmkr zkldgh` hd skfdkg @kfmkvkrakrmkd h`s Sclhakd dklgkd hd skfdkr Skk`k !

Ekakr ^krsucl, kfdkd mrhuclmhrkd Gkdsclkd hus gfrzu ghclkd, kdaktk gft Gfsskrni`b, gklrgh`s gft Sclhdak

uda Sjhdah`, gft N`uclt iakr gft Huswkfsudb uda aiclbksthda ghd gfr ðmkrh`` kfdk butk Mkbhmudb uda sibhrkfdkd ðmkraurclscldftt`fcl husbkprábtkd Bkrkcltfbjkfts-sfdd zu ! Hucl whr fcl stkts `kfa`fcl kfÙfb – afk lilk Qu-bkda aks GðÙfbbhdbs lhmk fcl fggkr gft Klrnurclt mk-wudakrt uda mfd kmkdsi kfd Gkfstkr fd flr bkwirakd.

Afk brhvfkrkdastk Krfddkrudb, afk fcl hus gkfdkrSclu`zkft gftbkdiggkd lhmk, fst kfd Qhb, hd akg udskr@klrkr afk J`hssk nrhbtk, whs kfd Ghdd gft skfdkg mkstkdNrkuda dfkgh`s tkf`kd wðrak, uda fcl hdtwirtktk5 —SkfdkNrhu.‐ Ahs spþttfsclk Bk`ácltkr, ahs fcl vig @klrkr hungkfdk Hdtwirt mkjhg, ðmkrtþdtk bhr ahs akr =? Sclán-

`kfd fg J`hsskdrhug, h`s wárk gfr bkrhak kfdk udbklkurk_kfd`fcljkft hus akg Gudak bkjiggkd. Ahdd sprhcludskr @klrkr5 —Nh`sclk Hdtwirt, Dfcj !‐ —Rhs kfd Ghdddfkgh`s gft skfdkg mkstkd Nrkuda tkf`kd wðrak, fst skfdk`ktztk Ufbhrkttk‐, krwfakrtk kr ! Rkr whr lfkr Sclð`kr udawkr akr @klrkr 9 ! Akr Ghdd, akr klkr skfdk Nrhu h`s skfdk

`ktztk Ufbhrkttk tkf`kd wðrak, whr Gfttk ;? uda Dfcj dkudEhlrk h`t …

Afk Judst aks @ðbkds vkrahdjk fcl bkrhak afkskg@klrkr, akr gfcl fd akd Mksftz afkskr Nálfbjkft mrhcltk,



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dhclakg fcl virlkr fd gkfdkr jfda`fclkd Innkdlkft uda^krtrhukdssk`fbjkft kfd [db`ðcj ugs hdakrk ðmkr gfclbkmrhclt lhttk. Akr @klrkr j`ártk gfcl krni`brkfcl ahrð-

mkr hun, ahss Klr`fcljkft uda Rhlrlkfts`fkmk Kfbkdsclhn-tkd whrkd, wk`clk mkf Sclð`krd dfclt bksuclt wurakd.Kr sclrfkm gfr kfdk [dtht zu, kfdk rkclt udmkakutkdak,afk fd akr bhdzkd J`hssk phssfkrtk uda hd akr fcl vþ``fbudscluàfb whr. Ah kr gfcl dfclt ahzu mrfdbkd jiddtk,gfcl h`s Qátkr zu mkjkddkd, wurak hus akr J`kfdfbjkft kfd

Sthhtsprizkss. Kr ni`tkrtk uda prðbk`tk gfr zwhr dfcltahs krlinntk Bkstádadfs, wil` hmkr ekakd B`humkd hd afkHdstádafbjkft akr @klrkrjhstk lkrhus.

Fcl lhmk afk Sclu`k dfkgh`s hmbksclìsskd uda fclshbk afr, gkfd Nrkuda, afk mkstk Sclu`k fst ahs @kmkd hdsfcl. Huns @htkfd jiggt ks dfclt hd, wkdd ghd dur ahs

Lkrz hun akg rkcltkd N`kcj lht !Ks bfmt nðr ekakd jkfdkd hdakrkd Rkb akr Kdtnh`tudb

uda Krnð`ùdb h`s akd akr gþb`fclst vi``jiggkdkd Ahr-stk`ùdb aks kfbkdkd Rkskds. —Skf au sk`mst‐ fst ahsfakh`k Bksktz, zugfdakst nðr akd eudbkd Gkdsclkd, ksbfmt jkfdkd hdakrkd Rkb zur Rhlrlkft uda zur Kdtwfcj-

ùdb.Rkr afk Jidvkdtfid, afk Nirakrudb vid Nhgf`fk,

Sthht, Bkgkfdsclhnt fd akd Rfda scl`ábt, guss ks tudgft akg Rfsskd ahrug, ahss ks hun skfdk kfbkdk Bknhlrbksclfklt.

Ahss afkskr Rkb aurcl vfk`k girh`fsclk uda hdakrk

Lfdakrdfssk krsclwkrt wfra, ahss afk Rk`t uds `fkmkr hd-bkphsst uda sclwhcl sfklt h`s kfbkdsfddfb, ahrhus kdt-stklt nðr ekakd gklr h`s aurclscldftt`fcl fdafvfauh`fsfkr-tkd Gkdsclkd akr @kmkdsjhgpn.



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Ah guss ekakr nðr sfcl h``kfd, dhcl skfdkd kfbkdkdJrántkd uda Mkaðrndfsskd, kdtsclkfakd, wfk wkft kr sfclakr Jidvkdtfid udtkrwkrnkd iakr flr tritzkd wf``. Fcl

pkrsþd`fcl lh`tk ks dhcl akg Gitti5Dfclts fst scláa`fclkr h`s akr Gfttk`wkb, `k vfk ak`

gkzzi. H`s fcl bkrhak 8; wurak, vkr`fkÙ fcl gkfdk stf``k Lkf-

ght, ahs j`kfdk Airn gft skfdkd mrhvkd, hdstádafbkdGkdsclkd, afk h``k udtkr akr Riclk kfÙfb flrkr Hrmkft

dhclbfdbkd uda sfcl hg Siddthbgirbkd mkf ekakg Rkt-tkr bkgkfdshg fd akr Jfrclk kfdnhdakd, afk wfk kfd Lkrr-sclkr hun kfdkg Mkrb ðmkr skfdk Bkgkfdak whcltk. Fclvkr`fkÙ afk Rkfzkd- uda Ghfsnkàkr, afk j`kfdkd Qkfclkuda afk shumkrk @unt, fd afk udskr Lhus kfdbkmkttkt whr.Fcl thuscltk kfdk Mfàkrmuclfay``k, fd akr gkfd @kmkd

virbkzkfcldkt whr, bkbkd kfdk _f`bkrnhlrt fds Dfkghdas-`hda , kfdk ]kfsk, afk hucl lkutk dicl dfclt zu Kdak fstuda akrkd Husbhdb uda Ufk` udbkwfss m`kfmt.

Kfdk _f`bkrnhlrt jhdd hmkr hucl kfd Gfttk` zur Sk`mst-kdtwurzkùdb skfd, kfdk ]kfsk aurcl afk Kfdshgjkft, wighd ildk Hm`kdjudb skfd Sk`mst kdtakcjkd jhdd – si

wfk kfd Nirscludbsrkfskdakr, aksskd `hdbkr Rkb fld wfk-akr zu skfdkg Husbhdbsirt zurðcjnðlrt, akd kr hmkr dudzug krstkd Gh` j`hr sklkd jhdd. Afk ]kfsk zur Kr`kucl-tudb nðlrt int fd afk Rðstk iakr zu Kfdþakd, afk sfcl nðrstrkdbk Ðmudbkd aks Sk`mst uda kfdk udvkrná`scltk fd-dkrk Kfdjklr kfbdkd.



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Afk Bkmurt aks Ri`nks

F cl akdjk, Lkrghdd Lkssk láttk gkfdk Jfdalkft wil`hg mkstkd mksclrfkmkd, akdd hucl fcl shl ks sclid

nrðl jiggkd – dicl dfclt lkutk, hucl dfclt girbkd,hmkr hun ekakd Nh`` fd brkfnmhrkr Uujudnt. Ah wðrak gkfdSclfcjsh` vi``kdas zug Husmrucl jiggkd.

Ks nkl`tk eh dur dicl hd gklr Hdbst uda @kfa uda ]ht-

ìsfbjkft, ahdd `fknk ks ðmkr, ahdd gusstk ks kfd Kdakgft Sclrkcjkd dklgkd. Kfdks Qhbks, hd bkrhak si kfdkgQhb wfk lkutk, wðrak fcl vi``kdas fg Mþskd vkrsfdjkd,fcl wðrak fd Qritz uda Rut uda wkbkd akr sfddìskd[dkrtráb`fcljkft aks @kmkds ktwhs Bráss`fclks uda Kdt-sclkfakdaks tud, ktwhs Bráss`fclks, hmkr Mknrfkafbkd-

aks, ahs akr Hdbst uda Xuá`krkf kfd Kdak ghcltk, nðrfggkr. [dbkwfss whr, whs ks skfd wðrak: hmkr _lhdth-sfkd uda vir`áubk Uwhdbsvirstk`ùdbkd ahvid whrkdgfr sclid gklrgh`s vkrwfrrkda aurcl akd Jipn bkbhd-bkd, îrstk`ùdbkd vid ^krmrkclkd, gft akdkd fcl hdakr Rk`t ]hclk dklgkd uda zub`kfcl gfcl sk`mst prkfs-

bkmkd uda vkrdfcltkd wðrak. Ghdclgh` whr ks gfr si,h`s wðrak fcl udskr Lhus hdzðdakd5 [dbklkurk N`hg-gkd sclùbkd gft N`ðbk`d aurcl afk Dhclt, Láuskr udaBhsskd wurakd vig Mrhda krbrfnnkd, afk bhdzk Sthatìakrtk rfksfb bkbkd akd sclwhrzkd Lfggk`. Iakr zuhdakrkd Ukftkd whr ahs ^krmrkclkd gkfdkr Qráugk kfdk

]hclk hd kfdkg gkfdkr @klrkr, kfd Gira uda brhusfbkrQitscl`hb. Fcl hmkr wðrak gfcl ahdd mkdklgkd wfk akr^krmrkclkr, akd fcl h`s Jfda kfdgh` fg Nkrdsklkd shl.Ks whr kfd Mrhdastfntkr, akd ghd bknhdbkd lhttk uda



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zug þrt`fclkd _i`fzkfrkvfkr mrhcltk, gft Lhdasclk`-`kd bknkssk`t, kfdkg stkfnkd Lut sclfkn hun akg Jipn,rkclts uda `fdjs vid flg kfd _i`fzfst. Afkskr Ghdd, akr

ðmkr afk StrhÙk uda aurcl kfdkd rfksfbkd î`jshuhunvid Dkubfkrfbkd bktrfkmkd wurak, hd thuskda N`ðclkd,mislhntkd Rftzkd uda lkrhusbksclrfkdkd mþskd Rðd-sclkd virmkf, afkskr Ghdd lhttk fd dfclts ekdkd hrgkd,sclkukd Qkunk`d bkb`fclkd, afk ghd zuwkf`kd vid _i-`fzfstkd hun akg Ghrjtp`htz hmbknðlrt shl uda wk`clk

gkfstkds mìÙ hrgk h`tk Gáddkr whrkd, afk bkmkttk`tlhttkd. Dkfd, afkskr whr jkfd hrgkr h`tkr Mktt`kr udashl hucl wkakr wfdafb, sclku dicl wkfdkr`fcl hus iakrðcltktk fd vkr`kbkd-auggks Brfdskd, wfk fcl ks huclsclid bksklkd lhttk – afkskr whr kfd kcltkr ^krmrk-clkr uda trub akd ktwhs zkrmku`tkd Lut jðld hun kfdkg

tritzfbkd uda udbkmkubtkd Scláak`, kr whr m`kfcl uda`áclk`tk stf`` vkrhcltudbsvi``, uda ahs î`j, ahs fld mk-sclfgpntk uda hdspfk, wurak dkmkd flg zug _hcj uda_þmk`. Fcl shl skfdkd hunrkcltkd Bhdb, wfk kr afk bknks-sk`tkd Ládak vir sfcl lkrtrub uda wfk kr hun akg zálkd,mþskd Jipn akd Lut jðld wfk kfdk plhdthstfsclk Jridk

trub … uda wfk kr `áclk`tk ! Si wfk afkskr ^krmrkclkrhmkr wðrak hucl fcl `áclk`d uda akd Jipn stkfn lh`tkd,wkdd ghd gfcl fds Bkrfclt uda hun ahs Sclhnitt nðlrtk,uda wkdd afk vfk`kd @kutk ug gfcl lkrarádbtkd udalildvi`` hunsclrfkd – fcl wðrak dfclt eh uda dfclt dkfdshbkd, kfdnhcl sclwkfbkd uda vkrhcltkd.

[da wkdd fcl lfdbkrfcltkt uda tit whr uda fg Lfggk`vir akd kwfbkd ]fcltkr jhg, ahdd wi``tk fcl gfcl jkf-dkswkbs mkubkd uda udtkrwkrnkd. Il dkfd, uda wkdd



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h``k Kdbk`sclhrkd fld ugsthdakd uda h``k Lkf`fbjkft udaRðrak hus flg strhl`tk ! Gicltk kr gfcl vkrahggkd,gicltk kr gfcl fd _kcl sfkakd `hsskd ! Fcl wi``tk gfcl

dfclt kdtscluàfbkd, gfcl dfclt akgðtfbkd, fld dfclt ug^krzkfludb mfttkd, dfclts mkrkukd ! Rkdd kr gfcl nrhbtk5—Lhst au ahs uda ahs bkthd 9‐, si wðrak fcl runkd5 —Eh-wil`, fcl lhmk ks bkthd uda dicl gklr uda ks whr rkclt,ahss fcl‖s bkthd lhmk, uda wkdd fcl jhdd, wkrak fcl kswfkakr uda wfkakr tud. Fcl lhmk titbkscl`hbkd, fcl lhmk

Láuskr hdbkzðdakt, wkf` ks gfr SphÙ ghcltk uda wkf`fcl afcl vkrlþldkd uda árbkrd wi``tk. Eh, akdd fcl lhsskafcl, fcl spucjk afr vir afk NðÙk, Bitt. Au lhst gfcl bk-quá`t uda bkscludakd, au lhst Bksktzk bkbkmkd, afk dfk-ghda lh`tkd jhdd, au lhst afk Krwhclskdkd hdbkstfntkt,uds Eudbkd ahs @kmkd zu vkrshukd. Rhs ̀ fkbt ks ahrhd, im

ektzt zug briÙkd [db`ðcj dicl kfd j`kfdks ahzujiggt !‐[da si ghcltk fcl gfcl hun akd Rkb, akd Lkrrbitt zudakd !

- Gft zwþ`n wurak fcl ahs krstk Gh` vkrlhntkt.- Gkfdk krstk Bkrfcltsvkrlhdaùdb krlfk`t fcl gft 815

Afkmsthl`, sclwkrk Shclmkscláafbudb uda î`jsvkr-lktzudb. Afk Strhnk5 ;? bkgkfddðtzfbk Hrmkftsstud-akd.

- Afk zwkftk ^krlhdaùdb krlfk`t fcl gft 8>5 sclwkrkr@hdanrfkakdsmrucl. Afk Strhnk5 1? bkgkfddðtzfbk Hr-mkftsstudakd.

- Gft 82 wurak fcl ahs krstk Gh` fd [dtkrsucludbslhntbkspkrrt. Autzkdak Dácltk fd Bkwhlrshgzk``kd vkr-sclfkakdstkr _i`fzkfrkvfkrk bfdbkd akg virhus udasfda lfkr dfclt krst akr ]kak wkrt.



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- Afk arfttk ^krlhdaùdb krlfk`t fcl gft 8<, afksgh`jhg ks lkrmkr5 Shclmkscláafbudb, î`jsvkrlktzudb,Jþrpkrvkr`ktzudb, sclwkrk Jþrpkrvkr`ktzudb, bk-

nálr`fclk Jþrpkrvkr`ktzudb (fd wfk vfk`kd Ná``kd wkfÙfcl dfclt gklr !), ]hum, Kfdmrucl, ráumkrfsclk Krprks-sudb … Afk Strhnk5 arkf Ehlrk uda skcls Gidhtk Eu-bkdabknádbdfs !

- Spátkr wfra ahdd dicl kfdk wkftkrk Lhntstrhnk wkbkd—îrmkrkftudb kfdks rkcltstkrrirfstfsclkd Hdscl`hbks‐

ahzujiggkd.

Rfk ks ahzu jhg, lhttk fcl mkrkfts husnðlr`fcl fd gkf-dkg krstkd Mucl ^krsclkdjtk Ehlrk mkrfcltkt, uda kskdtsprfclt wkakr akg Sfdd dicl fst ks vid Rfcltfbjkft, Fg Dfkghdas`hda ahrhun kfdzubklkd, akdd ks arklt sfcl

lfkr ug ahs Rhrug !

Ks fst kfdk sclþdk Shclk ug afk Uunrfkakdlkft, ug afkSclgkrzìsfbjkft, ug afksk krtráb`fclkd bkarðcjtkdQhbk, wi wkakr Sclgkrz dicl @ust zu sclrkfkd whbt, wih``ks dur ðstkrt uda hun Uklkd scl`kfclt. Dur stklt ks

gft gfr `kfakr si, ahss fcl bkrhak afksk Uunrfkakdlkftbhr dfclt vkrtrhbk, ahss sfk gfr dhcl jurzkr Ahukr ud-husstkl`fcl vkrlhsst uda kjk`lhnt wfra uda fcl gfcl vkr-zwkfudbsvi`` fd hdakrk Qkgpkrhturkd ðcltkd guss,wigþb`fcl hun akg Rkbk akr @ustbknðl`k, dþtfbkdnh``shmkr hucl hun akg Rkbk akr Sclgkrzkd.

Rkdd fcl kfdk Rkf`k ildk @ust uda ildk Sclgkrzwhr uda afk `huk, nhak Krtráb`fcljkft sibkdhddtkr butkrQhbk bkhtgkt lhmk, ahdd wfra gfr fd gkfdkr jfdafsclkdSkk`k si wfdafb wkl uda k`kda, ahss fcl afk vkrristktk



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Ahdjmhrjkfts`kfkr akg scl`ánrfbkd Uunrfkakdlkftsbittfds zunrfkakdk Bksfclt sclgkfÙk uda `fkmkr kfdkd rkclttkufsclkd Sclgkrz fd gfr mrkddkd nðl`k h`s afksk mk-

jþgg`fclk Ufggkrtkgpkrhtur. Ks mrkddt h`sahdd kfdkwf`ak Mkbfkrak dhcl sthrjkd Bknðl`kd, dhcl Skdshtfi-dkd, kfdk Rut hun afks hmbktþdtk, hclk, dirgfkrtk udastkrf`fsfkrtk @kmkd uda kfdk rhskdak @ust, frbkdaktwhsjhputt zu scl`hbkd, ktwh kfd Rhrkdlhus iakr kfdk Jh-tlkarh`k iakr gfcl sk`mst, vkrwkbkdk Augglkftkd zu

mkbklkd, kfd phhr vkrklrtkd Bþtzkd afk _krðcjkd hmzu-rkfÙkd, kfd phhr rkmk``fsclk Mursclkd hunzulktzkd ahs]htlhus zu krstðrgkd, kfd eudbks Gáaclkd zu vkrnðlrkdiakr kfdfbkd ^krtrktkrd akr mðrbkr`fclkd Rk`tiradudbahs Bksfclt fds Bkdfcj zu arklkd. Akdd afks lhsstk, vkr-hmsclkutk uda vkrucltk fcl vid h``kg aicl hg fddfbs-

tkd5 afksk Uunrfkakdlkft, afksk Bksudalkft, Mklhb`fcl-jkft, afkskd bkpkbtkd Iptfgfsgus aks Mðrbkrs, afksknkttk bkakfl`fclk Uuclt aks Gfttk`gáÙfbkd, Dirgh`kd,Aurclscldftt`fclkd …

Gkfdk `ktztk Jrhnt wf`` fcl hunwkdakd, zu zkfbkd,ahss fcl dfclt afk Ghsclfdk mfd, afk ghd dur hunzuzfk-

lkd mrhuclt. @fkmkr sfcl gft h``kd Qkunk`d uda Aágidkdscl`hbkd, h`s akd vkr`ibkdkd Bitt akr Jidvkdtfid hddkl-gkd ! H`si ghclk fcl kfdk ]kfsk airtlfd, wi fcl skft akrKrdaudb aks SclfkÙpu`vkrs dfclt gklr bkwkskd mfd –kfdk ]kfsk fds Bknádbdfs. Aicl mkvir ks ahzu jiggkdjhdd, guss fcl krst afk Lðrak kfdks Bkrfcltsprizkssks

ðmkrwfdakd.Ah sftzk fcl dud hun akr Hdj`hbkmhdj, dhclakg fcl

zuvir wfk kfd fd Jkttkd bk`kbtkr B`hafhtir fd afk Hrkdhgft Jðld- uda ^krwkbkdlkft hd akr Uusclhukrtrfmðdk



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virmkfsti`zfkrt mfd, ug gfcl vid akg stupfakd Lhss afk-skr M`utgkdsclkd mkrhusclkd zu `hsskd. Akr ]kdkbhtdfggt dud skfdkd _`htz kfd uda whrtkt hun afk _lhrfsákr

fd flrkd sclwhrzkd ]imkd.Ah jiggkd sfk, akr ]fcltkr fst kfd whlrkr _iphdz gft

akr Uudbk kfdks Siplfstkd. Akr kfdk Sclþnnk lht akdHdsclkfd kfdks _l`kbghtfjkrs uda afk hdakrk Sclþndkrfddkrt gfcl hd kfdk Lyádk. Afk Sthhtshdwá`tfd sfklthus wfk afk ]kfdjhrdhtfid akr _hdairh gft RkfÙwurst-

Hjzkdt. Gkfd Hdwh`t jiggt hucl bkgkfdshg gft afk-skg _lf`fstkrtug. H`s kr ks sfcl dkmkd gfr hg _rhdbkrmkqukg ghclt uda afksk Du`pk ahs _h`hvkrd hdnádbt,rfkclk fcl bhr kfdk Rkfdnhldk hus skfdkg Gudak. Jhddks skfd, ahss afk Ahgkd uda Lkrrkd bkrhak vig bkgkfd-shgkd Gftthbksskd jiggkd, wi sfk flrkd Dkpitfsgus

dicl scldk`` kfdgh` mkbisskd lhmkd 9 ! Bkrd láttk fclahmkfbksksskd, akdd5

Fcl trádjk bkrd kfd B`hs, afk Nrkflkft licl zu Klrkd,

wkdd kurk Rkfdk dur kfd mfssclkd mksskr wárkd !

Ks mkbfddt gfr zu aággkrd, gkfd [db`ðcj wfra brþÙkrskfd h`s gkfdk Sclu`a uda hucl, ahss fcl `krdkd wkrak,whs ahs Rirt Hpisthsfk mkakutkt.

Imwil` fcl kfd bhdzks Bkmfrbk zu trhbkd lhmk, mfd fcl

akr kfdzfbk bkrhak Ghdd fg Bkrfcltsshh` !Akr Shh` whr afclt mksktzt. Fd vfk`kd ]kflkd shÙkd

afk Uusclhukr sclwkfbkda hun akd Mádjkd. Sclwkr wfkStkfdk k`kd afk Nrhbkd fd afk Stf``k uda afk Uusclhukr



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m`fcjtkd wfk fd kfdkg Ufrjus, wi bkrhak kfd Ghdd ðmkr kfdSkf` bfdb uda sfk akd Htkg hdlfk`tkd, wkf` akr Ghdd fd afkQfknk stðrzkd jþddtk. Lfkr wusstkd sfk, ahss kr stðrzkd

wðrak !Fcl kgpnhda afk bhdzk ^krlhdaùdb h`s kfdk kdaìsk

Nkfdask`fbjkft. Afk Sclwhrzmkrimtkd sclfkdkd gfr wfkBþtzkdprfkstkr fd akr Jhtlkarh`k flrkr _skuairk`fbfid,afk lfkr kfdgh` gklr flr ]ftuh` zk`kmrfkrtkd. [da dud wfrasfcl afk Shclk zuspftzkd5 Ahs Gkdsclkdipnkr wfra bknir-

akrt wkrakd. Ahdd mkbhdd ahs Bksktz zu sprkclkd aurclakd Guda aks ]fcltkrs. Fd akr Stf``k j`hdbkd afk Rirtknhst wfk kfd Bkmkt, afk @fturbfk aks Bksktzks5

—Fg Dhgkd aks î`jks vkrjðdak fcl ni`bkdaks [r-tkf` …‐

Fd akd Uusclhukrrádbkd bkdiss ghd ahs urh`tk Sclhu-

spfk` akr ^krurtkfùdb !Afksks ^krbk`tudbsstrhnrkclt vkrhd`hsstk Nrhdz vid

@fszt mkrkfts fg Ehlrk 86?= gft Fridfk uda Mfttkrjkft nkst-zustk``kd5 Gft ekakr ^krurtkfùdb wáclst akr Lhdb zug^krmrkclkd. Kr wfra ugsi brþÙkr, ek brþÙkr afk Uhl` akrvirhdbkbhdbkdkd Mkstrhnudbkd fst.

Ahs rkcltgáÙfbk [drkclt aks Sthhtks – afk ktlfsclkdÐmkrzkubudbkd kfdks bhdzkd ̂ i`jks wkrakd vid akr Eus-tfz fbdirfkrt. Ahs ]kcltskgpdakd aks j`kfdkd Ghddkswfra gft akg Rirt Sðldk bkdhrrt. Afk Sðldk ðmkrdfggtakr Sthht, h`s skf akr Sthht aurcl kfdk Strhntht bkscláafbtwirakd, imwil` kr aicl dur afk ]i``k aks Sclfkasrfcl-

tkrs zwfsclkd akg Qátkr uda akg Bkscláafbtkd lht. AkrNfsjus gfssmrhuclt afk ]i``k aks Sthhtks h`s Rhlrkr akrIradudb uda Rfkakrlkrstk``kr aks bkstþrtkd ]kclts, fd-akg kr ks vkrsthdakd lht, hus akr _rhxfs aks Strhnkds nðr



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sfcl kfd Bksclánt zu ghclkd. Ks jiggt jkfdk ̂ krsþldudbzwfsclkd akg Qátkr uda akg Bkscláafbtkd zusthdak, kswfra dfclts rkphrfkrt !

Ks lkrrsclt kfdk Ktlfj aks —]kclt bkmðlrt akr Ghclt‐ .Afk Jkrdnrhbk fst hmkr dfclt @kbh`ftát, sidakrd afk @kbf-tfgftát, dfclt ]kclt, sidakrd Bkrkcltfbjkft ! Hucl mrhu-clkd sfk akd ^krmrkclkr, kr fst flrk Kdtsclu`afbudb udasfk krlþlkd sfcl aurcl fld, fdakg sfk shbkd jþddkd5 Rfrsfda mksskrk Gkdsclkd !

Fcl wkrak dud fd ahs Eubkdabknádbdfs hmbknðlrt, akr]ksizfh`fsfkrudbstkgpk` afkskr Butgkdsclkd, fd akgghd hus gfr kfdkd mksskrkd Gkdsclkd uda gfcl fd kfddðtz`fclks B`fka akr Bksk``sclhnt vkrwhdak`d wfra. Eh,akr Irt, hd akg fcl gkfdkd Qhb vid Ahghsjus phr kxck`-`kdck kr`kmkd si``. Flrk Gktliakd guss sfk, afk Eustftfh,

hmkr vkrstkcjkd, wkf` afksk hun zfvf`fsfkrtk Gkdsclkd hm-stiÙkda wfrjkd, wálrkda fcl gfcl sclid gh` gft ni`bkd-akd Ukf`kd hun afk Rkbstrkcjk, afk dud jiggkd si``tk,kfdstfggkd láttk jþddkd5

Hcl, ks whra vid ekdkg B`ðcjk

Hus akd Ládakd gfr bkscl`hbkdBut ug But uda Stðcj ug Stðcjk:

Hus fst‖s gft akd lkftrkd Qhbkd.

Sclkrmkdmkrb uda Qrðggkrstáttk

Fst afk Rk`t uda fst gkfd @kmkd.

Rkfdkda gþclt fcl gfcl krbkmkd,

Rkdd fcl afkskd Qritz dfclt láttk …Lkrghdd Lkssk



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Afk Jfdalkft fd akr Ghsclfdk

Jhug kfdkr, akr kfdgh` fd kfdkg Bknádbdfs bksksskdlht, vkrbfsst akd trhughtfsclkd Hubkdm`fcj, fd akg

sfcl zug krstkd Gh` afk Uk``kdtðr lfdtkr kfdkg scl`fkÙt.Ks fst dfclt zu mksclrkfmkd. Ks fst kfd Sclicj, vid akg sfclvfk`k kfd bhdzks @kmkd dfclt gklr krli`kd. Hmkr krst kfdgh`stklst au vir akg Bkmáuak, E^H Mrhdakdmurb, afk h`tk E^H

Arksakd fd akr SclfkÙbhssk, afk dkuk E^H Arksakd hun akgLhggkrwkb, afk E^H Mkr`fd-Gihmft, E^H Mkr`fd-Qkbk`, E^HClhrìttkdmurb, afk E^H Clkgdftz uda hucl ahs Bknádbdfsfg sclittfsclkd B`hsbiw aurntk fcl fd akd skcls Ehlrkd udaskcls Gidhtkd, afk fcl mfs lkutk fdsbkshgt fd Bknádbdfsskdvkrmrhcltk, h`s Fdshssk kr`kmkd. Aicl akr ]kflk dhcl !

Ks fst Gfttk Ehduhr 8662 uda fcl sftzk fd kfdkr j`kf-dkd Uk``k fd kfdkg Bknádbdfsmus, akr gfcl vid akr h`tkd[dtkrsucludbslhnt fd akr Arksadkr SclfkÙbhssk zur E^HUkftlhfd vkrsclim, airt vkrmðÙtk fcl gkfdk Eubkdastrhnkfd akd jiggkdakd Ehlrkd.

Afk Lhnthdsth`t wurak fd ̀ áda`fclkr [gbkmudb krrfcl-

tkt, whr vid Nkàkrd, Rfkskd, Ráàkrd ugbkmkd uda kswkltk fggkr kfd rhukr Rfda. Fdgfttkd afkskr Fay``k kfd-bkmkttkt sthda kr dud, Eustftfhs ]ksizfh`fsfkrudbstkg-pk`. Kfd brhukr Mktidmìcj, akr gfcl hd kfdk hunbkstk``tkStrkfclli`zsclhcltk` krfddkrtk, ugbkmkd vid Ghukrd,Sthclkàrhlt uda Rhcltðrgkd. Ks whr kfd kfsjh`tkr Rfd-

tkrthb. Ahs Qir þnndktk sfcl uda akr Bknhdbkdkdtrhdspirtkrlfk`t Kfdtrftt.

Fg Dhcllfdkfd krfddkrk fcl gfcl, whs akr ]fcltkrzu gfr shbtk5 —Dfcj, au wfrst fg Bknádbdfs kfdk @klrk



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ghclkd uda bhr afk Gþb`fcljkft kfdkr Sizfh`tlkrhpfk mk-jiggkd !‐ Fcl sklk Gkafkdmkrfcltk uda whs afk Mðrbkrgft flrkd virbknkrtfbtkd Gkfdudbkd ðmkr ahs Bknádbdfs

wfsskd uda shbkd5 —Ks bklt akdkd aicl vfk` zu but ahrfd,afksk ^krmrkclkr `kmkd aicl fg Jdhst wfk fd kfdkg Li-tk`, sfk lhmkd butks Ksskd, jþddkd akd bhdzkd Qhb Spirttrkfmkd uda lhmkd bhr kfdkd Nkrdsklkr hun flrkd Uk``kd.Ahs lht aicl gft Strhnk dfclts gklr zu tud ! ! !‐

Kfd lh`mks Autzkda Bknhdbkdkr zwfsclkd 8; uda =3

Ehlrk h`t wurak dud ðmkr akd Bknádbdfslin, ðmkr akd kfdkfsjh`tkr Rfda wkltk, ksjirtfkrt. ^irmkf hd akr bkshg-tkd Nhsshak aks Lhntlhusks, h`s im ghd kfdkd Sclhu`hunzurðcj`kbt, akdd hd akd vkrbfttkrtkd Nkdstkrd lhttkdafk Jdhcjfs sclid hun ahs wþclkdt`fclk Krkfbdfs – afkHdjudnt akr Dkukd – bkwhrtkt uda whrnkd uds dud h`-

`krlhda wfrrk, akrmk uda hmbksclghcjtk Sprðclk hunudskrk Jþpnk lkrhm5 —Mrfdbt fld zu gfr‐, —Rf``jiggkdfg N`kfsclwi`n‐, —Nrfsclkfscl‐ … Kfdfbk fgftfkrtkd Hn-nkd`hutk, Ludak- uda Jhtzkdbkmk``, _nkrakbkwfklkr iakrahs Gálkrd kfdks Sclhnks. Ghd wusstk b`kfcl, lfkr whrghd fg Uii hdbkjiggkd !

Fcl whr nril, h`s fcl akd ]un kfdks Nrkudaks vkrdhlg5—Lky Dfcj, lfkr mfd fcl, lfkr arðmkd. Gkdscl wfra eh Ukft,ahss au hucl gh` virmkfsclhust.‐ Ks whr kfd Nrkuda, akrsclid kfd Ehlr vir gfr afk Nhsshak hm`hunkd aurntk, krwhr gkfd Gfttátkr, gft akg bkgkfdshg fcl kfdkd ]hummkbfdb.

Fcl nðl`tk gfcl kr`kfcltkrt zu wfsskd, vid kfdkg Nrkudakrjhddt wirakd zu skfd, ahss fcl lfkr hg Kdak dfclt hungfcl h``kfd bkstk``t mfd. Afk gkfstkd Dkuhdjþgg`fdbkwhrkd gft afkskg B`ðcj dfclt bkskbdkt.



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Rfr wurakd fd akd Jk``kr aks Jdhstks bknðlrt, wi afkJhggkr udtkrbkmrhclt whr, ðmkr udskrkd Jþpnkd lfdbkdafk Rhsskr- uda Lkfzudbsrilrk lkrhm, h`s wi``tkd sfk uds

shbkd5 —Mfdakt kfdkd Strfcj ug uds uda ládbt kucl ̀ fkmkrb`kfcl hun.‐ H``ks, whs fcl mfslkr vid afkskg Irt shl, whrbrhu5 afk Ghukrd, afk Rkbk, ahs Lhntlhus, akr Bhdb fgJk``kr. Afk brhuk Gkf`k !

Afk Jhggkr fst akr Irt, wi ekakr Dkuhdjþgg`fdbh`s Krstks lfdbkmrhclt wfra, lfkr wfra afr ahs krstk Gh`

bkzkfbt, ahss au hm lkutk kfd Dfkghda mfst. Akfd Dhgkwfra bkrunkd, ektzt mfst au hd akr ]kflk. Ks bklt fd kfdkd]hug, wi au vid arkf Mkhgtkd ahzu hunbknirakrt wfrst,afk _rfvhtj`kfaudb, afk au mfs ektzt hg @kfmk bktrhbkdlhst, hmzubkmkd. —Huszfklkd !‐, arþldt afk Stfggk kf-dks Mkhgtkd. Gft ekakg J`kfaudbsstðcj wfra afr udhdbk-

dklgkr5 Ehcjk, _u`ìvkr, Q-Slfrt, Bðrtk`, Lisk, Sicjkd.Ah stklst au dud h`s eudbkr Mursclk fd [dtkrlisk, ug-

rfdbt vid arkf krwhclskdkd Gáddkrd uda au mkbfddstafcl zu sclágkd, hmkr ghd bfmt afr dfclt vfk` Ukft, ugdhclzuakdjkd … —Bhdz huszfklkd !‐, krtþdt kfdk huti-rftárk Stfggk vi``kr Sk`mstlkrr`fcljkft.

Ks guss wil` si skfd, wkdd au bkmirkd wfrst, dur ahssau lfkr rkh`fsfkrst, ahss au dhcjt, wfk Bitt afcl sclun, mk-buthcltkt wfrst. Akr Jþrpkr fst m`hss uda dur akr Jipn nku-krrit. —[garklkd uda virdðmkrmkubkd !‐, lággkrt afkStfggk dud … Ektzt nirakrt sfk bhr fd afkskr kdtklrkdakdJþrpkrlh`tudb, afk au kfddklgkd gusstkst5 —Hrsclmh-

cjkd huskfdhdakrzfklkd !‐ Au nðl`st ektzt afk M`fcjk akrMkhgtkd, wfk sfk afr huns mìÙbkstk``tk eudbk Hrsclìclsthrrkd, uda gþcltkst vir Sclhg fg Miakd vkrsfdjkd.Skf mìÙ nril, ahss afcl dfclt brha hucl dicl akr ittk



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Lkfdrfcl p`hbt, ahs wárk krst kfdk Hnnkdsclhdak … Hmkrah jiggt afk dáclstk Hdiradudb sclid bksclgkttkrt5—Hunrfcltkd uda Jdfkmkubk ghclkd !‐

^fk``kfclt vkrsuclst au eh ktwhs zu sclgubbk`d udalhst ks fg Hdus vkrstkcjt, aurcl afk Jdfkmkubk wfra ksafr sclid lkrhusarðcjkd, whs fggkr ks hucl fst, aicl ahsKfdzfbk, whs ks afr si ̀ hdbshg lkrhusarðcjt, sfda Qrádkdakr Sclhg uda ildgácltfbkd Rut, afk vid afkskg Qhbkhd fd afr zu bárkd mkbfddt.

Au mkjiggst ektzt akfdk Bknádbdfsj`kfaudb, mkstk-lkda hus kfdkg M`hughdd uda kfdkg wkfÙ-m`hu bk-strkfntkd N`kfsclkrlkga, ahzu kfdk Akcjk bknkrtfbt hus_nkraklhhr. Hucl mkjiggst uda wfrst au hm lkutk kfdkDuggkr … uda zug Hmscl`uss aks Hundhlgkvkrnhlrkdsbfmt ks imkdarhun kfd _hhr Sicjkd gft @þclkrd – brhuk

Sicjkd ! Afk —dkukd‐ Sclulk, afk ghd afr lfkr bhm, ugakfdkd Rkb aurcl afk Ehlrk fd afkskr Kfdrfcltudb zu bk-lkd, sfda husbktrktkd, zu briÙ uda stfdjkd dhcl akgSclwkfÙ, akd kfd hdakrkr Jdhstmruakr sclid vir afr fdfldkd bk`hsskd lht.

Afk Lhnthdsth`t fd Ukftlhfd mksthda hus kfdkg —Lhus H‐uda kfdkg —M-Lhus‐, mkfak fg sk`mkd Jigp`kx gft zwkfskphrhtkd Kfdbádbkd hd akr Nridtskftk. Ekaks akr mkfakdLáuskr mkfdlh`tktk vfkr Kthbkd, afk lfkr Sthtfidkd bkdhddtwkrakd uda vid udtkd dhcl imkd gft akd Ufnnkrd 8, =, 3iakr 1 mkdhddt wurakd. Ekak Sthtfid mklkrmkrbt ug afk

3? Lánt`fdbk fd Uwkf- uda/iakr ̂ fkrghddzk``kd. Uwkf Láu-skr gft fdsbkshgt hclt Sthtfidkd, hun akdkd ug afk =;?Bknhdbkdk kfdk Lkfght lhttkd. Fg M-Lhus `kmtkd afk 81-mfs 86- uda fg Lhus H afk =?- mfs =1-eálrfbkd Jdhcjfs.



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Hun akg Bknádbdfslin sthda zur ]kcltkd aks Lhntlhu-sks kfd N`hclmhu, fd akg Jðclk uda Spkfskshh` udtkr-bkmrhclt whrkd. Uur @fdjkd ktwhs wkftkr kdtnkrdt uda

hmbktrkddt, aurcl kfdkd bksidakrtkd, ktwh 3,;? g li-lkd Uhud gft DHQI-Sthclkàrhlt h`s Jridk, sthdakd afkHrmkftsmktrfkmk, fd akdkd fggkrlfd afk gkfstkd vid udskfdk Mksclántfbudb bkmitkd mkjhgkd.

Ks bhm airt kfdkd Ghurkrmktrfkm, kfdk Gkth``- uda kfdkLi`zwkrjsthtt, frbkdawhdd wðrak bhr kfdk Jnz-Rkrjsthtt

ahzujiggkd. Fcl wkrak kucl spátkr mkrfcltkd, wfk afkHrmkft akr Fdlhntfkrtkd fd akd Mktrfkmkd hm`fkn. Hun akgbhdzkd Bk`ádak whrkd j`kfdk Stráuclkr hdbk`kbt, afkaurcl akd Rfdtkr jkfdkr`kf @kmkd zkfbtkd uda wfk ghl-dkdak Sjk`kttk jdiclfbk Hrgk wfk kfdkd Lf`nksclrkf fdh``k ]fcltudbkd husmrkftktkd. Ðmkrh`` Jhgkrhs, afk fd

akd dáclstkd Ehlrkd ekakd akfdkr Sclrfttk vkrni`bkduda hunzkfcldkd.

Afk Bksth`t akfdks dkukd ^htkrs uda akfdkr dkukdGuttkr sfda kfd Bknádbdfsafrkjtir, kfd Sfclkrlkftsfd-spkjtir, zwkf Mkrkfcls`kftkr, hclt Sthtfids`kftkr, zwkf_sycliìbkd, arkf Sizfh`hrmkftkr, kfdk Judsttlkrhpkutfd,

kfdk Suclttlkrhpkutfd siwfk kfd phhr Autzkda Mkhgtk,afk sfcl ug Qhb- uda Dhcltsclfcltkd mh`bkd.

Akfdk dkukd Bksclwfstkr sfda =;? 81- mfs =1-eálrfbkEubkdastrhnbknhdbkdk, vid Afkmkd h``kr Jhtkbirfkd5Kfdmrkclkr, Mrhdastfntkr, ^krbkwh`tfbkr, ]áumkr, Ari-bkdláda`kr, @kfclkdscládakr, Bkwh`tvkrmrkclkr ekakr

Ciu`kur mfs lfd zug Qitscl`ábkr uda Gþrakr.Afk Kfdtkfùdb akr Lhntstrhnkd rkfclt vid skcls Gi-

dhtkd mfs zu zkld Ehlrkd. Fcl wkrak ks zu kfdkr Bk-shgtsuggk vid vfkr Ehlrkd Eubkdastrhnk mrfdbkd, akr



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Aurclscldftt `hb mkf 8= mfs 8< Gidhtkd, hun ahs bkshgtkLhntlhus liclbkrkcldkt.

Au lhst ektzt fg —Litk` Ukftlhfd-Mkhcl‐ kfdbkclkcjt,

si dhddtk afk lfkr udtkrbkmrhcltk Bksk``sclhnt flr brhuksUulhusk, hus akg ks fd arkf Ehlrkd dur kfd Kfdzfbkr sclhn-nkd si``tk huszumrkclkd, kfd Autzkda lht akd ^krsucludtkrdiggkd uda afk Ghssk `kmtk bhdz kfdnhcl gft fl-rkg Sclfcjsh`.

Kfd M`fcj hus akfdkg vkrbfttkrtkd Nkdstkr zkfbt afr

ahs kfdbkrhlgtk Bk`ádak, kfd 1,;? g lilkr Ghsclkd-arhltzhud hus Sthl`, aksskd Spftzk spfrh`nþrgfb gftDHQI-Sthclkàrhlt ugwfcjk`t fst. Ahs Judstwkrj fst gftMkwkbudbsgkàkrd husbksthttkt. 1 g lfdtkr afkskr Mhr-rfkrk mkdakt sfcl afk zwkftk [grhlgudb aks Bk`ádaksfd Nirg kfdkr 3,;? g lilkd brhukd Mktidghukr.

Rfk bklt ks dud wkftkr 9 Krst gh` bhr dfclt.Au whrtkst zwkf Riclkd hun afk Uubhdbsjidnkrkdz,

ks fst kfd j`kfdks Qrfmudh` fd kfdkg Jidnkrkdzzfggkr,hd akg dkmkd afr h`s Bkbrf``tkd akr Bknádbdfsafrkjtir,kfdkr akr Mkrkfcls`kftkr, kfd _sycliìbk, kfd Sizfh`hr-mkftkr uda gfdakstkds kfd Mkhgtkr tkf`dklgkd, ug afcl

huszulirclkd, sfcl kfd Mfà vid afr zu ghclkd uda zukdtsclkfakd, wfk akfd î``zubsp`hd huszusklkd lht. Fgî``zubsp`hd wfra nkstbk`kbt, im uda wk`clk Hrmkft aumkjiggkd wfrst, im au zur Sucltmkrhtudb gusst iakrhd kfdkg Hdtfbkwh`ttrhfdfdb tkf`dklgkd si``tkst. Dhcldur zkld Gfdutkd wfra ahdd bhdz wf``jðr`fcl aurcl akd

krstkd Kfdarucj, akd ghd fd afkskd phhr Gfdutkd vid afrmkjiggkd lht, kdtsclfkakd, vid wk`clkg Kdt`hssudbs-zkftpudjt ghd mkf afr husbklt5 Lh`mstrhnk, Uwkfarfttk`-strhnk iakr Kdastrhnk. @ktztkrks wfra QK bkdhddt, whs nðr



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Qkrgfdkdak stklt. Rkdd au afcl but nðlrst, ahdd lhst auh`s sibkdhddtkr Eubkdastrhnkr butk Clhdckd, dhcl akrLá`ntk iakr zugfdakst dhcl ^krmðÙkd vid zwkf Arfttk`d

akfdkr Bkshgtstrhnk virzkftfb hun Mkwálrudb kdt`hsskdzu wkrakd. Ahs dáclstk Qrfmudh` afkskr Hrt wfra fd skclsGidhtkd skfd uda trábt ahdd akd Qftk` —^i``zubsp`hdjid-nkrkdz‐.

Au whrtkst ektzt dicl gh` kfd phhr Studakd uda ahddmrfdbt afcl kfd Mkhgtkr vid akfdkr Uubhdbszk``k, fd akr

au afk ̀ ktztkd zwkf Riclkd h`s Dkuhdjþgg`fdb vid h``kgfsi`fkrt vkrmrhcltkst, hun afk Sthtfid, afk ahs Qrfmudh` nðrafcl husbkwál`t lht. Fcl whr 86 Ehlrk h`t bkwirakd, ah-gft M-Lhus-Jhdafaht uda kdaktk krst gh` nðr afk dácls-tkd hclt Gidhtk hun akr Sthtfid M-3, mkvir fcl ahdd h`s=?-Eálrfbkr fds Lhus H wkftkrvkrsclfnnt wurak. Ks bhm

jkfdkd [dtkrsclkfa zwfsclkd akd Sthtfidkd, whs akd Uf-vf`fshtfidsbrha mktrhn, uda hucl sidst dfclts. Afksk`mkHtgisplárk, afksk`mkd Clhrhjtkrk, akrsk`mk Hdstrfcl. Fddfclts udtkrsclfkakd sfk sfcl uda afk _i`ftfj whr kmkdsih``kd bkgkfdshg.

Lfkr fst dfclt gklr si vfk` _`htz nðr Lkrghdd Lkssk,

lþclstkds vfk``kfclt fd akr Dhclt. ̂ i`thfrk wðrak sfcl bhrkrmrkclkd.

Lfkr rkbfkrkd Dfcci`ý Ghclfhvk``f uda Nrfkarfcl Dfktz-sclk, ahs ]kclt aks Stárjkrkd !

Hd gkfdk Uk``kdwhda lht kfd ^irbádbkr skfdk bhdzkfbkdk Rkfslkft bksclrfkmkd5 —Rkdd ghd mfs zug Lh`s

fd akr SclkfÙk stkcjt, ahdd si``tk ghd akd Jipn dfcltládbkd ̀ hsskd.‐ Hmkr hucl5 —Jhddst au akd Jdhst dfcltðmkrstkld, ahrnst au jkfdk Afdbkr arkld.‐ Fcl sclrkfmkahdkmkd5 —Akfdk @hbk lfkr wfra dur ahdd but skfd, wkdd



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au afcl flr hdzuphsskd vkrghbst uda afcl dfclt aurcl

nh`sclkd Rfakrsthda hunrkfmst.‐ Fcl b`humk, fcl htgktk zug krstkd Gh` fd gkfdkg @k-

mkd nðr Hubkdm`fcjk akd jh`tkd Átlkr, afk Kfdshgjkft,ahs Sclfcjsh`. Fcl shl jkfdkd Huswkb, lhttk jkfdk _`ádk,hucl jkfdk Hdbst, dfclts h`s ahs jh`tk, rhuk Bknðl`.

Rfk wðrakd afk dáclstkd Ehlrk hussklkd 9 Fcl nhdbkhd, afk Gidhtk zu mkrkcldkd, ahdd afk Riclkd, afk Qhbkuda ̀ ktztkda`fcl bhr afk Studakd. Fcl lhttk dfclts hdakrks

bkahclt, bkwðdsclt, krskldt, h`s ahss ahs Bkwfttkr dudhusmrfclt, ahss ahs Nurcltmhrk zur Rfrj`fcljkft wðrak.

Ahss kfd Bkwfttkr ktwhs _isftfvks fst, ahs kfdk ùnt-rkfdfbkdak Rfrjudb lht, si wkft ahcltk fcl ahgh`s dicldfclt.

Afk Nrhbk fst, wfk scl`fgg jhdd sfcl ahs [dwkttkr

dicl kdtwfcjk`d, wfk scl`fgg wfra akr @kfakdswkb aurclafksk brhuk Kfdþak hus Mktid uda Sthl` 9

Lkutk shbk fcl kucl, hus @kfakd jiggt Jrhnt, hus@kfakd jiggt Bksudalkft. Ks sfda fggkr afk —bksud-akd‐ Gkdsclkd, wk`clk p`þtz`fcl ugnh``kd uda hd kfdkg@untzub stkrmkd. Ks sfda afk, wk`clk dfclt @kfakd bk`krdt

lhmkd, @kfakd ghclt zál, @kfakd stál`t. Ks sfda Jfdakr,wk`clk vir ekakg @kfakd afk Nùclt krbrkfnkd ! Rhlr`fcl,fcl `fkmk afk Jfdakr, hmkr wfk jþddtk fcl afk `fkmkd, wk`-clk flr @kmkd `hdb Jfdakr m`kfmkd wi``kd 9 Si hmkr skfaflr h``k, afk flr vir akg @kfakd fd ahs Qud fklt, hus h`-tkr trhurfbkr Jfdakrhdbst vir akg Sclgkrz uda vir akr

Audjk`lkft.Ri fst akr briÙk Gkdscl, akr Strhl`kdak, akr Qátkr, akr

Lkà 9 Ri fst kukr Jhfskr 9 Rkr fst skfd Dhclni`bkr 9 Rkrsi`` ks wkrakd 9 [da wi fst kurk Judst 9 Ri lhmt flr afk



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Rkrjk, afk kurk Ukft rkcltnkrtfbkd 9 Ri afk briÙkd udanrkuda`fclkd Bkahdjkd 9 Hcl, flr lhmt vfk` zu wkdfb, vfk`zu scl`kclt bk`fttkd, ug Butks uda Strhl`kdaks zkubkd

zu jþddkd !Akdd afk Qht, afk butk uda strhl`kdak Qht, gkfdk

Nrkudak, afk jiggt dfclt hus akg Qud, dfclt hus akrMktrfkmshgjkft, dfclt hus akg N`kfÙ uda Bklággkr. Sfkwáclst kfdshg hun Mkrbkd, sfk wáclst hun Bfpnk`d, wiStf``k uda Bknhlr fst. Sfk wáclst hus @kfakd … Uu whlrkr

gkdscl`fclkr BrþÙk bfmt ks dur kfdkd Rkb – akd aurclafk Sclu`k aks @kfakds.

^fk`k akdjkd, sfk wkrakd ks krrkfclkd, but zu wkrakd,wkdd sfk dfclts Mþsks tud, hmkr ahs guss dfclt fggkrsi skfd. Ks bfmt vfk`k Lkf`fbk, afk zukrst hrbk Sðdakr wh-rkd. Hucl afk Sðdak jhdd kfd Rkb zur Lkf`fbjkft skfd, afk

Sðdak uda ahs @hstkr.

@hdbshg jiggt afk Dhclt, kfsfbkr Rfda pnkfnt aurcl afkBfttkrstámk, fcl sklk lfdaurcl, fd akr Nkrdk `kucltkdkfd phhr strhl`kda wkfÙk Scldkkicjkd uda zkfbkd gfraudj`k Ri`jkd hg Lirfzidt. Fcl skdjk gkfdkd M`fcj uda

sklk afk Ghukr.Scl`hn wil`, Ghukr, fcl wkcjk afcl dfclt. Afk Ukft wfra

jiggkd, ah fcl afcl kfdrkfÙk, hmkr dicl mfst au ah, dicljhdd fcl afcl krtrhbkd, dicl mfst au sclþd uda stf`` udamfst gfr `fkm.

Girbkds >.?? [lr fst Hunscl`uss uda afk Dhclt virmkf.

Hunscl`uss – si dkddt ghd afk Ukft, wkdd akr Bknádbdfs-mkhgtk afk Uk``kdtðrkd nðr kfdk Rkf`k hunscl`fkÙt, ahddjþddkd afk Fdlhntfkrtkd sfcl hun akr Sthtfid mkwkbkdiakr hdakrk Bknhdbkdk fd flrkd Uk``kd hunsuclkd, zug



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Jhnnkktrfdjkd, Jhrtkdspfk`kd, ]kakd, uda hucl zug Ni`-tkrd, Xuá`kd, Krprksskd uda _rðbk`d akr Sclwhclkd udtkrfldkd iakr akrkr, afk ks dfclt bksclhnnt lhmkd, sfcl kfdkd

_`htz fd akr Bknhdbkdkdlfkrhrclfk zu sfclkrd.Hun ekakr Sthtfid bfmt ks kfdk j`kfdk Bruppk Bknhdbk-

dkr, afk ðmkr afk Ghssk akr ]kst`fclkd lkrrsclt, sk`kjtfkrtuda afk Bksktzk fd afkskr _hrh``k`wk`t ghclt.

Ks bfmt lfkr dur Rþ`nk uda Sclhnk, nrksskd uda bknrks-skd wkrakd, lfkr rkbfkrt afk Dhtur fd flrkd wfàkstkd Hd-

nádbkd uda prfgftfvstkd Huswðclskd, bkphhrt gft akdkxtrkgstkd Nirgkd gkdscl`fclkr Bkgkfdlkft.

Ahs Bknádbdfs fst kfdk kfbkdk Rk`t, ah bfmt ks kfbkdkBksktzk uda îrsclrfntkd. Inzfk``k uda ekdk, afk udtkrakr Lhda jursfkrkd. Ah bfmt ks, wfk fg @kmkd arhuÙkd,udtkrsclfka`fclk Clhrhjtkrk5 akd Hunsássfbkd uda akd,

akr fggkr h``ks rfcltfb ghclkd wf``: ah bfmt ks akd îr-`hutkd uda akd Sclðcltkrdkd: akd Rftzmià uda akdÁdbst`fclkd. Nhst wfk fd akr Sclu`k iakr fg Mktrfkm,dur udtkr akd Mkafdbudbkd aks Bknádbdfs`kmkds – ahslkfÙt hun kdbstkg ]hug, uda si trktkd afk Clhrhjtkrkscldk``kr uda akut`fclkr lkrvir. ^krstkcjkd jhdd sfcl

lfkr dfkghda !Nðr akd Dkuhdjþgg`fdb, ahs Nrfsclkfscl, lkfÙt afks,

ahss ektzt nðr fld afk Ukft bkjiggkd fst, ah kr Mksucl fdskfdkr Uk``k vid akd Rþ`nkd mkjiggt. Ahs K-Bksprácl,wfk ks ahs ]uak` lfkr dkddt, stklt nðr Krzfkludbsbk-sprácl. Ks sfklt si hus, ahss dhcl akr Bkrfcltsvkrlhda-

ùdb, akg Kfdwkfsudbsrftuh` hun akr Jhggkr uda akgQrfmudh` akr Uubhdbsjidnkrkdz vid sthht`fclkr Skftk dudhucl dicl Bknhdbkdk Bkrfclt ðmkr afcl lh`tkd – kfd Nkg-bkrfclt !



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Uwkf Bknhdbkdk jiggkd fd afk Uk``k, zwkf vkrscl`h-bkdk Mursclkd – afk Rþ`nk. Sfk vkrwkfskd akd ]kst akr^fkrghddzk``k hus akr ]áug`fcljkft.

Ks mkbhdd, ahss akr kfdk gfcl mksclu`afbtk, skfdkGuttkr mk`kfafbt zu lhmkd.

—Fcl jkddk akfdk Guttkr aicl bhr dfclt !‐, hdtwirtktk fcl.

—Ijhy, lfdsktzkd uda zulþrkd, ahdd sklkd wfr wkftkr‐,

shbtk akr hdakrk.

—Lhst au Qhmhj, Jhnnkk, kfd ]hafi, Ilrrfdbk, kfdk [lr,

Ausclbk`, _hrnðg, bhr Scliji`hak vfk``kfclt 9 Ukfb uds,whs au gftbkmrhclt lhst !‐, bfdb ahs ^krlþr wkftkr …

—Fcl lhmk dfclts, mfd aicl brhak krst hdbkjiggkd‐,whr gkfdk Hdtwirt.

—Dud, krstk ]kbk`, wkdd au ktwhs mrhuclst, Qhmhj iakrwhs hucl fggkr, ahdd gusst au ahs vid uds mkfakd mir-bkd uda kfds zu zwkf hd uds zurðcjzhl`kd. Ahs lkfÙt,

wkdd wfr afr kfdk Aisk Qhmhj mirbkd, ahdd gusst auuds zwkf Aiskd zurðcjzhl`kd, hdsidstkd bfmts whs hunafk Nrkssk‐, tþdtkd afk mkfakd.

Fcl hdtwirtktk, ahss fcl hmkr, wkdd fcl ktwhs mrhuclk,dur ekghdakd fg Lhus H, akd fcl sclid jkddk, zu nrhbkd

lhmk uda kr gfr ahdd huslk`nk.

—Il, Lhus H, mkf akd Á`tkrkd 9 Rkr fst akdd ahs 9‐, nrhb-tkd sfk dkubfkrfb uda wurakd `kfskr.



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—Akr Stkfdkcjkr, akr Svkd Stkfdkcjkr‐, bhm fcl zur Hdt-wirt.

—Rhs, akr Stkfdkcjkr 9 Mkf akg gusst au aicl sfclkrkfds zu arkf zurðcjzhl`kd. Rilkr jkddst au akdd

akd 9‐, nrhbtkd sfk ektzt j`kfd`hut.

—Dh, akr fst aicl gkfd Gfttátkr uda wfr lhmkd arhuÙkd

gh` kfdk Rkf`k zushggkd bkwildt, mkf akg mrhuclk fcl

bhr dfclts zurðcjzuzhl`kd‐, mkrfcltktk fcl akd mkfakd.

—Dh, wkdd ahs si fst5 Rf``jiggkd fg J`um. Rfr lhmkd

dicl mfs 2.?? [lr Hunscl`uss, jhddst akrwkf`k gft zu

uds fd afk Uk``k jiggkd uda ‖dkd Jhnnkk gfttrfdjkd.

Mrhuclst nrkf`fcl dfclt zurðcjzhl`kd, Jfppkd lhmkd wfr

hucl, wkdd au rhuclkd ghbst‐, kdtbkbdktkd gfr ektztafk mkfakd.

—Supkr, whrug dfclt. Rfk lkfÙt flr ðmkrlhupt 9‐ …

Ahs K-Bksprácl whr ahgft virzkftfb mkkdakt uda fcl

jiddtk ahgh`s vid B`ðcj rkakd, ahss fcl ahmkf si ah-vidbkjiggkd mfd. Gkfd krwáldtkr Gfttátkr lhttk sfcl fdakg kfdkd Ehlr, ahs kr lfkr sclid vkrmrhclt lhttk, kfdkbkwh`tfbk uda ðm`k ]kputhtfid fddkrlh`m afkskr Ghukrdbksclhnnkd. Si wurak fcl vid lkutk hun girbkd fds Ri`ns-ruak` mknþrakrt.

Ks bfmt dur arkf Rkbk airtlfd zu jiggkd, kdtwkakrmrfdbst au afr sclid vkrahggt briÙk uda aurcltrhfdfkrtkHrgk gft fd akd Jdhst (hmkr hucl afksk jþddkd afr dfcltfggkr lk`nkd uda sfda jkfdk Bhrhdtfk) iakr au mfst kfd



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vkrahggt c`kvkrks uda bkwfkntks Mðrscl`kfd. Iakr hmkrau lhst udtkr akd Jdhcjfs kfdkd Gkdtir, akr skfdk Lhdaðmkr afcl lá`t.

Bhdz kfdnhcl fst ks hmkr hucl dfclt kfd Ri`n zu skfd.Au gusst afcl stádafb mkwkfskd, ahrnst jkfdk Bknðl`kzkfbkd, gusst fggkr wfkakr akfdk _isftfid mklhuptkduda Jágpnk hustrhbkd, sidst wfrnt afcl ahs ]uak` zurðcjudtkr afk Sclhnk.

Fd akd ni`bkdakd arkf Ehlrkd trhfdfkrtk fcl gfr afk

afcjkd Hrgk hd, afk fcl vkrbhÙ gftzumrfdbkd, fcl `krdtk ekakd Qrfcj uda wurak si c`kvkr uda bkwfknt, ahss gfclkfd Mkhgtkr kfdgh` h`s —Lhntnucls‐ mkzkfcldktk, fclwurak Gkdtir nðr zhl`rkfclk Dkuhdjþgg`fdbk, hmkr huclzug [dtkrarðcjkr vfk`kr hdakrkr.

Gkfdk @fkm`fdbsirtk wurakd afk Bknhdbkdkdmfm`fi-

tlkj siwfk akr Jrhntspirtrhug fd afkskd Ghukrd. GkfdLfrd whr wfk kfd husbktricjdktkr Sclwhgg uda shubtkh``ks hun, Butks wfk Scl`kcltks b`kfclkrghÙkd. Fcl `hsthuskda Mðclkr5 Bksclfcltk, Bkibrhplfk, _i`ftfj, Shcl-judak, _lfìsiplfk, ]k`fbfid, Bksktzmðclkr, Strhnrkclt,î``zubsrkclt, _sycliìbfk … dur akd ]kbh`kd gft akr

[dtkrlh`tudbs`ftkrhtur uda Brisclkdrighdkd m`fkm fclfggkr nkrd !

Eh, fcl whr kfÙfb uda stuafkrtk h``k afksk Mðclkr, ildkahss ks gfr ekghda bkshbt lhttk iakr gfcl ahzu zwhdb._sycliìbkd, Sizfh`hrmkftkr, Stuafkrtk, _i`fzfstkd, ]fcl-tkr, Sthhtshdwá`tk, Hmbkiradktk, Sclrkfmtfscltátkr h``kr

Ágtkr, nðr ekakd vid fldkd, gft akg fcl skftlkr zushg-gkdprh``tk, mfd fcl kfd H`ptrhug bkwirakd. Ah jiggkdsfk gft flrkd nkfdkd Hdzðbkd, afk Lkrrkd Mkhgtkd, iakrhmkr fd flrkd ]kdtfkrpu`ìvkrd, hmbkwktztkd Ciraliskd



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uda Eksus`htsclkd, afksk stuafkrtkd Ahgkd akr Sizfi-uda _sycliìbfk, afksk Bfntfkbkd aks Ghrjtks. Fggkr,wkdd sfk gfcl skftlkr ugsclwfrrt lhmkd uda zu stkclkd

vkrsucltkd, lhmk fcl sfk dhcl spátkstkds nðdn Gfdutkd zuphcjkd bkjrfkbt uda krscl`hbkd. Jkfdkg Afhìb, jkfdkgStrkftbksprácl, jkfdkr Afsjussfid, jkfdkr Akmhttk gft gfrjiddtkd sfk sthdalh`tkd – uda sclid bhr dfclt hg Kdakktwh bhr h`s Ðmkr`kbkdkr ahrhus lkrvirbklkd !

Ks sclgkrzt uda vkr`ktzt ahs Kbi akr auggstuafkrtkd

Bksk``sclhntssáu`kd, wkdd fldkd kfd ludbrfbkr Ri`n, tá-tiwfkrt, aurcltrhfdfkrt uda jhl`rhsfkrt, akgidstrfkrt,ahss kr akdjkd uda sprkclkd jhdd. Ahss kr flrk Mðclkrmksskr jkddt h`s sfk, afk aicl flr j`áb`fclks Afpìg iakrhmkr flrkd Aijtirtftk` ahrfd bkghclt lhmkd. Akr Ri`n,akr nðr sfk kfd prfgftfvks ^fkl fst, dfggt ekakd flrkr Sátzk

huskfdhdakr, zkrrkfÙt sfk fd akr @unt uda mk`klrt sfk fgHdsclùss hucl dicl. Ahrug nðrcltkd sfk afksks, fldkdudmkjhddtk Rkskd, ks vkrsktzt sfk fd Hdbst uda Sclrk-cjkd uda ahrug lhsskd sfk ks ! Sfk wkrakd h``k zushg-gkdjiggkd, flrk Jþpnk zushggkdstkcjkd, ug sfcl zumkrhtkd, uda scl`fkÙ`fcl dhcl jurzkr Ukft afk bkgkfdshgk

Kdtsclkfaudb trknnkd, ahss afksks Bksclþpn, ahs sfk dfcltmkbrkfnkd jþddkd, stkrmkd guss. Si``tk ks dfclt titzu-jrfkbkd skfd, ahdd guss ks si `hdbk bkehbt uda bklktztwkrakd, mfs ks nrkfwf``fb wfkakr fd akg audj`kd Rhà vkr-sclwfdakt, wi ks lkrbkjiggkd fst.

Rhs sfk hmkr dfclt sklkd, fst, ahss afksks vkrlhsstk

Rkskd vid fldkd sk`mst krsclhnnkd wurak, ks jhg dfclthus akg audj`kd Rhà, sidakrd kdtsthda fd flrkr Gfttk !

Uug Ukftpudjt gkfdkr Kdt`hssudb whr fcl `ádbst kf-dkr vid zwkf @kftwþ`nkd, afk ahs bkshgtk Bknádbdfs gft



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kfskrdkr Nhust, hmkr wi ks hdbkmrhclt whr hucl gft akdRhnnkd akr Afpìghtfk, rkbfkrtkd. Fcl lhttk gkfdkd Aij-tir fd Jdhstiìbfk bkghclt uda si``tk bhr akd Klrbkfz

kdtwfcjk`d, dicl vfk` wkftkr zu stuafkrkd. Hmkr dicldfclt ektzt, ks whrtkt kfd `hdbkr Rkb zug Qkrgfdkdak !

- [g 2.?? [lr fst Kfdsclùss, ahs lkfÙt, h``k Bknhdbk-dkd zurðcj fd flrk Lhntráugk. Muakd wkrakd afk Uk``kdfd akr Bknhdbkdkdsprhclk bkdhddt.

- [g 88.3? [lr fst wfkakr Hunsclùss, ahdd wfra afk Mk-

`kbsclhnt akr bhdzkd Sthtfid bksclìsskd zug Spkfskshh`ðmkr akd Bknádbdfslin ksjirtfkrt, ug ahs Gftthbksskd zunhsskd. Dhcl ch. 8; Gfdutkd bklt ks wfkakr zurðcj hun afkSthtfid, wkf` hdakrk Sthtfidkd eh hucl Ludbkrbknðl`kmkjiggkd uda sclid udrulfb wkrakd.

- [g 8=.3? [lr lkfÙt ks wfkakr Kfdsclùss.

- Ahs dáclstk Gh` þnndkt sfcl afk Muakdtðr ug 8>.??[lr zug Linbhdb, ahs wfra lfkr Nrkfstudak bkdhddt. Uuafkskg Krkfbdfs wkrakd h``k Sthtfidkd b`kfclzkftfb hunakd bkgkfdshgkd Bknádbdfslin strþgkd. Ks fst afk Bk-`kbkdlkft, sfcl gft ekakg lfkr Kfdbkmucltktkd trknnkd zujþddkd. Ghd jhdd lfkr hun akg Lin NuÙmh`` spfk`kd iakr

bkgðt`fcl skfdk ]udakd `hunkd, lfkr thusclt ahs bhdzkLhntlhus Dkufbjkftkd hus, lfkr wkrakd afk Bksclántkbkghclt wfk hun kfdkg irfkdth`fsclkd Mhshr, lfkr mkrht-scl`hbkd sfcl afk Rþ`nk h``kr Sthtfidkd, lfkr jiggt ahs]uak` zushggkd. Ks fst akr Irt, akd afk Sclhnk wil` hggkfstkd nðrcltkd, uda akslh`m zfklkd ks vfk`k vid fldkd

vir, ̀ fkmkr fd flrkd Muakd hun akr Sthtfid wálrkda afkskrStudak zu vkrlhrrkd.

- 82.?? [lr afk Nrkfstudak fst zu Kdak uda ks bklt zu-rðcj hun afk Sthtfidkd. Ks fst ektzt dicl Hunsclùss mfs



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86.3? [lr, zwkfkfdlh`m Studakd, fd akdkd ghd sfcl dudsi iakr kmkd hdakrs afk Ukft gft skfdkd Gftbknhdbkdkdvkrtrkfmkd jhdd. Afk gkfstkd lfkr nðrcltkd afksk Ukft

gklr dicl h`s afk Nrkfstudak, ah ghd akg Linbhdb wk-dfbstkds dicl kdtbklkd jhdd. Akr Mkhgtk, akr zu ud-skrkr Hunsfclt hdbkstk``t fst, vkr`ásst ektzt kfdnhcl skfdAfkdstzfggkr uda `þst sfcl nðr bkwþld`fcl gfdakstkdszwkf Studakd akr Hunsclùsszkft fd @unt hun. Kr trfnnt sfclgft skfdkd Ji``kbkd akr hdakrkd Sthtfidkd, wi sfk ahdd

h``k zushggkd fd frbkdakfdkr uds udmkjhddtkd Kcjk akrLhnthdsth`t flrk Ukft gft Jhnnkktrfdjkd titscl`hbkd udaafk Mrfknk, afk wfr hd Nrkudak, Nrkudafd iakr Nhgf`fksclrkfmkd (husbklkdak _ist), `kskd uda zkdsfkrkd, ugsfcl mkf @hudk zu lh`tkd. Ahs B`kfclk bf`t dhtðr`fcl huclnðr udskrk kfdbklkdak _ist !

- 86.3? [lr Dhcltkfdsclùss. Au lhst ektzt dicl kfdmfssclkd Ukft Mrfknk zu sclrkfmkd, ahgft akr Mkhgtkgirbkd wfkakr whs lht, wirðmkr kr sfcl hgðsfkrkd iakrhunrkbkd jhdd. ^fk``kfclt sclrkfmst au afr eh hucl kt-whs si lkntfb vid akr Skk`k, ahss ks bhr akr Ukdsur zugIpnkr ná``t, mkscl`hbdhlgt wfra uda fd akfdk Bknhd-

bkdkdpkrsidh`hjtk jiggt, wirfd siwfksi ekak akfdkr]kbudbkd nkstbklh`tkd wfra, ug kfd irakdt`fclks _riàkfdkr _krsid nðr akd Ðmkrwhcludbssthht hdzunkrtfbkd.Au jhddst hmkr sthttaksskd hucl afk Ukft gft akfdkgMuakdsphddkr, wfk akfd Uk``kdbkdissk fd akr Jdhst-sprhclk bkdhddt wfra, vkrmrfdbkd. Au jhddst gft flg

quhtsclkd, hmkr dhcl kfdkr Riclk zushggkd hun kfdkrUk``k wfra kucl akr Bkspráclsstinn `hdbshg husbklkd.Au jhddst gft flg Jhrtkdspfk`kd, hmkr hucl ahs wfra gftakd Gidhtkd `hdbwkf`fb wkrakd. Iakr hmkr au scl`ábst



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akfdkd Muakdsphddkr … dkfd, dkfd, ektzt dicl dfclt !Krst ghclst au kfd phhr m`þak Spfk`clkd gft flg, afk sfclahdd fd j`kfdk Xuá`krkfkd kdtwfcjk`d uda scl`fkÙ`fcl zur

Ni`tkr hushrtkd. Ks guss sfcl krst kdtwfcjk`d uda ahsbklt gkfstkds `hdbshg uda fd Stunkd, dfclt h``ks hun kfd-gh` ! HuÙkrakg, vfk``kfclt fst akfd Muakdsphddkr dhclkfd phhr Gidhtkd Lhnt bhr dfclt gklr si láss`fcl, wfk krafr ektzt fg Hubkdm`fcj dicl krsclkfdt. ^fk``kfclt ghcltfld eh afk bhdzk Bkf`lkft, afk sfcl fd afr dhcl Gidhtkd

ildk Gáaclkd hunsthut, bhr lðmscl fd akfdkd Hubkd, udanh``s dfclt, fd kfd phhr Gidhtkd, ahdd vfk``kfclt fd kfdkgEhlr iakr fd zwkf Ehlrkd iakr arkf iakr vfkr …

B`humst au gfr, ̀ fkmkr @kskr, wkdd fcl afr shbk, ahss fclfg Bknádbdfs Eudbkd bksklkd lhmk, afk fcl gft @kfcltfb-jkft láttk licllkmkd jþddkd 9 Rf``st au wfsskd, wfk sfk

flr krstks Gh` kr`kmtkd 9 Rfk flrk [dmkrðlrtlkft bkjdhcjtwurak 9 Rfk ghd sfk zu j`kfdkd Nrhukd ghclt 9 Rhs jhddahs Bknádbdfs hdakrks nðr afcl tud, h`s kfdkd Bknhdbkdkdhus afr zu ghclkd 9

Hucl spfk`kd sfcl ghdclgh` udmksclrkfm`fcl j`kfdkSzkdkd akr Uudkfbudb uda Kfnkrsuclt udtkr ghdclkd Bk-

nhdbkdkd hm, vþ``fb bkwh`t- uda zwhdb`is. Aicl si wkftsfda wfr ektzt dicl dfclt !

Fd akd gkfstkd Ná``kd hrrhdbfkrst au afcl ektzt krstgh` frbkdawfk gft akfdkg Muakdsphddkr, zugfdakstwkdd flr hun kfdkr Uwkfghddzk``k skfa. Ks bfmt zwhr rkbk`-gáÙfb kfdkd irakdt`fclkd Strkft, wkf` ghd sfcl vid Ukft

zu Ukft aicl gh` hun afk Dkrvkd bklt uda sfcl lfkr dfclthus akg Rkb bklkd jhdd, vfk``kfclt sprfdbt flr kucl huclgh` hd afk Burbk` iakr ks fkbkd Náustk, hmkr ahdd fstks hucl wfkakr virmkf, akdd frbkdawfk gðsst flr eh aicl



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gftkfdhdakr husjiggkd uda lhmt aicl sidst jkfdkd hgHmkda, gft akg flr gh` kfd mfssclkd rkakd jþddt, wkddks kucl ahdhcl vkr`hdbt.

Fd kfdkr ^fkrghddzk``k sfklt ahs sclid hdakrs hus, ahfst kfdkr hun ekakd Nh`` fggkr ahs Ipnkr !

- ==.?? [lr, ahs @fclt uda akr Strig wkrakd ektzt fdakd Uk``kd hmbksclh`tkt. Ks fst ektzt zhppkdaustkr fd akrMuak uda afk Ukft, wi ghd sfcl hds Nkdstkr mkbfmt, ugsfcl gft akd rfdbslkrug udtkrbkmrhcltkd Jdhcjfs zu ud-

tkrlh`tkd iakr bhdz kfdnhcl dur kfd mfssclkd fd akd Linzu brþ`kd. Fg Rfdtkr wfk fg Siggkr !

Dkfd, kfdkd Nkrdsklkr lhmkd wfr dfclt hun akr Uk``k,ahs fst lfkr dfclt kr`humt uda wðrak hucl dfclt vfk` Sfddghclkd, wkf` wfk krwáldt akr Strig ug ==.?? [lr hmbk-sclh`tkt wfra.

Gkfd Nrkuda, fcl shbk afr, ks fst kfd briÙkr ^irtkf` fg@kmkd, afk Nkl`kr, hus akdkd ghd ̀ krdkd jhdd, gþb`fclstnrðlzkftfb zu ghclkd. Au si``st hucl dfclt hus akfdkdNkl`krd ̀ krdkd, sidakrd hus akd Nkl`krd hdakrkr. ̂ ir h`-`kg hmkr runk afr táb`fcl huns Dkuk fds Bkaácltdfs5

Ahs @kmkd fst zu jurz,

ug scl`kcltkd Rkfd zu trfdjkd !



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Afk Eubkdauda afk sfhgksfsclkd Jhgpnsclk

Eh, zushggkdbknhsst fst ahs Bknádbdfs kfd trfstkr Irt.Rkr lfkr nðr kfdk Ukft `kmkd guss, akr bfmt kfdkd Qkf`

skfdkr _krsþd`fcljkft hm. Uwhdbswkfsk. Ahs mkbfddt fdakr Jhggkr, wi afk _rfvht- uda Ufvf`j`kfaudb bkbkd kfd-lkft`fclk Hdsth`tsj`hgittkd husbkthusclt wkrakd: ahs

sktzt sfcl nirt fg Jdhsth``thb, wi h``ks dhcl Sclhmìdk`áunt5 Hunstklkd, Nrðlstðcjkd, Hrmkft (nh``s au sclid kfdkzubkwfkskd mkjhgst), Linbhdb, Nrkfzkft, @fclt `þsclkd.Kfbkdks Lhdak`d uda Akdjkd sfda dfclt krwðdsclt, ahsrkbk`t afk Lhusiradudb !

Ahs Bknádbdfs hd sfcl, skfdk Strujturkd, ahs Systkg

fst eh dfclt wfrj`fcl hdakrs h`s afk Rk`t arhuÙkd, zugfd-akst fd udskrkg @hda. Au wfrst rkbfstrfkrt, ahss akr Sthhtfggkr wkfÙ, wi kr afcl hundakd jhdd, au ni`bst akdBksktzkd uda wkdd dfclt, jiggkd afk Mkhgtkd, ug afclzu ghÙrkbk`d, Jhgkrhs sfda ðmkrh``, akfd Qk`knid wfrahmbklþrt, akfdk _ist jidtri``fkrt, au dfggst akfd Nrðl-

stðcj, bklst zur Hrmkft … Dur lhst au fd akfdkr Nrkfzkftwkft gklr Mrit uda Spfk`k zur ̂ krnðbudb, ug afcl kfdzu-dkmk`d uda zkrstrkukd zu `hsskd h`s wfr lfkr fg Jdhst !

Ahzu lhst au arhuÙkd kfdkd Nùss, fd akg au vid h`-`kd uda h``kg nirtsclwfggkd jhddst, akd wfr lfkr dfcltlhmkd.

Fd kfdkr Uiilhdaùdb trkddt ghd akd sfhgksfsclkdJhgpnscl vid skfdkd Hrtbkdisskd hm, wkf` sfk sfcl sidstbkbkdskftfb nrksskd. Afk hrtbkrkcltk Lh`tudb fd akr Bk-nhdbkdsclhnt fst, fld fd kfdkr Kfdzk`zk``k zu lh`tkd, ahgft



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kr skfdkd Hrtbkdisskd dfclt afk Nìsskd zkrnrfsst. Ahsclwfggt kr h``kfd fd skfdkr j`kfdkd _hrzk``k, sfclkr`fcltiaudb`ðcj`fcl, wkf` kr afk Nrkflkft vkrgfsst, vfk``kfclt

zkfbt kr hucl sclid ^krlh`tkdsstþrudbkd, afk kfdk Bk-nhdbkdsclhnt fd akr Jidskqukdz gft sfcl mrfdbt. Rkddghd flg dud fd skfdkr @hbk kfdkd Spfkbk` virlá`t, ahddvkrsuclt kr sfcl ugzumrfdbkd, fdakg kr skfd Spfkbk`mfàmkjágpnt. Afk Nrhbk fst, im sfcl sfhgksfsclk Jhgpn-sclk fg Nùss bkdhusi vkrlh`tkd wðrakd. Afksk Spkzfks

gft akd sclþdstkd uda sclf``krdastkd Nhrmkd, afk sibhrkfd Nhrmkdm`fdakr sklkd jhdd. Fcl b`humk dfclt, ahss sfkjágpnkd wðrakd, wkdd sfk fg Nùss wárkd, wkdd sfk bk-dub _`htz zug @kmkd láttkd. Ghd si``tk afk Nfsclk fgNùss hussktzkd !

Uurðcj zu akd Rþ`nkd uda Sclhnkd, wfk vkrtrkfmkd

afksk sfcl afk Ukft 9 Ahs Mrit fst dfclt ahs Mkstk, hmkrfggkrlfd mksskr h`s akr Rkfd, akr uds hunbktfsclt wfra,dur hd Spfk`kd ghdbk`t ks. Rfr kdtakcjkd udskrk jrkh-tfvk Hakr, krdakd udskrk kfbkdkd, ug uds mkf @hudk zulh`tkd.

Rfk fcl mkrkfts mksclrfkm, fst akr Jdhst kfdk _hrh``k`-

wk`t zu akr Rk`t arhuÙkd, afk fcl kmkdnh``s dfclt h`s nrkfmkzkfcldk. Dkmkd akg Nùss, akfdkr nrkfkd Rk`t uda akrBknádbdfswk`t bfmt ks dicl kfdk vfkrtk Rk`t, afksk sclhn-nkd sfcl afk Bknhdbkdkd sk`mst. Ks bfmt airt sibhr kfdkHrkdh, fd akr wfr B`hafhtirkdjágpnk vkrhdsth`tkd.

Gkfd `fkmkr @kskr, `hss gfcl afcl kdtnðlrkd fd afk vfkrtkRk`t, fd akr lh`mk Jfdakr B`hssclkrmkd, N`fkbkd, Spfddkduda Jhjkr`hjkd nrksskd, akd [rfd kfdks hdakrkd wðrbkdalfdudtkrsclùcjkd iakr whs kr fldkd sidst fd akd Guda



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iakr fd hdakrk Jþrpkrþnndudbkd stkcjt. Ni`tkr, fg Sfddkjþrpkr`fclkr wfk skk`fsclkr Gfsslhdaùdb, fst afk Dirg.Jdiclkd zkrmkrstkd, Mùt, ahs mfs zur Akcjk sprftzt, wi

Sclkfdlfdrfcltudbkd uda ghdclgh` hucl rkh`k Lfdrfcl-tudbkd sthttdakd, ahs Bksktz aks Stárjkrkd lkrrscltuda Hdbst uda Sclrkcjkd afk bksfkmtk @unt sclwádbkrd.Ri Jfdakrpristftutfid, skxuk``k ^krsj`hvudb uda kfd ̂ kr-mrkclkd bkbkd afk Gkdscl`fcljkft ahs dáclstk hm`þst.

Kfdk Nìssk fst dicl ahs Bkrfdbstk, whs afr lfkr hmbk-

nrksskd wfra, uda ks bfmt hucl jkfdk sclf``krdakd Nhrmkdgklr. Nrðlkr iakr spátkr mkjiggst au lfkr kfdkd Ji``kr,nádbst ahdd kfdnhcl hd zu mrð``kd wfk kfd Qfkr, wf``st h``ksjhputt scl`hbkd uda rkddst bhr gft akfdkg Jipn bkbkdafk Rádak, mfs au ugná``st. Au rkcldkst ekakd Qhb ah-gft, ahss au vkrrðcjt wfrst, prðnst afcl girbkds, im afks

vfk``kfclt akr Qhb skf, hd akg akfd ^krsthda jfppkd udafd akd Rhldsfdd stðrzkd wkrak, wálrkda au mkdiggkdhun akfdk husbkscl`hbkdkd Uáldk sthrrst. Kfdk Rk`t, fdakr Nklakd uda ^kdakttkd afk sthht`fclk ]kcltsiradudbhm`þskd uda sthttaksskd Nkgbkrfcltk ðmkr akfd Sclfcjsh`kdtsclkfakd. Fd akr Dhclt jhddst au dfclt scl`hnkd, au

sftzt hun akfdkg Stul` uda sthrrst fd afk Audjk`lkft. AfkMfàkrut aks Qhbks rhusclt hd akfdkg Hubk virmkf. AfkMfàkr wkclsk`d fggkr scldk``kr, Scl`hb`fcltkr, afk afclmkdiggkd ghclkd. H``ks arklt sfcl, ks wfra afr sclwfda-`fb uda ks nðl`t sfcl hd, h`s im au b`kfcl fd Ildghcltná``st. Au gkrjst dfclt gh` gklr akd Sclgkrz, wálrkda

afk Ufbhrkttk afr `hdbshg zwfsclkd akd Nfdbkrd aurcl-mrkddt. Au vkrbfsst zu htgkd uda gusst afcl mhà sk`msthunwkcjkd, ahgft au dfclt krstfcjst. Rkdd au wfkakr zuafr jiggst, lhst au bhr dfclt bkgkrjt, ahss au sclid



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m`hu hdbk`hunkd mfst, sclhust dur vkrwudakrt hun afkMrhdam`hskd zwfsclkd akfdkd Nfdbkrd uda krst ahddjiggt akr Sclgkrz zu afr !

Rkl fldkd, wkdd kfd [dlkf` sfk krsclrkcjt

[da p`þtz`fcl lk`` zur Rfrj`fcljkft krwkcjt !

Hus Qrhug bksclkuclt uda jfda`fclkg ̂ krtrhukd

Sthrrkd sfk lf`is fd aks @kmkds Brhukd.

Lkrghdd Lkssk

Rðrak ks ugs Lkrrsclkd bklkd, láttk Gkafcf bkshbt5Brhushgjkft ahrn dur kfdgh` hdbkwkdakt wkrakd ! Hmkrahdd guss afksk Brhushgjkft kxkgp`hrfscl skfd, nurclt-bkmfktkda, guss Sclrkcjkd fd flrkr [gbkmudb vkrmrkf-

tkd.Lfkr hmkr bklt ks dfclt ugs Lkrrsclkd, sidakrd gft

akr Mhdh`ftát aks Mþskd kfdnhcl dur ug akd Ukftvkrtrkfm,uda zwhr táb`fcl !

Afk Rþ`nk uda sk`mst afk Sclhnk jhgkd flrkrskfts hun flrk

Jistkd, akdd udtkr fldkd bhm ks eh hucl dicl @ággkr,afk bhr sclwáclkr whrkd. [da lfkr wfkakrug lht sk`mstdicl kfd ghbkrks @hgg afk Hd`hbk ahzu, lkrugtimkdzu jþddkd.

Afk Rþ`nk trhjtfkrkd afk Sclhnk uda udtkr akd Sclh-nkd bfmt ks kfd @hgg, afksks lht ks hg scl`kcltkstkd,

wkf` ks vid h``kd arhdbsh`fkrt wfra iakr, wfk ghd fd akrBknádbdfssprhclk shbt, zur —Nitzk‐ bkghclt wfra. Ahsfst akr Jrhnthusarucj, akd Bknhdbkdk nðr flrk sclwácls-tkd Gftlánt`fdbk mkdutzkd. Afk —Nitzkd‐ gðsskd nðr afk



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hdakrkd Jhnnkk jiclkd, Ufbhrkttkd stipnkd, flr Lhmuda But hmtrktkd, akd Hmwhscl akr hdakrkd kr`kafbkduda flrk Uk``kd putzkd. Sfk wkrakd bkakgðtfbt, mþsk

Spfk`k wkrakd gft fldkd bktrfkmkd, sfk wkrakd krprksst,ghdclgh` vkrbkwh`tfbt iakr gðsskd ks kfdkg sclwu-`kd stárjkrkd Bknhdbkdkd gft akg Guda ghclkd. Sfkgðsskd flrkd —Mksftzkr‐ ghssfkrkd, wkdd kr vig Jrhnt-spirt hunbkpugpt uda krsclþpnt zurðcj hun afk Sthtfidjiggt, sfk gðsskd flr Ksskd uda afk wþclkdt`fclkd

Gf`cl-, Imst- uda Eiblurtrhtfidkd hd fldkd ðmkr`kbkdkBknhdbkdk hmbkmkd. Jurzug, sfk wkrakd zu j`kfdkdSj`hvkd bkghclt. Si``tkd sfk ks ðmkr lhmkd uda flrkd_kfdfbkr —hdsclkfÙkd‐, krbklt ks fldkd dirgh`krwkfskdicl scl`kcltkr h`s zuvir.

—HdsclkfÙkd‐, si dkddt ghd ks fg Jdhst, wkdd kfd

Bknhdbkdkr bkbkd kfdkd hdakrkd Bknhdbkdkd husshbt.Kr wfra ahdd fd akr ]kbk` hun kfdk hdakrk Sthtfid sf-clkrlkftsvkr`kbt, wi fld akr dáclstk SpfkÙrutkd`hunkrwhrtkt, akdd h`s HdsclkfÙkr lhst au ahdd kdabð`tfbvkr`irkd.

Kfd HdsclkfÙkr fst hucl kfdkr, akr vir Bkrfclt skfdkd

Gfttátkr vkrpnnkd lht, ug strhngf`akrda ahvidzujig-gkd. Rkdd au gft si kfdkg ]un fd akd Jdhst kfdnálrst,lhst au ks b`kfcl vig krstkd Qhbk hd vkrspfk`t.

Ks bfmt Fdtrfbkd, Nuttkrdkfa uda jkfdkr bþddt akg hd-akrkd skfdk Kdt`hssudb.

Ah bfmt ks akd Eiclkd, kr fst kfd Sclhn uda si`` fd nðdnRiclkd kdt`hsskd wkrakd. Uwkf Rþ`nk ghrsclfkrkd fdskfdk Uk``k uda vkrgþmk`d fld dhcl Strfcl uda Nhakd. Sfkghclkd akut`fcl, ahss ghd fld dicl scl`fggkr zurfcltkd



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wfra, wkdd kr flr Hdbkmit dfclt hddklgk. Ahs Hdbkmit5Eiclkd si`` fd afk Uk``k zug Hdaræ bklkd uda flg afkUáldk husscl`hbkd, ahdd wfra ghd fld fd ]ulk `hsskd.

Eiclkd bklt zug Hdaræ, akr dfclts hldt, uda scl`ábt flgafk Uáldk hus. Hdaræs Uáldk spfcjkd fd Eiclkds Nhust,akr Jdiclkd aks Imkrjfknkrs `fkbt nrkf uda N`kfsclnkt-zkd mhugk`d fd skfdkg Guda. Kr sclrkft wfk hg SpfkÙuda stðrzt phdfscl vid skfdkr Uk``k lkrhus hun akd Bhdb.Airt mrfclt kr zushggkd uda scl`kppt sfcl vir Sclgkr-

zkd sclrkfkda hun h``kd vfkrkd akd Bhdb kdt`hdb. Kr zfkltkfdk M`utspur lfdtkr sfcl lkr, h`s wárk kr hdbksticlkdwirakd. Kr lht kfdkd Sclicj kr`fttkd, mrð``t zukrst hus@kfmksjrántkd, wfdsk`t uda rþclk`t, ahdd mrfclt kr bhdzzushggkd uda vkrstuggt. Afk Rártkr jiggkd, shggk`dakd Ildgácltfbkd kfd uda scl`kppkd Eiclkd fd akd Jk`-

`kr zug mksidakrs bksfclkrtkd Lhntrhug (MBL). Fd akdMBL jiggst au, wkdd au sk`mst fg Jdhst dicl hus akrMhld ̀ áunst. Au wfrst airt sp`fttkrdhcjt husbkzibkd udaghd stkcjt afcl fd kfd _hpfkrudtkrlþsclkd, ahgft au afrah udtkd fg Jk``kr hucl eh dfclts hdtust, akdd au jþdd-tkst akfdk Sicjkd iakr akfdk [dtkrlisk ahzu mkdutzkd,

ug afcl ahgft sk`mst zu Qiak zu strhdbu`fkrkd. Ahdd wfrstau fd akd ]hug, akd MBL, bkwirnkd. Ah fst dfclts hu-Ùkr kfd @icl fd akr Kcjk, wi au fg Stklkd rkfdsclkfÙkdjhddst, kfdk Spð`udb bfmt ks dfclt fd afkskr Uk``k. Ri aulfdsfklst, Jhclk`fkskd, hun akg Miakd, hd akd Rád-akd, hd akr Akcjk ! Jkfd Stul`, jkfd Mktt, jkfd Qfscl, bhr

dfclts, dur Jhclk`fkskd, wilfd akfd Hubk m`fcjt. Lfkrm`kfmst au dud, mfs au afcl mkrulfbt iakr akfdk Qht bk-sthdakd lhst. Ekak lh`mk Studak bklt afk @ujk fd akr Qðrhun, kfd Rártkr stkcjt skfdk Dhsk lfdaurcl, ug zu sklkd,



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im au dicl `kmst. Ghdclk wkrakd fd akg @icl dág`fclsclid dhcl jurzkr Ukft vkrrðcjt uda scl`hbkd sfcl flrkJþpnk si ̀ hdbk gft vi``kr Ruclt bkbkd afk Rádak, mfs sfk

gft _`htzwudakd ðmkrsát uda mùtðmkrstrþgt ildgácl-tfb zushggkdmrkclkd, bkdhu wfk akr Hdaræ hun udskrkrSthtfid.

Rfk ̀ hdbk au lfkr udtkd m`kfmst, ̀ fkbt fg Krgksskd aksBknádbdfsafrkjtirs, imwil` fcl b`humk, ahss ks fd akdgkfstkd Ná``kd kfdnhcl akr Mkrkfcls`kftkr kdtsclkfakt.

Ks jþddkd kfd phhr Studakd skfd iakr kfd phhr Qhbk. Fcllhmk Bknhdbkdk kr`kmt, afk airt udtkd nðr zwkf Riclkdvkrsclwudakd sfda uda ahdhcl dfk wfkakr afksk`mkd wfkzuvir whrkd. Dhclts mrfdbt ghd afr kfdk `husfbk Buggf-ghtrhtzk rkfd, ildk ahzubklþrfbk Akcjk dhtðr`fcl. AhsAfdb, hun akg au ektzt scl`hnkd si``st, fst gft N`kcjkd

h``kr Hrt mksuak`t5 Mùt, _fssk, SclkfÙk uda hucl Spkrghvid Bknhdbkdkd, afk lfkr udtkd kxtrkg vid @hdbkwkf`kkrbrfnnkd wurakd. Afk Gðlk, ahs Afdb wkdfbstkds gft kf-dkg Rhsskrscl`hucl hmzusprftzkd, ug ks afr zugfdakstkfdfbkrghÙkd bksáumkrt zu mrfdbkd, ghclt ghd sfcl lfkrdfclt.

Au wfrst nril skfd, wkdd afkskr Jrhdjlkftsðmkrtrábkrfg Girbkdbrhukd wfkakr hus afkskr Uk``k hmbkli`t wfra,dhclakg au afk Dhclt ahdkmkd hun akd jh`tkd N`fkskdvkrmrhclt lhst.

Eiclkd jhg dhcl kfd phhr Qhbkd wfkakr hun udskrkSthtfid zurðcj, kr mkjhg kfdk Bkrfcltsvkrlhdaùdb wk-

bkd sclwkrkr Jþrpkrvkr`ktzudb uda kfdk wkftkrk Bknádb-dfsstrhnk vid kfdkg Ehlr uda skcls Gidhtkd. Kr wurakh`si dfclt fd nðdn Riclkd kdt`hsskd. Rkdfbstkds lfk`tkdafk Rþ`nk flr Rirt uda `fkÙkd fld fd ]ulk … zugfdakst



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mfs jurz vir skfdkg dáclstkd Kdt`hssudbstkrgfd. Kr vkr-mrhcltk akd ]kst skfdkr Lhntzkft fd skfdkr Uk``k, wálrkdaHdaræ hus akg Lhntjrhdjkdlhus wfkakrjhg uda akg Ei-

clkd mfttkrk ]hclk sclwir !

Kfdk akr ̂ fkrghddzk``kd wfra zu kfdkr Hrkdh. B`hafhtirkd-jágpnk wkrakd hmbklh`tkd. Afk bhdzk _fstk vkrshggk`tsfcl fd akr Muak fd kfdkg Jrkfs, fd akr Gfttk zwkf hrgkBksth`tkd, zwkf @ággkr, afk ghd zwfdbt, bkbkdkfdhdakr

zu jágpnkd. Rkdd sfk sfcl wkfbkrd, wkrakd sfk vid akrbhdzkd Sthtfidsmk`kbsclhnt zushggkdbkscl`hbkd, ahghd skfdk Rkttk sclid hun kfdkd akr mkfakd —Jágpnkr‐hmbksclìsskd lht uda kfdkd Lhunkd Ufbhrkttkd ahmkfbkwfddkd jhdd.

Afk mkfakd nhdbkd hd sfcl zukrst virsfcltfb zu mh`-

bkd, ahdd brkfnkd sfk nkstkr fdkfdhdakr, afk Jdhcjfs ti-mkd, nkukrd uda lkfzkd akd Jhgpn hd, sclrkfkd kfdkgakr mkfakd zu5 —Rkdd au vkr`fkrst, mrfdbk fcl afcl ug !‐Akr Jhgpn wfra lkntfbkr, afk mkfakd scl`hbkd uda trktkd ektzt hunkfdhdakr kfd, kfdkr sclgkfÙt sfcl hun akd Mi-akd uda wf`` hunbkmkd. Kr wfra vid akd hdakrkd bkphcjt,

bkilrnkfbt uda wfkakr hun skfdk Mkfdk bkstk``t5 —Rkftkr-jágpnkd, sidst wfra‖s afr dhcllkr dicl scl`kcltkr krbk-lkd, uda bktrhuk afcl mìÙ dfclt zu vkr`fkrkd, fcl lhmkgkfdkd bkshgtkd Qhmhj hun afcl bksktzt !‐ Akrhrt —gi-tfvfkrt‐ bklkd afk mkfakd krdkut hunkfdhdakr ìs, diclscl`fggkr ! Kfdk Dhsk jdhcjst augpn … kfd Uhld bfmt

kfd jdfrsclkdaks Bkráuscl uda fkbt aurcl afk @unt …kfdk @fppk p`htzt hun uda kfdk ]fppk jrhclt. Afk Hubkdsclwk``kd zu … Ektzt mrfclt kfd Jfknkr. Akr Jhgpn fst zuKdak. Ks wkrakd zwkf dkuk husbkwál`t, afk sfcl girbkd



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afk Jdiclkd huskfdhdakrlhukd uda nðr [dtkrlh`tudbsirbkd gðsskd. Ghd wf`` skfdkd vkrìrkdkd Kfdshtz zu-rðcjbkwfddkd iakr akd bkwiddkdkd vkraippk`d !

Hun akr Sthtfid M-= lkrrsclt bkrhak kfdk bhdz mksidakrkHtgisplárk. Ghd lht kfd dkuks Spfk` krnudakd, ahs dudfg Lhntlhus afk ]udak ghclt5 —Akr gft akg Strig thdzt‐dkddkd sfk ks. Kfd Gftbknhdbkdkr wfra gft Ládakd udaNðÙkd hd kfdkd Stul` bknkssk`t. Kfd ]hafijhmk` wfra lkr-

virbkli`t. Fd ahs kfdk Kdak arklt ghd zwkf Sclrhumkd,ahs hdakrk wfra fd afk Stkcjaisk bkstkcjt. Gft akg ̀ iskdKdak wfra ektzt akr Hdbkmudakdk trhjtfkrt, mfs ks afk Sf-clkrudb rhuslhut. Sclrkft kr zu `hut, wfra flg kfd h`tkrstfdjkdakr Sicjkd fd akd Guda bkstipnt. Ahvir hmkr lh-mkd afk Bknhdbkdkd kfdk —irakdt`fclk Bkrfcltsvkrlhda-

ùdb‐ ðmkr fld hmbklh`tkd. Kfdkr spfk`t akd ]fcltkr, kfdhdakrkr akd Sthhtshdwh`t, kfdkr akd Hdwh`t, ks bfmt zwkfSclþnnkd uda kmkd akd Hdbkj`hbtkd.

Ks fst kfd Nkgbkrfclt fg Bknádbdfs udtkr Bknhdbkdkd.Akr Hdbkj`hbtk lht whlrsclkfd`fcl hdbksclfsskd iakrghd jidstrufkrt kfdkd Nh``. Hg Kdak p`áafkrkd h``k hun afk

Qiaksstrhnk aurcl akd k`kjtrfsclkd Stul`. Akr ̂ krurtkf`tkstfrmt lfkr zwhr dfclt wfrj`fcl, fst hmkr gft Sfclkrlkft fdQiakshdbst. Ahss kr vfk``kfclt wfrj`fcl kfdkd Lkrzhdnh``jrfkbt, jiggt jkfdkg fd akd Sfdd.

Hun kfdkr hdakrkd Sthtfid fg H-Lhus ̀ fkbt akr ]fci fd skf-

dkr Uk``k máucl`fdbs hun akg Mktt, skfdk Liskd fd akdJdfkjkl`kd, akr Hntkr mùtfb uda kdtm`þÙt, skfd Bksfcltfst vkrsclwi``kd. Kr fst mkdiggkd uda sthrrt gft wkfthunbkrfsskdkd Hubkd fd afk @kkrk. Kr wurak vid zwkf



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skfdkr akutsclkd uda kfdkg rugádfsclkd Gftbknhdbkdkdvkrbkwh`tfbt. Krst wklrtk kr sfcl, ahdd scl`ubkd sfk fldlh`m ildgácltfb, h`s kr sfcl vir Sclgkrzkd dfclt gklr

rðlrkd jiddtk uda afk Bkbkdwklr sclwáclkr wurak,vkrbfdbkd sfk sfcl hd flg, kfdkr dhcl akg hdakrkd, akr]ugádk b`kfcl arkf Gh`.

Fd kfdkr hdakrkd ̂ fkrghddzk``k guss akr j`kfdk sclgácl-tfbk Eðrbkd gft akg Bksfclt kfdks eudbkd Gáaclkds fd

akr Dhclt afk Bk`ðstk skfdkr arkf Uk``kdbkdisskd mkafk-dkd. Kfdkd dhcl akd hdakrkd, ekak Dhclt. Gklrgh`s !Ghd sclgfdjt fld gft akg ]uÙ kfdkr vkrmrhddtkd Sclul-sil`k uda kr guss sfcl hus kfdkg Mkttmkzub kfd jurzks]þcjclkd dálkd. Ghd fst gft flg dfclt bhdz si mruth`.Kr mkj`hbt sfcl, ahss akr _kdfs vig Qlighs si wfakr`fcl

sclgkcjk. Qlighs stkcjt skfd Afdb ahrhunlfd fd kfd B`hsGhrgk`hak uda ahdhcl wfkakr fd Eðrbkds j`kfdkd Guda.—Sclgkcjt ks afr ektzt mksskr 9‐, nrhbt kr.

Mkfg Linbhdb shggk`d afk Jdhcjfs h``ks [dbkzfknkr,whs sfk dakd jþddkd, Ilrkdjdkfpkr, brðdk SclgkfÙ-

fkbkd, Jánkr, Sclhmkd, Spfddkd uda whs sidst dicl sirugjrhuclt. H``ks jiggt fd kfd briÙks B`hs. Ahdhcl wfrakfdk Skfnkdsclhcltk` zu kfdkr @istriggk` krj`árt, fd afkghd j`kfdk Ukttk`clkd wfrnt uda ahs Afdb ahdd aurcl-sclðttk`t. Uu bkwfddkd bfmt ks ahs [dbkzfknkr. —Lky,au Nitzk, jigg gh` lkr uda zfklk kfd @is‐, krtþdt ks.

Afksgh` krwfsclt ks akd _htrfcj, kr zfklt kfd @is uda h`skr akd j`kfdkd Ukttk` huskfdhdakrnh`tkt, stklt ahrhun bk-sclrfkmkd —zwkf Spfddkd‐. Kr wf`` skfdkd Bkwfdd dfcltksskd, si wfk ks afk Spfk`rkbk` vkr`hdbt. Ks bfmt kfdkd



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Scl`hb uda kfdk Mku`k wáclst hd skfdkr Scl`ánk. Dud fsstkr afk zwkf Spfddkd hus akg B`hs. —Lky, au Nitzk, zfkldicl kfd @is‐, krtþdt wfkakr kfdkr. _htrfcj sclt kfdkd

wkftkrkd Ukttk` hus akr —@istriggk`‐. Kr guss hucl afk-skd huskfdhdakrnh`tkd5 —Au lhst afk bhdzk @istriggk`bkwiddkd‐, stklt ahrhun. _htrfcj wfra bkdþtfbt, akdjigp`kttkd kjk`krrkbkdakd Fdlh`t aks bhdzkd B`hskslkrudtkrzuwðrbkd. —Rkdd au jitzt, ahdd gusst au ahshucl dicl hunnrksskd‐, aiddkrt kfdk wkftkrk Stfggk hun

fld kfd !

Hun akr H-= pfdjk`t afk bkshgtk Sthtfid kfdkd Kfgkr vi``,ghd runt akd ]kdæ, akr si`` afk stfdjkdak bk`mk Mrðlkvir vkrshggk`tkr Ghddsclhnt shunkd. ]kdæ wkfÙ, ahssflg bhr Scl`fggkrks krwhrtkd wfra, nh``s kr hucl dur afk

bkrfdbstkd Hdsth`tkd ghclt, sfcl zu wkfbkrd. Kr nádbthd, hus akg Kfgkr zu scl`ucjkd. Kr wðrbt, sktzt hm udaáclzt vkrzwkfnk`t, ahss fld afk Nhrmk si hdkj`k. Kr wkfÙvir Sclicj bhr dfclt, whs kr rkakt. —Ahs jþddkd wfr bkrdknðr afcl ádakrd‐, shbt kfdkr uda li`t kfdk _hcjudb Gf`clhus skfdkr Uk``k. Kr sclðttkt sfk zur _fssk fg Kfgkr, afk

Mrðlk mkjiggt dud kfdk hdakrk Nármudb. —Mksskr si 9‐,nrhbt kr gft bklássfbkr Gfkdk. ]kdæ guss wkftkr hd akgKfgkr wðrbkd, mfs kr `kkrbktrudjkd fst. Ks ahukrt zwkfStudakd !

Akd Rþ`nkd wfra ks `hdbwkf`fb, sfk wi``kd hucl mkwkfskd,

ahss sfk dfclt hus _hppk sfda. Ks bklt fd kfdk Uk``k. Rfrmfdakd zkrrfsskdk Mktt`hjkd ug kfdks akr Lkfzudbsrilrk,afk hd akr Akcjk aurcl afk Uk``k bklkd. Rfr jditkd Scl`fd-bkd hg hdakrkd Kdak, arkf dkmkdkfdhdakr. Ks sfklt hus



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wfk kfd Bh`bkd. Rfr dklgkd dkmkdkfdhdakr Hunstk``udbuda stkcjkd udskrk Jþpnk lfdaurcl, wfdjk`d afk Mkfdkhd, si ahss wfr gft akg Jþrpkr fd akr @unt ládbkd. Kf-

dkr bfmt mkrkfts dhcl < Skjudakd hun uda stk``t skfdkMkfdk wfkakr zurðcj hun akd Miakd. Fcl sclhnnk ug afk82 Skjudakd, ahdd akdjk fcl, ks rkfÙt gfr akd Jipn vidakd Sclu`tkrd. ]icci sclhnnt == Skjudakd. —Rhs nðr kfdQkunk`sjkr`‐, akdjkd wfr. Kr lht bkwiddkd uda mkjiggtkfd _hjkt Jhnnkk, ahs akr _rkfs nðr akd whr, akr ks hg

`ádbstkd huslá`t sfcl —wkbzuládbkd‐.

Akg @hrs trftt kfdkr fd afk Kfkr, kr guss fds Lhntjrhd-jkdlhus, wi ghd flg kfdkd Liakd hgputfkrt. Rfkakrmrfclt kfd Jfknkr, kfd Hrg, kfd Lhdabk`kdj, kfd Nfdbkr.Rfkakr guss kfdkr _fssk shunkd, wfra kfdkr vkrbkwh`-

tfbt, guss ks kfdkr gft akg Guda ghclkd. Ek eðdbkrafk Bknhdbkdkd sfda, ugsi shafstfsclkr sprfdbkd sfkgftkfdhdakr ug, ugsi jrkhtfvkr wkrakd sfk fg Krdakddkukr —Spfk`k‐.

Fd kfdkr Uwkfghddzk``k zðdakd afk mkfakd dhclts flrk

bhdzk Muak hd, sfk wi``kd fds Lhntjrhdjkdlhus. Mfs ek-ghda zur Lf`nk jiggt, fst akr kfdk vkrmrhddt, akr hdakrklht sclwkrstk ^krmrkddudbkd hg bhdzkd Jþrpkr kr`ft-tkd. Kr jiggt fds Lhntjrhdjkdlhus, hucl skfdk @udbk lhtSclhakd bkdiggkd. Kr wfra akd ]kst skfdks @kmkds mkfgHtgkd sclwkr jkuclkd uda skfdk Dhrmkd trhbkd gðsskd.

Mkfak whrkd 82 Ehlrk h`t.

Ghdclgh` jiggt ks vir, ahss kfdks akr Ipnkr afk _kfdf-budbkd dfclt gklr krtrábt, ahdd nrksskd sfk B`hssp`fttkr,



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Sclrhumkd iakr bhr zkrmriclkdk ]hsfkrj`fdbkd, ug afk-skr Lþ``k zu kdtjiggkd uda wkdfbstkds kfd phhr Riclkdfg Lhntjrhdjkdlhus Krliùdb zu dakd. Rkdd ahs dfclt

nudjtfidfkrt, scl`ftzkd sfcl ghdclk afk _u`shakrd vidimkd dhcl udtkd hun.

Fd akd arkf Ehlrkd airt lhmk fcl akd wil` mùtfbstkdHusmruclsvkrsucl kr`kmt. Kfd 8<-Eálrfbkr lhdbk`t sfclwfk kfd Mksksskdkr wálrkda aks Linbhdbs akd stál`kr-

dkd Ghsclkdzhud lfdhun. Afk Ghsclkd sfda sclhrnjhd-tfb uda bkrhak briÙ bkdub, ahss ghd afk Nfdbkrspftzkdlfdkfdstkcjkd jhdd. Hg imkrkd Kdak vkrlkaakrt kr sfclfg DHQI-Sthclkàrhlt. Kr brkfnt gft dhcjtkd Ládakd lf-dkfd uda vkrsuclt, sfcl fd 1 g Lþlk ðmkr akd Uhud zuri``kd, sfcl ìszurkfÙkd. Kr vkrlkaakrt sfcl dicl gklr,

afk spftzkd Jhdtkd aks Sthclkàrhltks, afk sclhrn wfk ]h-sfkrj`fdbkd sfda, lhcjkd sfcl fd skfdkd bhdzkd Jþrpkr kfduda rkfÙkd Scl`ftzk fd skfd N`kfscl. Kr lht sfcl ektzt gftakg bhdzkd Jþrpkr ahrfd vkrnhdbkd uda akr jrkfsnþrgfbugwfcjk`tk Sthclkàrhlt hd akr Spftzk aks Uhudks zfkltsfcl ug fld lkrug zushggkd wfk kfdk Spfrh`k. Kr rðlrt

sfcl dfclt gklr. Ks ahukrt kfdk Studak, mfs ghd fld lk-rhusbkscldfttkd lht. Ghd mrfdbt fld dicl dfclt gh` fdsJrhdjkdlhus. Afk Bknádbdfsárztfd fcjt fld zushggkduda kr wfra hdscl`fkÙkda nðr zwkf Riclkd fd akd MBLbkmrhclt, wi kr sfcl afk Rudakd `kcjkd jhdd. Kr whr kfdHutiafkm gft kfdkr zwkfeálrfbkd Lhntstrhnk.

Hucl fd akd Hrmkftsmktrfkmkd bklt ks wfà zur Shclk.Fd akr Gkth``wkrjsthtt wfra akg Svkd kfdk ahugkdaf-cjk, spftzk Arkfjhdtnkf`k mfs zug Hdscl`hb fds BksáÙ



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bkstiÙkd. Kr wfra bkdált uda guss arkf Riclkd `hdbhun akg Mhucl scl`hnkd.

Fd akr SclwkfÙkrjhmfdk akr Rkrjsthtt wfra akr Gfclhk`

hdbkmudakd uda vid kfd phhr Gftbknhdbkdkd gft akgSclwkfÙbkrát trhjtfkrt. Fcl pfdj`k akrwkf`k fd afk Jhn-nkkjhddk, afk Mursclkd wkrakd sfcl afk Ehuclk spátkrzug Nrðlstðcj kfdsclkdjkd uda sfcl dicl dfclt gh` ðmkrakd Mkfbksclghcj wudakrd. Fd akd Qkkjðmk` sclkfÙt rk-bk`gáÙfb kfdkr rkfd. Qkk sáunt lfkr sclid `hdbk jkfdkr

gklr, ah afkskd SphÙ gftt`krwkf`k sclid h``k jkddkd.Rkr wkfÙ, whs afk Bknhdbkdkd, afk fd akr Jðclk hrmkf-tkd, gft udskrkg táb`fclkd NrhÙ, nðr akd sfk zustádafbsfda, vkrhdsth`tkd. Ahss sfk uds vfk``kfclt dur fds Ksskdspucjkd, fst ah dicl afk bkrfdbstk Sirbk.

Hun ahs wfakrwártfbk Qrkfmkd, ahs sfcl fd h`` akd Hr-

mkftsmktrfkmkd hmspfk`t, wf`` fcl ektzt bhr dfclt gklrdálkr kfdbklkd, hucl dfclt hun ahs, whs ks lfkr wkf-tkr zu mkrfcltkd bámk. Fcl akdjk, akr j`kfdk Kfdm`fcj,akd fcl fd afksk vfkrtk Rk`t bhm, fst vi``jiggkd hus-rkfclkda, ug sfcl kfd Mfà vid akd îrbádbkd ghclkdzu jþddkd.

Fcl akdjk ahrhd, whs gfr akr Eubkdarfcltkr gft hunakd Rkb bhm, wfk kr sfcl rkfcl`fcl gft Sprðclkd mkafkdtkuda tþdtk5 —Lfkr wkrakd Sfk Ukft zug Dhclakdjkd lhmkd,dutzkd Sfk flrk Ehlrk but, Sfk jþddkd airt kfdk @klrkghclkd, kfdk Husmfàudb hmscl`fkÙkd usw.‐

Dhcl skcls Gidhtkd Hrmkft fd akr Gkth``wkrjsthtt mk-

jhg fcl kfd Ukrtfjht vig Jdhst, ahss fcl ektzt wkfÙ, wfkghd nkf`t, jþrdt uda kfdkd Rfdjk` mhut. Gft akg _hpfkrjiddtk fcl gfr dhcl gkfdkr Kdt`hssudb hun akr Qif`kttkaks Hrmkftshgtks akd Hrscl hmwfsclkd !



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Rkr ks dfclt b`humt, akd rhtk fcl zug Sthhtshdwh`t zubklkd uda akd bhdzkd zydfsclkd Hpphrht akr Bkrfclts-gkdsclkd, afkskr Qkgpk`scládakr, ðmkr sfcl krbklkd zu

`hsskd, mfs zug jðl`kd Jipnhmscl`hbkd fd nrðlkr Girbkd-studak fg Bknádbdfslin.

Fd akr zwkftkd Lá`ntk gkfdkr Lhnt mkjhg fcl kfdkd dkukdMuakdsphddkr, skfd Dhgk whr Stknhd, kr whr =? Ehlrk h`tuda shÙ sclid, skft kr 81 whr, ududtkrmriclkd lfkr kfd.

Kr whr jkfd bkwh`ttátfbkr Mursclk. Afk ̀ ádbstk Ukft fd akrLhnt whr kr kfd Ipnkr akr Rþ`nk, mfs flg gft akd Ehlrkd,fd akdkd kr kfskrd Bkwfcltk fg Jrhntspirtrhug stkggtk,afk kdtsprkclkdak Hrgk, hmkr hucl ahs Lkrz bkwhclskdfst, ug sfcl ]ulk zu vkrsclhnnkd. Skcls Ehlrk Jdhst hgStðcj. H`s 81-Eálrfbkr kfdbknhlrkd, ahs lfdtkr`ásst Spu-

rkd !Stknhd licjtk int studakd`hdb hun skfdkr Mkttjhdtk

uda wfpptk gft akg Imkrjþrpkr fd pkdak`hrtfbkr Mkwk-budb vir uda zurðcj, si wfk ks kfd îbk` tut, wkdd krvkrrðcjt wurak, wkf` kr zu vfk`k Ehlrk fg Jáb vkrmrhcltlht.

Hdakrk Jdhcjfs vkrìrkd bhr ahs Bkkakr fd Nirgvid jrkfsrudakg Lhhrhusnh`` aurcl akd Lhntstrkss.Aicl Stknhd dfclt, skfd Bksfclt lhttk B`kfclgut husbk-arðcjt. Hmkr ks whr jkfd B`kfclgut, akr fld krnð``tk – kswhr akr krstk Brha akr Hmstugpnudb. Kr `kmtk gft skf-dkd Bkahdjkd, ghcltk fd Bkahdjkd Sphzfkrbádbk, trhn

sfcl gft Gáaclkd, wurak vid fldkd ughrgt. Kr nulr gftakr Kfskdmhld, shÙ fg Spkfskwhbkd uda hÙ Sphrbk` gftbkjicltkg Sclfdjkd, trhdj ahzu kfd B`hs biàbk`mkdRkfd. Rfk `kfclt `fkÙ ks sfcl fg Spkfskwhbkd p`huakrd.



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Stknhd nðlrtk Bkspráclk. [da fg [r`hum … Afk Rfkskdm`ðltkd. Kr bfdb Lhda fd Lhda gft flr, lhttk sfcl fggkrbkwðdsclt, gft kfdkg Gáaclkd Lhda fd Lhda zu bklkd.

Mùgfbk Rfkskd, mùgfbk Rfkskd.Kr krahcltk j`kfdk Hm`áunk aks @kmkds, whr fggkr afk

Lhuptpkrsid, spfk`tk hucl lfd uda wfkakr NuÙmh``, whbtksfcl sibhr gftudtkr fd akd ]fdb, h`s Mixkr gft bkwh`tfbkdGusjk`d, sclùb skfdk Bkbdkr gft zwkf, arkf Lfkmkd zuMiakd. Ahdd lim Stknhd akd gusjk`sclwkrkd Hrg – kfd

Sfkbkr ! Ahs _um`fjug eumk`tk flg zu.Skfdk @fkm`fdbsmksclántfbudb hmkr whr ks, fg Auakd zu

m`áttkrd. Ekakd Qhb `krdtk kr kfd dkuks Nrkgawirt, ahskr ahdd fg Bksprácl gft frbkdakfdkg Gftbknhdbkdkd hd-mrhcltk uda nrkutk sfcl, wkdd akrekdfbk gft briÙkd Hubkdnrhbtk5 —Rhs lht ahs akdd ektzt wfkakr zu mkakutkd 9‐

Dur kfdgh` kr`ftt kr kfdkd Ruthdnh``, ks whr hd kfdkgSiggkrhmkda. Kfdk N`fkbk jrkfstk ug skfdk @hgpk. FlrSclwfrrkd stþrtk fld p`þtz`fcl. Kr mkbhdd, afk N`fkbk zu

ehbkd, rhddtk lfdtkr flr lkr, gft kfdkg Lhdatucl sclùbkr dhcl flr, trhn dfclt, lþrtk wfkakr ahs Surrkd, ahs sfcl,wfk flg sclfkd, fd skfd Bklfrd nrhÙ. Kr ehbtk sfk, h`s sfk

hd akr Rhda shÙ, sclùb kr wfkakr zu, nhda sfk wfkakr hdakr @hgpk, mkscl`fcl sfk, trhn dfclt. Kr scláugtk vir Rut,nucltk`tk wfà gft skfdkg Lhdatucl uglkr, mksclfgpntksfk5 —Au [dbklkukr ! Au vkrahggtks Mfkst !‐ Sfk whr afktkufsclstk h``kr N`fkbkd. Kr shl sfk wfkakr hd akr Rhdasftzkd uda j`htscltk ahs Qucl hun sfk. —Hl !‐, ahcltk kr, uda

skfd Lhss nkfkrtk kfdkd Qrfugpl. —Ektzt lhmk fcl sfk !‐Dhclakg fld akr Uird si bksclðttk`t lhttk, nðl`tk kr

sfcl ghtt. Kr sktztk sfcl hd skfdkd Qfscl uda stþmkrtkdicl kfd mfssclkd fd skfdkg Auakd. [da ahdd shl kr



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p`þtz`fcl afk N`fkbk gft vkrmibkdkd N`ðbk`d hd akr Rhdalicljrhmmk`d, shl, wfk sfk flr zkrscl`hbkdks, bkquá`tks@kmkd hucl dicl ðmkr akd Qfscl scl`kpptk, wfk sfk vid

akr Qfscljhdtk lkrudtkrk`. [dtkd, hun akg Miakd, zhp-pk`tk sfk, jrhmmk`tk wfkakr – sfddìs, zwkcjìs.

[da ah ahcltk Stknhd, ahss hucl kr si lkrugjrhmm`k,si zkrscl`hbkd uda vkrmibkd. Ks whr h``ks sfddìs, ahcltkkr, krsclrhj uda wkfdtk.

Lþr hun, gft akfdkg Brhg zu spfk`kd,Akr, wfk kfd Bkfkr, afr hg @kmkd nrfsst:

Afk scl`kcltkstk Bksk``sclhnt `ásst afcl nðl`kd,

Ahss au kfd Gkdscl gft Gkdsclkd mfst.

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Jurzk Ukft spátkr wurak Stknhd kdt`hsskd. Arkf Riclkdspátkr whr kr wfkakr ah.

Nðdn Ehlrk spátkr si``tk kr sfcl gft kfdkr ÐmkraisfsLkrifd fg Krwhclskdkdvi``zub akr Strhnhdsth`t Qirbhuugmrfdbkd.

Ks bfmt Sðdakd uda Sclrkcjkdsthtkd, afk ghd dfcltvkrbksskd jhdd uda afk jkfdk ]kuk butghclt … AkfdkSkk`k fst fd kfd hdakrks @hda vkrsktzt, wi sfk wfrr udaudlkfgfscl uglkrhttkrt uda jkfdk ]ulkp`átzk dakt.

Clurclf`` si`` kfdgh` bkshbt lhmkd, kfdk Bksk``sclhntjþddk hd flrkg ^krlh`tkd bkbkdðmkr flrkd Bknhdbkdkd

bkgksskd wkrakd.Bknádbdfssk afkdkd `kafb`fcl ahzu, dkuk Bknhdbkdk

zu sclhnnkd. Rkdd afk Bksk``sclhnt flrk Bknhdbkdkd h`sflrk HusbkstiÙkdkd, flrk hsizfh`kd K`kgkdtk hdsfklt uda



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mklhdak`t, ahdd wkrakd sfk ahs hucl thtsácl`fcl wkrakduda m`kfmkd. Strhnvi``zub, afk Mklhdaùdb vid Lánt`fdbkd –ahs sfda dfclt afk _rim`kgk kfdfbkr Spkzfh`fstkd, sidakrd

ahs si``tk ekakrghdds Shclk skfd. Afk Kfdstk`ùdb bkbkd-ðmkr ̂ krmrkclkrd fst kfdk Nrhbk aks sizfh`kd Mkwusstskfds,afk vid akr bkshgtkd Bksk``sclhnt bk`þst wkrakd guss.

Ks lkrrsclt brudasátz`fcl afk Fakk akr Mkstrhnudb.Sfk bklt ahvid hus, ahss ghd kfdkd Gkdsclkd krzfklkdiakr rklhmf`ftfkrkd jþddk, fdakg ghd fld mkstrhnt. Ahs

jhdd ghd hmkr dfclt. Ghd jhdd fld zkrmrkclkd: ahgftvkrstárjt ghd hmkr dur dicl afk Brðdak, afk fld bkdhufd afksk @hbk bkmrhclt lhmkd, fd akr kr sfcl mkdakt.Rálrkda jkfd Gkdscl afk Bksktzk mrkclkd si``, si``tkdhucl afksk flrkrskfts jkfdkd Gkdsclkd mrkclkd.

Fcl wkrak afr lfkr akd Jhthìb gft akd láubstkd ]k-

hjtfidkd hun Fdlhntfkrudb mkf akd eudbkd Mursclkd hun-zál`kd. @ksk uda nðrcltk ahs [dbktðg, ahs lfkr bkzðcl-tkt uda girbkd nrkfbk`hsskd wfra, sfcl ahdd vfk``kfclt fdakfdkr udgfttk`mhrkd [gbkmudb dfkakr`ásst5

- Akr eudbk Jdhstmruakr `kfakt hd Akprkssfidkd, fg

Kfdzk`dkd mksclrfkmkd h`s Bknðl` vid Ildghclt udaLfìsfbjkft, husbk`þst aurcl afk [dgþb`fcljkft Rutlkrhuszu`hsskd uda afk Ditwkdafbjkft Hdbst but vkr-mkrbkd zu gðsskd, akdd Lhnt jidnridtfkrt akd Bknhd-bkdkd gft skfdkr Stkrm`fcljkft.

- Fdtkrksskdìsfbjkft hg @kmkd h``bkgkfd

- Sk`mstwkrtvkrùst - Sk`mstgirabkahdjkd. Láub wfra kfdk tith`k

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udkrtráb`fclkd Sphddudb nðr gþb`fcl lh`tkd, ah sfkjkfdk Linndudb gklr lhmkd, flr @kmkd ek wfkakr fdakd Brfnn zu mkjiggkd.

- _syclfsclk Hmstugpnudb. Afksk fst vkrb`kfclmhr gftakr Sclgkrzudkgpda`fcljkft mkf sclwkrkd jþrpkr`f-clkd ̂ kr`ktzudbkd. Sfk ̀ ásst sfcl h`s ̂ krsucl aks Fdaf-vfauugs fdtkrprktfkrkd, skfdk skk`fsclkd Sclgkrzkdhuszusclh`tkd uda afk kfbkdk Lfìsfbjkft hmzuwkl-rkd.

- Ádbstk uda Nurclt. Kdtsktz`fclk Krfddkrudbkd mk-sktzkd flr Akdjkd uda `álgkd sfk iakr vkrurshclkdfrrhtfidh`ks ^krlh`tkd.

- [dhusbkb`fclkdlkft, Scl`hisfbjkft uda H`ptráugk- Gfsstrhukd uda ^krni`budbswhld- Int fst akr hus akg Bknádbdfs Kdt`hsskdk vid si sthr-

jkd Akprkssfidkd bkmkutk`t, ahss kr girbkds dfclthunstklkd jhdd. Kr trfdjt uda fst akrghÙkd udzu-vkr`ássfb, ahss kr vid akd Mktrfkmkd fggkr wfkakrkdt`hsskd wfra, imwil` kr hd butkd Qhbkd hun skfdkgHrmkftsbkmfkt HuÙkrirakdt`fclks zu `kfstkd vkrghb.

- Hbbrkssfid uda hsizfh`ks ^krlh`tkd. ^fk`k Lhntkdt`hs-

skdk rkhbfkrkd gft lkntfbkd Ruthusmrðclkd, int bkbkdflrk dáclstkd ^krwhdatkd, simhà akr udtkrarðcjtkUird hd afk Imkráclk bk`hdbkd ahrn. Láub wkfbkrdsfcl afksk Eubkda`fclkd wðtkda frbkdakfdk Hutirftáthdzukrjkddkd, kfdscl`fkÙ`fcl akr flrkr K`tkrd. ^fk`ksprkclkd vid lkntfbkd Lhssbknðl`kd uda Giraùst.

Afks gkfd @kskr sfda hmkr dur afk ]khjtfidkd akr Sclhnk,akr Ipnkr, akr sibkdhddtkd —Nitzkd‐. Mkfg Ri`n jiggkddicl kfd phhr wfàkrk ahzu.



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Gkfd ̂ htkr Sthht, nðl`st au ( ! ) afcl wkdfbstkds wil`,gfcl h`s kfdkd akfdkr Sþldk zu wfsskd 9 ! 9

Fcl lhttk sclid fd akr Ghsclfdk ahs Bknðl`, ahss fcl

dhcl gkfdkr Kdt`hssudb dfclt nrkf skfd wkrak.Dhcl akg Ðmkrbhdb ðmkr kfd Rhsskr jhdd ghd dur

ahdd gft akg Jipn fds Rhsskr jiggkd, wkdd ghd sfcl`kfcltsfddfb wfkakr akg Rhsskr zuwkdakt. Si`hdbk ghdvirwártssclrkftkt uda dfclt zurðcjsfklt, kdtbklt ghdafkskr Bknhlr. H``kfd ks `fkbt ktwhs ^krìcjkdaks ahrhd,

stklkd zu m`kfmkd uda hun afk ðmkrwudakdk Strkcjk zu-rðcjzum`fcjkd. Si`clk kft`k Sk`mstmkspfkbkùdb mrfdbthmkr jkfd B`ðcj. Ghd bkrát ahaurcl fd Bknhlr uda wkddghd sfcl dfclt kdtscl`fkÙt, udhunlh`tshg nirtzusclrkf-tkd, si ná``t ghd afkskr Bknhlr zug Ipnkr. Ks fst kfd h`tksSprfclwirt udtkr akd Bknhdbkdkd, dhcl akr Kdt`hssudb

dfclt zurðcj hun ahs Bknádbdfs zu sklkd. Rkdd au ahs Qirzur Nrkflkft aurclsclrkftkst, ahdd sclhu dfclt zurðcj,arkl afcl dfclt dicl kfdgh` ug, `hss ks lfdtkr afr ! Afkgkfstkd jþddkd hmkr fd flrkr Kftk`jkft afkskr ̂ krsucludbdfclt wfakrstklkd. Ahs fst akr Nùcl, nrðlkr iakr spátkrjiggkd sfk wfkakr, si hucl fcl sk`mst. Fcl si``tk gfcl

dicl int dhcl akg Qir ugarklkd uda fd akr Jidskqukdzfggkr wfkakr lfdaurclbklkd gðsskd. HuÙkr ahs `ktztkGh`, ah jhddtk fcl ahs Qir sclid si but, ahss ks akd ]kfzvkrìrkd lhttk, dicl kfdgh` kfdkd M`fcj ahrhun zu wkrnkd.Si bfdb fcl nirt, ildk gfcl dicl kfdgh` ugzuarklkd udamfd skftlkr —nrkf‐ !

Rkdd fcl gfcl lkutk mkfg Sclrkfmkd afksks Muclksugarklk, si sklk fcl hus sfclkrkr Kdtnkrdudb ahrhun zu-rðcj, akdd fcl gþcltk fd akd Nùss sprfdbkd. Aicl zukrstkfdgh` guss fcl sclwfggkd `krdkd !



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Qritz arkf wkftkrkr Hunkdtlh`tk fg Krwhclskdkdstrhn-vi``zub wkrak fcl fd akd ni`bkdakd Ehlrkd 8> hnrfjhdf-sclk @ádakr, afk [SH, Dira- uda Istkuriph mkrkfskd uda

lhmk tritzakg akrhrt bkláuntk Bkwh`tkxzkssk uda Hus-wðclsk vid Bkwh`t fddkrlh`m vid Bkgkfdsclhntkd afkskrBrþÙkdiradudb, wfk fcl sfk afr mkf uds fg Eubkdajdhstbkrhak mksclrfkm, dur fd hnrfjhdfsclkd Mðrbkrjrfkbsbk-mfktkd kr`kmt.



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Bknádbdfslin akr E^H Mrhdakdmurb

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Qkf̀ hdsfclt akr E^H Mkr`fd-Qkbk` EH Arksakd SclfkÙbhssk



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E^H Mkr`fd-Clhr`ittkdmurb

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Ahs Krwhclskdwkrakd fg ]httkdjáb

R fk mkrkfts krwáldt, vkrmrhcltk fcl arkf Lhntzkftkdfg Krwhclskdkdstrhnvi``zub. Ks fst dfclt dþtfb, hun

ekak fg Kfdzk`dkd kfdzubklkd, ah ks fggkr huns B`kfclklfdhus`áunt. Afk kdtklrkdak _rizkaur aks Kfdclkcjkdshun akr Jhggkr fg Hahgsjistðg gft bksprkfztkd Hrscl-mhcjkd uda Jdfkmkubk fst afksk`mk wfk fg Eubkdajdhst.

Hucl akfd Lhnth``thb wfra b`kfclkrghÙkd aurclstrujtu-rfkrt, dur ahss au afcl lfkr nðr bkwþld`fcl fd kfdkr Kfd-zk`zk``k wfkakrdakst. Ektzt fst ks afr hucl kr`humt, kfdkdNkrdsklkr fd akfdkd Mksftz zu mrfdbkd. Akfdk Hdbklþrf-bkd iakr Nrkudak, nh``s au wk`clk lhst, jþddkd afr mkfgMksucl, akr fd akr Bknádbdfssprhclk —Sprkclkr‐ bkthunt

wurak, kfd j`kfdks Nkrdsklbkrát gftmrfdbkd. Au gusstdhtðr`fcl virlkr, si wfk nðr h``ks lfkr, kfdk Bkdklgfbudbmkfg Mkrkfcls`kftkr mkhdtrhbkd. Mkvir au ahs Bkrát mk-jiggst, wfra ks jidtri``fkrt uda vkrp`igmt, ahdd wfra ksafr dhcl zwkf iakr arkf Riclkd Rhrtkzkft husbkládafbt.Afkskr Qhb fst wil` ahs brþÙtk Krkfbdfs nðr akd krwhcl-

skdkd Jdhcjf.Hrmkft bfmt ks lfkr dfclt gklr si rkfcl`fcl wfk fg

Eubkdajdhst. Nðdnzfb _rizkdt akr Jdhcjfs wkrakd flrkUkft gft flrkg Nkrdsklbkrát fd akr Uk``k sthtt fd kfdkgHrmkftsmktrfkm aks Bknádbdfssks vkrmrfdbkd.

Lfkr fst ks rulfbkr h`s fg Eubkdajdhst. Ks wfra mfs hun

wkdfbk Husdhlgkd hucl dfclt gklr bkni`tkrt, vfk``kfcltmrfdbt akr Nkrdsklkr Hmwkcls`udb iakr vfk``kfclt fst ghdnðr shafstfsclk Spfk`clkd hucl kfdnhcl sclid zu h`t bk-wirakd, ahs aðrntk wil` akr kfbkdt`fclk Bruda skfd. Afk



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gkfstkd lfkr lhmkd Nhgf`fk, kfdk Nrhu uda Jfdakr. Sfkwi``kd lfkr si scldk`` wfk gþb`fcl wfkakr rhus. Ghd lht ektzt hdakrk Sirbkd h`s sfcl vid nrðl mfs spát vir hdakrkd

mkwkfskd zu gðsskd. Dhtðr`fcl bfmt ks hucl gh` Strkftuda UushggkdstþÙk, ahdd jrhclt‖s hm uda zu gh` rfcl-tfb, hmkr fg Hdsclùss wkrakd si`clk ]hunládak` scldk``vkrbksskd.

Kfd fdtkrksshdtks _ládigkd fst, ahss ks fg Eubkda-jdhst zwhr Sk`mstgiravkrsuclk hg ̀ hunkdakd Mhda bfmt,

hmkr dur afk wkdfbstkd b`ðcjkd. Lfkr fg krwhclskdkdJdhst lht ghd sclid gklr Ðmudb. Fg ^krb`kfcl zug Eu-bkdajdhst lhmk fcl lfkr vfk`k bkb`ðcjtk kr`kmt. Afk Eu-bkdastrhnkr vkrsuclkd sfcl fd akr ]kbk` gft ]hsfkrj`fdbkdahs @kmkd zu dklgkd, afk Krwhclskdkd ahbkbkd zfklkdks vir sfcl zu krládbkd.

Afk gkfstkd Sk`mstgirak bfmt ks hmkr fggkr diclfd akr [dtkrsucludbslhnt, wi akr Bknhdbkdk hun skfdkBkrfcltsvkrlhdaùdbkd whrtkt, afk sfcl fg scl`fggstkdNh`` ðmkr Ehlrk lfdzfklkd jþddkd, mfs kr ahdd kda`fclhmbkurtkf`t wfra, ug skfd kdabð`tfbks StrhnghÙ fd Kgp-nhdb zu dklgkd. Afk [-Lhnt zklrt hg gkfstkd hd akd

Dkrvkd, wkf` au kwfb dfclt wkfÙt, whs afcl krwhrtkt udawfk `hdbk au dud kfdsftzkd gusst. Lhst au zug Mkfspfk`kfdk bknálr`fclk Jþrpkrvkr`ktzudb mkbhdbkd, si `fkbtahs StrhnghÙ zwfsclkd kfdkg uda zkld Ehlrkd. AhsStrhnghÙ nkstzu`kbkd `fkbt ahdd fg Krgksskd aks ]fcl-tkrs. Rkdd au irakdt`fcl —rugscl`kfgst‐ uda bhdz vkr-

lkuclk`t hun ]kuk ghclst, ahgft akg ]fcltkr`kfd ahs Kbiðmkr skfdkd Jrhbkd lfdhuswáclst, jiggst au gft kfdkrbkrfdbkrkd Strhnk ahvid. Rkdd au hmkr klr`fcl mfst udashbst, ahss au akg Hrsclìcl ekakrzkft wfkakr kfds hun



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skfd auggks Ghu` lhukd wðrakst, wkf` kr, ahs Ipnkr, kskfdnhcl vkrafkdt lht, ahdd jrfkbst au afk Lþclststrhnk.Fcl lhmk ahs Spkjthjk` gh` wfkakr lfdtkr gfr uda mfd

wfk fggkr gft kfdkg shntfbkd Gfttk`ghÙ fg Bkpácj fgStrhnvi``zub hdbkjiggkd. Ahss gfr dfk afk Lþclststrhnkhunbkmruggt wurak, lhmk fcl akg H``gácltfbkd zu vkr-ahdjkd, akr tritz h``kg fggkr frbkdawfk skfdk Lhda ðmkrgfcl lfk`t, ug gfcl vir akg Scl`fggstkd zu mkwhlrkd,hmkr hucl gkfdkr Hdwá`tfd, afk wfk vid Bittksbdhakd fst.

Afk whlrk Eustftfh trábt akd Dhgkd Fdks Jf`fhd. Eh, Bittskf Ahdj rðcjtk dhcl gkfdkg h`jili`jrhdjkd, jirruptkduda udnálfbkd Lkrrd Hdwh`t hus akr ^krbhdbkdlkft dudafksk Nrhu hd skfdk Stk``k.

Mksclfsskd bkdub jhg ks akddicl ekaks Gh`.Rfk sclid mksclrfkmkd, dakst au hucl lfkr wfkakr

h``k Clhrhjtkrk – hun kdbstkg ]hug. Kfdkd rfcltfb mþskdRi`n dakst au lfkr dfclt gklr, wil` hmkr fst hun ekakrSthtfid zugfdakst kfdkr, akr sfcl mksidakrs lkrvirtut.Kfdkr, akr `hutkr h`s h``k hdakrkd fst, akr afk Sthtfid hunuda hm sti`zfkrt: kfdkr, akr fggkr bksklkd uda bklþrtwkrakd guss uda gft skfdkr privizfkrkdakd Hrt vkrsuclt

afk rkst`fclk Mk`kbsclhnt akr Sthtfid zu fdtfgftfkrkd. Fdakd gkfstkd Ná``kd wfra bkrhak afkskr vig Bknádbdfs-pkrsidh` husbkwál`t, ug akd _istkd aks —Jh`nhjtirs‐ zumkjiggkd. Jh`nhjtir fst kfdkr akr mkstkd Eims, afk ghdfg Jdhst mkjiggkd jhdd. Au mfst ahdd vkrhdtwirt`fclnðr afk Ksskdshusbhmk uda lhst afk Sthtfid shumkr zu

lh`tkd. Rkdd h``k hdakrkd fd flrk Uk``kd kfdbkscl`isskdsfda, m`kfmt akfdk Qðr innkd, ahgft au gft akg Rfsclgipp ekakd Rfdjk` akr —_fstk‐ wfkdkrd jhddst. Hucl mfst au nðrafk j`kfdkd Mk`hdbk akr hdakrkd Bknhdbkdkd zustádafb,



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lhst Jidtri``k ðmkr Skfnk, _utzgfttk`, Uhldmðrstkd udaahs SclkfÙlhusphpfkr. Mkf akr Ksskdshusbhmk jhddst auahdd hucl mksclkfÙkd. Au ̀ ásst Rurst, Imst, N`kfscl, Ei-

blurt uda Gf`cl vkrsclwfdakd uda vkrstkcjst ks fd akfdkrUk``k, ug afr wálrkda akr Dhclt vir akg Nkrdsklkr akdRhdst vi``zuscl`hbkd.

Qhmhj fst udtkr akd Jdhcjfs Uhlùdbsgfttk` wfk arhu-Ùkd ahs Bkà. Au ̀ ásst afcl h`si vid kfd phhr wil`lhmkd-akd Gftlánt`fdbkd gft Qhmhj mkstkclkd uda tkf`st fldkd

ahnðr brþÙkrk _irtfidkd mkfg Gftthb- iakr Hmkdaksskdhus, iakr hmkr au bfmst fldkd afk mkstk Mkttwásclk mkfg81-tábfbkd Qhuscl, akdd ahrðmkr mfst au eh hucl diclLkrr !

Fg BriÙkd uda Bhdzkd lhst au h`si h`s Jh`nhjtir kfdkj`kfdk Ghcltpisftfid uda ks fst mkgkrjkdswkrt, ahss –

wfk fcl mkrkfts krwáldtk – fd akd gkfstkd Ná``kd akrsclámfbstk Clhrhjtkr udtkr akd Bknhdbkdkd fd afkskdEim, afksk j`kfdk îrghcltstk`ùdb vid akd Mkhgtkdmknþrakrt wfra.

Sk`mstvkrstáda`fcl fst akr Jh`nhjtir nðr bkwþld`fcl afkbrþÙtk ]httk fd afkskg Dkst. Flg kdtbklt dfclts uda ekak

j`kfdk Sclhdatht, afk kr vid afr gftmkjiggt, wfra kr fgAfkdstzfggkr aks Mkhgtkd hdsclwárzkd, ug hun akfdkJistkd wkftkrk ^krbðdstfbudbkd nðr sfcl zu mkjiggkd.Si wfra akr Jh`nhjtir gkfst hucl scldk``kr h`s akr ]kstgft Lhntvkrbðdstfbudbkd mfs lfd zu Husbádbkd, Lhntur-`hum uda virzkftfbkr Kdt`hssudb hun Mkwálrudb zwkcjs

butkr Nðlrudb mkìldt.

Rhrst au fg Eubkdajdhst dicl gft innkdkr Bkwh`t udaakg Bksktz akr Igkrth jidnridtfkrt, si mfst au lfkr fg



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Qhuscl hd h``kd Kcjkd ̂ krrht, Lfdtkr`fst, Lkfgtðcjk, diclkxtrkgkrkg Nuttkrdkfa uda udzál`fbkd j`kfdkd Bkgkfd-lkftkd husbksktzt.

Dfclt dur akr Jh`nhjtir, hucl afk Mkhgtkd whclkd lfkrktwhs mksskr ðmkr uds h`s fd akr Eubkdastrhnhdsth`t. Afk^krmrkclkr si``kd bkmksskrt wkrakd, akslh`m wkrakd sfkmkstrhnt. Sfk jiggkd fd kfd Bknádbdfs uda wkrakd mk-whclt. Ahs fst kfd sclwkrkr Afkdst, akdd ghd jhdd fl-dkd eh dfclt trhukd. Hmkr ks fst wfcltfb, ahss sfk fd flrkd

Hunsklkrd ̂ irmfàkr krm`fcjkd, wk`clk kfdkd udthak`fbkd@kmkdswhdak` nðlrkd, whs vfk``kfclt dfclt ildk Kfdusshun afk Mkstrhntkd fst. Ghd guss strkdb skfd gft fldkd,akdd sidst lf`nt eh aicl dfclts. Int sfda sfk nhu` uda wi`-`kd dfclt hrmkftkd. Sfk sfda hucl dfclt girh`fscl, whs flrLhuptnkl`kr fst. Ahs guss ghd fldkd krzál`kd, ahgft sfk

sfcl mksskrd. ^fk``kfclt fst hucl ghdclkr bhr dfclt siscl`kclt uda jhdd sfcl dicl mksskrd. Hmkr ahs fst sclwkr,akdd afk scl`kcltk Bksk``sclhnt vkrlfdakrt ahs int. [dasi stk``t akr Afkdst akr Mkhgtkd briÙk Hdnirakrudbkdhd afksk`mkd. Hmkr ks fst kfd butkr Afkdst, akdd afk Gkd-sclkd gðsskd vir si`clkd K`kgkdtkd bksclðtzt wkrakd,

ahgft afk Iradudb dfclt bkstþrt wfra uda ghd dhcltsrulfb scl`hnkd jhdd. Ghd guss vir h``kg fggkr ahrhunhcltkd, ahss afk Qðrkd but vkrsclìsskd sfda. Akdd wkddafk Qðrkd hun wárkd, wðrakd afk ^krmrkclkr kdtwkfclkd.Ahrug lht ekak Uk``k kfd butks Sclìss, ahs vid akd Mk-hgtkd sklr bkdhu mkwhclt wkrakd guss …

Eh, afk gkfstkd Bknádbdfsmkhgtkd lhmkd akd bkfstf-bkd Lirfzidt kfdks Mfkrjutsclkrs, akslh`m sfda sfk whlr-sclkfd`fcl hucl lfkr mkf uds bk`hdakt uda mkjhgkd ahdjflrkr jùbkd Hrmkftswhl` kfd @kmkd fg Bknádbdfs.



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Ks bfmt lfkr jkfd Linnkd uda B`humkd, jkfd @fkmkd udaBk`fkmtwkrakd, vfk` wkdfbkr frbkdakfd Fakh`, frbkdaktwhsSclþdks, Ástlktfsclks, jkfdk Judst, jkfdk Kgpdaudb,

whs gklr fst h`s Hrmkft uda Ksskd ná``t wkb. Ks bfmt dfcltsLþlkrks hun akr Krak, jkfdk brþÙkrk Ghclt h`s akd hubkd-m`fcj`fclkd Rártkr, jkfd Gitfv h`s nrkgakd Mknkl`, ks bfmt,gft kfdkg Rirt bkshbt, lfkr jkfdkd Bkfst. Dfclt kfdgh`sfdd`fclk ^i``jiggkdlkft bf`t lfkr ktwhs, sk`mst afk phhrHak`fbkd, afk ah sfda, sfda kfd Qkf` aks sfdd`iskd _ri`k-

thrfhts, ahs sfcl lfkr hdbkshggk`t lht. Fcl mkhdspruclk eh bkwfss dfclt, gft akd lfksfbkd Gkdsclkd ktwh pi`ftf-sfkrkd zu jþddkd uda Áld`fclks, hmkr dfclt kfdgh` kfdirakdt`fclks _rfvhtbksprácl jhdd ah zusthdak jiggkd.

Fcl lhmk mksidakrs lfkr afk Rhdak`mhrjkft h``krgkdscl`fclkd Mkzfkludbkd jkddkdbk`krdt, gfcl hmkr

akddicl dfclt bkbkd Lftzk uda Já`tk zu fsi`fkrkd bk-`krdt, si ahss fcl kfd Qkgpkrhturb`kfclbkwfclt láttksfclkrd jþddkd.

Fcl mfd jkfd mksskrkr Gkdscl bkwirakd, hmkr hucljkfd scl`kcltkrkr, dur kgitfidh`kr h`s zuvir. Dfkghda fgJdhst b`humt, ahss afk Strhnk afk Bknhdbkdkd girh`fscl

mksskrt. Sk`mst afk Mkhgtkd dfclt.Rfk fst ks gft akr ]kuk 9 Jhdd ekghda mkrkukd, ktwhs

bkthd zu lhmkd, jhdd kr mkahukrd 9 Sfclkr. Hmkr ks ná``tsclwkr fd kfdkg J`fgh, fd akg kr aurcl hdahukrdak Kr-dfkarfbudb zug —hdstádafbkd‐ Gkdsclkd krzibkd wkr-akd si``.

Akr Jdhst krzkubt Rut, Ildghclt, ^krzwkfudb – akrJdhst ghclt dfclt kfdsfcltfb uda skdsfmk`. Fg Bkbkd-tkf`5 Fg Bknádbdfs guss sfcl akr Kfdzk`dk aurclscl`hbkd,sidst bklt kr udtkr.



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Ks whr frbkdawhdd wálrkda gkfdkr Ukft fg Krwhcl-skdkdjdhst, ahss fcl gfcl liclgðtfb h`s Hrfstijrht vidh``kd hdakrkd uda flrkr Rk`t hmsidakrtk, spátkr fd akr

Kfdzk`lhnt `kmtk fcl wfk kfdk Ghekstát fg Kxf`. Uwhr Hd-bklþrfbkr kfdks vkrhrgtkd Hak`sbkscl`kclts, hmkr whlr-lhnt bkfstfbkd Sthdaks. Ks fst jkfdk Qubkda, kak` bkmirkdzu wkrakd, sidakrd sfcl kak` ghclkd.

Dud jhdd kfdkg bkfstfbkd Gkdsclkd dfclts B`ðcj`fclkrks

bksclklkd h`s afk Hussclh`tudb vig þnnkdt`fclkd, vigpi`ftfsclkd @kmkd: sfk trkfmt akd Akdjkr, akd Jðdst`krhus skfdkr udwðrafbkd Splárk, afk dur gft Mruth`ftát iakr^krscl`hbkdlkft zu gkfstkrd fst, fd skfdk fddkrk, udmk-rðlrmhrk uda udzkrstþrmhrk zurðcj. Ekak Nirg aks Kxf`swfra nðr kfdkd bkfstfbkd Gkdsclkd Hdtrfkm zur fddkrkd

Shggùdb.Dhcl h`` akd Ehlrkd fd akr Ghsclfdk, fg Uii, jkfgt

si `hdbshg akr Rudscl dhcl kfdkg ^hbhmudakd`kmkd.Jkfdkd Gkdsclkd bklirshg, hmládbfb dur vid Rkttkruda Ehlrkszkft. Jkfd Ufk` vir sfcl, jkfd Ahcl ðmkr sfcl,dfclts mksftzkda uda h``kd Uuná``kd innkd, nðlrkd afk

Lkfghtìskd flr jfda`fclks uda thpnkrks, flr árg`fclksuda flr sthrjks @kmkd. Sfk sfda afk Sþldk Hahgs, aks husakg _hrhafks ^krtrfkmkdkd, uda afk Mrðakr akr Qfkrk, akr[dscluàfbkd … Hus akr Lhda aks Lfggk`s dklgkd sfkStudak ug Studak, whs fldkd bkbkmkd wfra5 Siddk, ]k-bkd, Dkmk`, Scldkk, Rárgk uda Já`tk, Ril`skfd uda Dit,

ks bfmt nðr sfk jkfdk Ukft, jkfdk Bksclfcltk, jkfd Strk-mkd uda dfclt ekdkd sk`tshgkd Bþtzkd akr Kdtwfcjùdbuda aks Nirtsclrftts, hd akd afk Lhusmksftzkr si vkr-zwkfnk`t b`humkd. Kfd ^hbhmuda jhdd zhrt iakr ril skfd,



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judstnkrtfb iakr tþ`pfscl, thpnkr iakr ádbst`fcl, fggkrhmkr fst kr fg Lkrzkd kfd Jfda, fggkr `kmt kr hg krstkdQhbk, vir Hdnhdb h``kr Rk`tbksclfcltk, fggkr wfra skfd

@kmkd vid wkdfbkd kfdnhclkd Dþtkd uda Qrfkmkd bk`kf-tkt. Kr jhdd jùb skfd iakr augg: kr jhdd tfkn fd sfclwfsskda skfd, wfk bkmrkcl`fcl uda vkrbádb`fcl h``ks @k-mkd fst uda wfk hrg uda hdbstvi`` h``ks @kmkdafbk skfdmfssclkd whrgks Mùt aurcl ahs Kfs akr Rk`tráugk trábtiakr kr jhdd mìÙ jfdafscl uda bfkrfb akd Mknkl`kd skf-

dks hrgkd Ghbkds ni`bkd – fggkr fst kr akr Bkbkdspfk-`kr uda Qiankfda aks Mksftzkdakd uda Sksslhntkd, akrfld lhsst, vkrhcltkt uda nðrcltkt, akdd kr wf`` dfclt hdh`` ahs krfddkrt wkrakd5 dfclt hd afk N`ðcltfbjkft h``ksSkfds, hd ahs mkstádafbk Lfdwk`jkd h``ks @kmkds, hd akdudkrmftt`fclkd kfsfbkd Qia, akr ruda ug uds ahs Rk`th``

krnð``t.Aicl dicl mfd fcl jkfd ^hbhmuda, dicl mfd fcl lfkr.Kfdk Ukft ̀ hdb sclfkd ks nðr gfcl but zu ̀ hunkd uda bhr

ghdcl Mkhgtkr whr scl`kfgfb nrkuda`fcl zu gfr. Ahs h``ksádakrtk sfcl, h`s fcl gkfdkd Husstfkb hus akr rkcltkdSzkdk inzfk`` ghcltk, fdakg fcl gkfd Mucl ^krsclkdjtk

Ehlrk vig Jdhst lkrhus vkrþnnkdt`fcltk. ]hafiskdakr,Ukftudbkd uda Nkrdsklkr rfsskd sfcl dud ug Fdtkrvfkwsgft gfr. Afk Mksuclkrhmtkfùdb aks Bknádbdfssks wurakzu gkfdkg Jidnkrkdzbk`ádak. Jurz dhclakg ahs UAN-Ju`turghbhzfd Hspkjtk kfdkd Mkrfclt ðmkr gfcl husbk-strhl`t lhttk, jidthjtfkrtkd gfcl gklrkrk Nf`grgkd,

ug afk Nf`grkcltk nðr gkfd Mucl zu krwkrmkd. Hg Kdakvkrjhuntk fcl afk Nf`grkcltk hd Skdhtir-Nf`gs fd Mkr-`fd, whs gfr kfd mkhclt`fclks Sðggclkd kfdmrhcltk …whlrsclkfd`fcl gklr, h`s sfcl kfd Eustfzmkhgtkr fd zkld



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Ehlrkd vid skfdkg Bklh`t vig Guda wkbsphrkd jhdd.Ektzt ghclt afkskr Dfcj Brkbkr gft skfdkr jrfgfdk``kd^krbhdbkdlkft hucl dicl akd nkttkd ]kfmhcl, ahs jhdd

aicl dfclt whlr skfd ! Ah afk _ist ðmkrwhclt wfra, whrkdafk Eustfzmkhgtkd fggkr hun akg @hunkdakd ðmkr gkfdkj`kfdk Krni`bsbksclfcltk uda gft ekakg Fdtkrvfkw, ahsfcl bhm, gft ekakg Nf`ghdbkmit wucls afk Gfssbudst ud-tkr fldkd. Ghd `fkÙ sfcl h``krlhda Sclfjhdkd kfdnh``kd,ug gfcl zu privizfkrkd. Fcl si``tk husfppkd, rðcjná``fb

wkrakd, gþb`fclst kfdkd Mkhgtkd hdbrkfnkd, ahgft ghdlfdtkrlkr shbkd jhdd5 Sclhut lkr, akr lht sfcl eh aicldfclt bkádakrt. Fg —Nrhukd-N`ðbk`‐ aks Bknádbdfssks fstks vkrmitkd, ahss gádd`fclk Mkhgtk afk Uk``kd wkfm`fclkrFdshssfddkd jidtri``fkrkd. Mkf gfr ahbkbkd sclfcjtk ghdzur Uk``kdjidtri``k ekaks Gh` kfd uda afksk`mk wfakrwár-

tfbk Lkxk, ug gkfdk Muak huskfdhdakrzudklgkd. KfdksQhbks mksclwkrtk fcl gfcl uda wkfbkrtk gfcl, gkfdkdLhntrhug zu vkr`hsskd, h`s afksks bklássfbk Rkfmsstðcjwfkakr kfdgh` sclámfb brfdskda vir gfr sthda uda rhus-sclrfk5 —Lhntrhugjidtri``k !‐ Fcl ghcltk akut`fcl, ahsshucl fcl kfd Sclhgbknðl` lhmk uda dfclt mkbkfstkrt mfd,

ahss kfdk wkfm`fclk Mkhgtfd flrk Dhsk fd gkfdk [dtkrwá-sclk stkcjt. Scláugkda vir Rut ðmkr gkfdk hunsássfbkArkfstfbjkft ahgpntk afkskr Qkunk` ahvid, ug zkld Gfdu-tkd spátkr gft kfdkr bhdzkd Lirak flrkr Ji``kbkd h`s ̂ kr-stárjudb wfkakr hun gkfdkr Ghttk zu stklkd. Fcl wurakudtkr Hdariludb jþrpkr`fclkr Bkwh`t hus gkfdkr Uk``k

ksjirtfkrt, ahgft afksks N`fdtkdwkfm gkfd ]kclt mkubkduda gft flrkr Dhsk fd gkfdkr Arkcjwásclk rugscldðnnk`djhdd. Fcl mkjhg vfkr Riclkd Kfdzk`lhnt wkbkd Dfcltmk-ni`bkd vid Afkdsthdwkfsudbkd.



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Fcl lhmk Bkahdjkd, vid akdkd fcl gfr wðdscltk, sfkwðrakd gfr dfclt fd akd Jipn jiggkd.

^id ektzt hd `fkÙ ghd gfcl dfclt gklr zur ]ulk jig-

gkd. Sk`mst dhclts ug =.?? [lr li`tk ghd gfcl hus gkf-dkr Uk``k, ug h``ks huskfdhdakrzudklgkd. Gft akd Dkr-vkd hun ahs ÁuÙkrstk hdbksphddt uda nhst gðrmk bkjicltmksclfgpntk fcl afk Mkhgtkd, whs gfr wkftkrk Kfdzk`lhntwkbkd Mkhgtkdmk`kfafbudb kfdmrhcltk. Ahdhcl b`kfclwfkakr Kfdzk`lhnt wkbkd Mkhgtkdmkariludb. Kfdkg afk-

skr Bþtzkdjdkcltk shbtk fcl, ahss fcl flg afk Nrkssk pi-`fkrk, wkdd fcl lfkr kdt`hsskd mfd uda fld ekgh`s arhuÙkdfd Ufvf` krwfsclkd si``tk.

Fcl láttk afk Shclk ̀ fkmkr gft Kfskd hdsthtt gft Rirtkdhusbknicltkd.

Skcls Gidhtk Kfdzk`lhnt hg Stðcj uda gft ekakg Qhb,

gft ekakr mislhntkd Mkgkrjudb akr [dfnirgfkrtkd, gft ekakr Sclfjhdk wucls gkfd Lhss hun afksks hdghÙkdakBksfdak`, ahs gfr fd kfdkr Afsjussfid dicl dfclt gh`mfs zu akd NuÙjdþclk`d rkfclt. Akr aurclscldftt`fclkEustfzmkhgtk fst kfd Sámk`wktzkr, kr fst kfd gfskrhm`kr,gfssbðdstfbkr, bklássfbkr, dkfafsclkr, mþshrtfbkr, sh-

afstfsclkr, krprksskrfsclkr uda aurcl uda aurcl nkfbkrGkdscl. Skfd klrkdwkrtkr Mkrun fst dfclts hdakrks, h`slf`isk Jrkhturkd zu sclfdakd, zu sclfjhdfkrkd iakrkfdnhcl fd akd Rhldsfdd zu trkfmkd. Dfkghda uda dfcltsfdtkrkssfkrt fld huÙkr skfdkr eággkr`fclkd Jhrrfkrk. Krfst kfd pribrhggfkrtkr Cigputkr, kfdk Ghsclfdk, afk dur

ahs Bksktz uda afk Lhusiradudb jkddt, ghdclgh` dicldfclt kfdgh` ahs irakdt`fcl.

Rkdd fcl hd akd Mkrkfcls`kftkr akdjk, wfra gfr j`hr,ahss fcl fd gkfdkg bhdzkd mfslkrfbkd @kmkd dicl dfk



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kfdkd si lugirìskd, sturkd, vkrj`kggtkd, vkrjrhgpn-tkd, sjrupk`ìskd, bkfstìskd, akprfgfkrkdakd, `hdb-wkf`fbkd uda briÙjitzfbkd Gkdsclkd wfk flg mkbkbdkt

mfd. Rfk kfd Skjtfkrkr vir kfdkg Bþtzkd mrfclt kr vir sfclsk`mkr fd afk Jdfk.

Akr Bknádbdfsafrkjtir, kfd sturkr Mðrijrht, sfklt huswfk kfd udtkrsktztkr sclwhmmk`fbkr Kuduclk. Skfdk bkfs-tfbkd Nálfbjkftkd bfdbkd dfclt ðmkr kfdk hdbkmirkdk,strkdb hmbkbrkdztk Scl`hulkft uda ]kclkdjudst lfdhus.

Skfdk @kjtðrk mksclrádjtk sfcl hun afk Ukftudb uda ugskfdkd Mkahrn hd Judstbkdðsskd zu akcjkd, whr afk eálr-`fclk @fkmlhmkrhunnðlrudb aks Mðrbkrvkrkfds uda zwf-sclkdarfd akr Mksucl kfdks Ufrjus husrkfclkda. Kr láttkgft ekakg mk`fkmfbkd Dhclmhrd Dhgk uda Rildudb thu-sclkd jþddkd, ildk ahss frbkdaktwhs hdakrs bkwirakd

wárk. Hucl ahs Qfknstk skfdkr Skk`k, ahs sclùggkrìskGfsstrhukd bkbkd ekak ðmkr`kbkdk Jrhnt uda _krsþd`fcl-jkft uda afk fdstfdjtfvk, hus Dkfa krwhclskdk Nkfdask-`fbjkft bkbkd h``ks [dh``táb`fclk, Nrkfkrk, Nkfdkrk, Bkfs-tfbk tkf`tk kr gft ságt`fclkd ðmrfbkd Uhldráakrd akrGhsclfdk. Bkdub vid flg. Dur kfd tfknkr Fridfjkr wárk

akr Ahrstk`ùdb afksks hclkd @kmkds uda skfdkr udmk-wusstkd Qrhbfj bkwhclskd.

Ahs brþÙtk Sclkush` fg Bknádbdfs fst hmkr akr Hdsth`ts-psycliìbk, akr sibhr dicl afk nhu`kd, udnálfbkd, udtkr-mk`fcltktkd Jdhstsizfh`hrmkftkr gft flrkr auggnrkclkd

Mirdfkrtlkft ðmkrtrugpnt. Kr lþrt afr bhr dfclt zu, wkf` krsfcl hg ̀ fkmstkd sk`mkr rkakd lþrt. Fcl b`humk, kr jþddtkbhr dfclt hunlþrkd zu rkakd, sk`mst wkdd kr ks vkrsucltk.Dfclt ahss kr scldk`` spráclk, dfclt —wfk kfd Rhsskrnh``‐,



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wfk ghd shbt, wkdd ekghda vfk` uda scldk`` rkakt udaafk Rirtk lkrhusspruak`d – fg Bkbkdtkf`. Skfdk ]kakfst sclwkrná``fb, trábkr h`s kfdk Jrþtk, ugstáda`fcl, pk-

ahdtfscl, zkrlhcjt, afk Rirtk nh``kd fd Shtztrðggkrdhus skfdkg Guda – afk kr mfs zug ÁuÙkrstkd zurðcjlá`t,h`s mrácltkd sfk flg Ufdskd. Ks ahukrt uda ahukrt, mfs krkda`fcl si kfdkd _ipk` vkrlártktkr Bklfrdritzk rhus lht.Ahdd wfdakt kr sfcl fd sclgkrzlhntkr ^krzðcjudb udasul`t sfcl fd skfdkg auggstuafkrtkd Bklfrdhususs. Hg

Kdak krsclrfcjt kr ahdd uda zucjt ádbst`fcl vir sfcl sk`-mkr zushggkd, wkdd ghd flg kfdkd Spfkbk` virlá`t. Krfst kfd vkrh`tktks Giak``, aksskd Husjdfpssclh`tkr dfcltnudjtfidfkrt uda akd ghd dfclt gklr hussclh`tkd jhdd,huÙkr wkdd ghd akd Lhuptsclh`tkr nðr akd bkshgtkdStrig hmsclh`tkt. Fcl gðsstk flg h`si hun afk Nrkssk

lhukd. Dkfd, fcl gðsstk fld mkwusstìs scl`hbkd. Hmkrsk`mst mkwusstìs wðrak kr dicl wkftkrrkakd. Sk`mstwkdd ghd flg afk Stfggmádakr aurclscldfttk, wðrak krwkftkrrkakd wfk kfd Mhuclrkadkr. Sk`mst wkdd ghd flgafk Jkl`k aurclscldfttk uda skfdkd Jipn hmtrkddtk, wðr-akd dicl Rirtm`hskd hus skfdkg Guda ládbkd, gft akdkd

kr sfcl fd ekakg zwkftkd Shtz sk`mst wfakr`kbt wfk skfdðmkrli`tks îrmfà Nrkua. Akddicl mkafkdt kr sfcl, h``krRkfslkft zug Qritz, rkfcl`fcl gft Sprðclkd vid bkrhakkmkd afkskg. Ekaks bksudak @kmkd guss kfdkd Fdlh`tuda kfd Ufk` lhmkd uda ahs whr flg vkrìrkdbkbhdbkd.Dud vkrsuclt kr husbkrkcldkt gfcl zu hdh`ysfkrkd, ug

Hdtwirtkd nðr skfd dfcltsdutzfbks, vkrbkuaktks @kmkdzu dakd. Rhs lhmk fcl gfr ah mìÙ kfdbklhdak`t !

Dkfd, fcl jhdd gft flg dfclts hdnhdbkd uda gft flghucl dfclt sprkclkd, fcl guss `kmkdafbk Gkdsclkd vir



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gfr lhmkd, wkdd fcl gkfdk Bknðl`k pristftufkrkd si`` ! Ksfst akprfgfkrkda, si`cl kfdkg Bksfdak` husbk`fknkrt zuskfd. Fcl ahrn dfclt ehggkrd. Fcl ahrn hun jkfdkd Nh`` vkr-

zwkfnk`t skfd ! Dfclt kfdgh` trhurfb skfd ! Ahs vkrgfdakrtakd Lhss – fcl mrhuclk Lhss ! Jkfdk ̂ krhcltudb, ̂ krhcl-tudb krgðakt – fcl mrhuclk mþskd, rhclbfkrfbkd Lhss !

Rfk lhmkd sfk Afcl Mhug vkrscldfttkd,

Rfk stklst Au jhl` uda sidakrmhr !

Rfk lhst Au ludakrtgh` bk`fttkd,Mfs h``ks fd Afr Qritz uda Rf``k whr !

Lkrghdd Lkssk

Fd Kfdzk`lhnt nhdbk fcl hd, gft gfr sk`mst zu rkakd. Dfclt

`hut, dfclt zu `kfsk, si ahss fcl gfcl bkrhak dicl lþrkdjhdd. Afk Qrhbþafk nádbt hd gfcl zu ugdkmk`d wfk kfdkAribk. Fcl ahrn dfclt krscl`hnnkd. Fcl guss hucl jþrpkr-`fcl fd Nirg m`kfmkd. Fcl trhfdfkrk fd gkfdkr Uk``k wfk kfdSclwkfd, ghclk Jdfkmkubkd, @fkbkstðtzk, J`fggzðbk hdakd Bfttkrstámkd, Sft-ups … Fcl rkddk, hmkr fcl rkddk hun

akr Stk``k, ahs ghclt dfclts, Lhuptshclk fd Mkwkbudbm`kfmkd, dur dfclt stklkd m`kfmkd. Bklkd, bklkd – hmkrwilfd 9

Ksskdhustkfùdb, fcl rðlrk akd SclwkfdknrhÙ dfclt gklrhd. Fcl nhsstk, fcl trhfdfkrk, dhcl arkf Riclkd lhmk fcl

8< Jfì vkrìrkd. Afk Sclgkrzkd fg Jipn wkrakd si udkr-tráb`fcl, ahss fcl kfdkd akr Jdkcltk dhcl kfdkr Sclgkrz-thm`kttk nrhbk. Kr lþrt bhr dfclt zu, hucl dfclt, h`s fcl afkNrhbk wfkakrli`k. Dur dfclt wkftkr privizfkrkd `hsskd,



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shbk fcl gfr. Kfdnhcl ugarklkd, wkbarklkd, vkrbksskd,ahss fcl kfdk Nrhbk hd afksks ^fkl bkrfcltkt lhmk. ^kr-bksskd, ahss fcl si`clk Sclgkrzkd lhmk.

Eh, wkdd au akd whlrkd Clhrhjtkr kfdks Gkdsclkdjkddkd`krdkd wf``st, ahdd bfm flg Ghclt.

Rfkakr bklt afk Uk``kdtðr hun uda wfkakr stklt afkbklássfbk Lkxk fd gkfdkr Muak. Gft akr Ukft sclhut sfkbhr dfclt gklr si scl`kclt hus, akdjk fcl gfr. Sfk fst vfk`-`kfclt =2 Ehlrk h`t, 8,>? g briÙ, lht `hdbk mrhudk Lhhrk,

kfd _uppkdbksfclt uda zfkr`fclk j`kfdk NðÙk. Rhs ghb sfkwfkbkd, vfk``kfclt ;? Jfì, gklr hun jkfdkd Nh``. Rfk jhddafksks j`kfdk Afdb dur si wfakr`fcl ahlkrjiggkd. Fcljþddtk sfk hd akr Jkl`k phcjkd uda gft husbkstrkcjtkgHrg fd afk @unt lkmkd, si wfdzfb uda lfìs wárk sfk fdgkfdkr Lhda. Rhs wf`` sfk ektzt sclid wfkakr vid gfr 9

Sfk lht kfdk Mitsclhnt zu vkrjðdakd, ahs sklk fcl sclidhd flrkd tkufscl nudjk`dakd audj`kd Hubkd. Sfk m`ástsfcl hun fd flrkr brhukd [dfnirgmùsk uda pishudt5 —Rfrlhmkd kfdk Dhclrfclt mkjiggkd, ahss ks kfdkd Qiaks-nh`` fd flrkr Nhgf`fk bhm.‐ Ahdd wðdsclt gfr afksks Gfst-stðcj dicl kfdkd sclþdkd Qhb uda rfkbk`t afk sclwkrk

Sthl`tðr scldk`` wfkakr lfdtkr sfcl zu, ahgft fcl flr dfcltvfk``kfclt aicl dicl hd flrk aðrrk Burbk` sprfdbkd jhdd.Rfk vkrstkfdkrt stklk fcl fd akr jhl`kd Uk``k, gkfd Lfrdhrmkftkt5 kfd Qiaksnh`` fd gkfdkr Nhgf`fk, kfd Qiaksnh``,kfd Qiaksnh`` … Rkr jhdd ks skfd 9 Fcl nhdbk hd zu mktkd,linnkdt`fcl dfclt gkfdk Guttkr, linnkdt`fcl dfclt gkfdk

BriÙguttkr. Kfdk Riclk spátkr krlh`tk fcl kfdkd Mrfknvid gkfdkr Nhgf`fk, ks whr gkfd BriÙvhtkr, akr sthrm.

Fcl guss lfkr rhus, fcl lh`tk ks fd akr mkj`kggkdakdKdbk afkskr brhukd Uk``k dfclt gklr hus. Fcl mrhuclk



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kfdkd Qhpktkdwkclsk`. Afk kfdzfbk Clhdck, afkskg ]hugzu kdtjiggkd, fst sclwkr jrhdj zu wkrakd, ug fd ahsLhntjrhdjkdlhus ðmkrnðlrt zu wkrakd, ah wfra ks mks-

skr skfd uda fcl jhdd gfcl kfd wkdfb hd akd lðmsclkdJrhdjkdsclwkstkrd hunlkftkrd – nh``s ks airt wk`clkbkmkd si``tk. Fd ekakg Nh`` jhdd ks fg Lhntjrhdjkdlhusdfclt scl`fggkr skfd h`s lfkr uda wkdfbstkds wkrak fclairt dfclt bhdz si fsi`fkrt vid akr Rk`t skfd. Hmkr wfkjiggk fcl airtlfd, wfk wkrak fcl ektzt hg scldk``s-

tkd stkrmkdsjrhdj 9 ! Fcl bklk zug Rhsclmkcjkd udaaurcltrádjk gkfdk J`kfaudb gft jh`tkg Rhsskr, ahdhclstk``k fcl gfcl afk bhdzk Dhclt ðmkr aurcldásst hd ahsinnkdk Uk``kdnkdstkr. Fcl wf`` kfdk @udbkdkdtzðdaudb.Hmkr fcl jrfkbk dfclt gh` kfdkd Scldupnkd. Hg dácls-tkd Qhb stk``k fcl gfcl studakd`hdb dhcjt hd afk kfsjh`tk

Uk``kdwhda, ahgft fcl dfkrkdjrhdj wkrak, hmkr dfcltsphssfkrt. Fcl nrkssk kfd _hjkt Ufbhrkttkd, akd vkrbhg-gk`tkd Nfscl vig Gftthbksskd, akd fcl skft kfdkr Riclkhunmkwhlrk uda trfdjk gkfdk kfbkdk _fssk, ahgft fclNfkmkr jrfkbk. Ks bfmt jkfdkd Jdfnn, akd fcl dfclt hd-wkdak. [gsidst.

Kfdk Riclk spátkr krládbt sfcl akr h`tk ]hfdkr fd skf-dkr Uk``k rkclts udtkr gfr, Nrkuda Lkfd lht fld gftbk-diggkd.

Hd kfdkg si`clkd Irt krfddkrt ghd sfcl gft Ahdj-mhrjkft hd kfdk Gkdbk butkr uda wudakrmhrkr Afdbk5hd shdntk Ghfrkbkd, rhusclkdak Siggkrrkbkd, jðl`kd

Lkrmstgirbkdthu, hd zárt`fclkd Nrðl`fdbssiddkdsclkfduda b`kfÙkda lkfÙkd Siggkrmrhda, hd afk wkfÙ uda ri-shrit `kucltkdak M`ðtk uda hd akd rkfnkd, ritmrhudkdB`hdz akr Imstmáugk vir akr Krdtk uda zwfsclkdarfd hd



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h``ks Sclþdk uda Nrkuafbk, whs si kfd Ehlrks`hun gft-bkmrhclt lht.

_`þtz`fcl lþrk fcl ahs Bìcjkd`áutkd akr Jfrclk gkf-

dks Lkfghtairnks zur Gftthbszkft. Fcl rfkclk afk shumkrk@unt uda bklk fg Siddkdsclkfd akd Lðbk` lfdhun, ugakg @áutkd dálkr zu jiggkd. Ks j`fdbt si vkrtrhut, ksj`fdbt dhcl Lhrgidfk uda Bkmirbkdlkft. Ks j`fdbt dhclLkfght. Fcl sclrkfmk hd akd Bknádbdfspnhrrkr uda `hsskgfr kfdk Mfmk` mrfdbkd. Fcl nhstk dicl lártkr, trhfdfkrk

dicl sclwkrkr fd gkfdkg Jkrjkrìcl. Hmkr dfclt dur gkfdJþrpkr, sidakrd hucl gkfd Bkfst si`` zu kfdkr Rhnnk wkr-akd, uda si scl`hbk fcl afk Mfmk` hun, ug dhcl Hdtwirtkdzu suclkd. Fcl ̀ ksk zukrst akd Lfim, ahdd afk Bksclfcltkvig vkrìrkdkd Sild, ahdd wkftkr zu Sfrhcl5 Akr Gkdscllht vir sfcl @kmkd uda Qia: whs kr ahvid wf``, ahs wfra

flg bkbkmkd wkrakd … @kbk afr kfdkd Sclhtz vid Ril`-thtkd hd: akr wfra afcl krrkttkd hus h``kg [db`ðcj uda nðr afcl strkftkd bkbkd akfdkd Nkfda, mksskr h`s kfd sthr-jkr Sclfà iakr kfd sclwkrkr SpfkÙ … Afk BkfÙk` ghclt Strfkgkd, hmkr afk Uudbk zkrsclgkttkrt afk Jdiclkd …akdd vid Qrhukr jiggt akr Qia, uda afk Qrhurfbjkft aks

Lkrzkds sclwáclt afk Jrántk … M`kfmk mkf akg, whs akfdLkrz afr rát: akdd au wfrst jkfdkd mksskrkd ]htbkmkr

dakd … Au gusst afk Bksclfcltkd mkrðlgtkr @kutk

jkddkd uda ðmkr afk Sprðclk dhclakdjkd, whs sfk mk-akutkd uda ̀ klrkd … Kr aurclzfklt nrkgak @ádakr: akddkr krsuclt zu krnhlrkd, whs mkf akd Gkdsclkd But uda

Mþsk fst … Rkr Rkfslkft ̀ krdt, mrhuclt vfk` Ukft uda durwkr sidst dfclts zu tud lht, wfra Rkfslkft bkwfddkd.

Mkf Bitt, fcl lhm lfkr sidst dfclts zu tud uda wf`` afkRkfslkft kr`krdkd. Fcl mrhuclk gklr Mðclkr, hmkr dfclt



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afk Brisclkdrighdk hus akr Bknádbdfsmðclkrkf, gft ak-dkd sfcl zu vfk`k Jdhcjfs ahs Bklfrd krwkfclkd, nh``s sfkdfclt siwfksi akd bhdzkd Qhb fd afk Bìtzk bhnnkd uda

sfcl vig prfgftfvstkd [dtkrlh`tudbspribrhgg ahukr-mkrfksk`d ̀ hsskd, mfs sfk vþ``fb hmstugpnkd. Dkfd, fcl wf``rfcltfbk Mðclkr, fcl wf`` afk dkuk Gkafzfd stuafkrkd, fclwf`` Ghclfhvk``f, î`thfrk, ahs Ksshy ðmkr afk îrurtkf`k,Biktlk, Dfktzsclk, Lkssk, ahs _hdchthdtrh, F Bfdb, afkSclrfntkd Ghrtfd @utlkrs, Chgus usw. [da wálrkda fcl

gfr afk bhdzkd Sclrfntkd fds Bklfrd shubk, gþcltk fclgfcl ahzu vid Kaftl _fhn mksclh``kd `hsskd5 Did, ek dkrkbrkttk rfkd …

Fcl stk``k kfdkd Hdtrhb, gfr Mðclkr mkstk``kd zu aðrnkd.Akr Hdtrhb wfra hmbk`kldt uda fcl wkrak zurðcj hd afk

stupfak Bknádbdfsmðclkrkf gft h`` flrkg bklfrdkrwkf-clkdakd Sclwhclsfdd vkrwfkskd. Dhtðr`fcl bfmt ks hucljkfdk Gusfj vid Kaftl _fhn. Fcl mksclwkrk gfcl mfs lfdhunzug Imkr`hdaksbkrfclt, ug gfr gkfd fd akr ^krnhssudbdfkakrbksclrfkmkdks ]kclt hun Fdnirghtfidsnrkflkftkfdzuj`hbkd. ^krbkmkds ! Kfdk h`tk ritzfbk Bknádbdfs-

sizfh`hrmkftkrfd gft Þjishdah`kd hd flrkd láss`fclkdKdtkdnðÙkd bfmt gfr zu vkrstklkd5 —Rfr wi``kd udskrkBknhdbkdkd zur priaujtfvkd Hrmkft uda dfclt zug @kskdhdrkbkd.‐

Ahs lkfÙt, fcl si`` fd kfdkg akr Hrmkftsmktrfkmk hunakg Bknádbdfsbk`ádak hclt Studakd táb`fcl @hgpkdnhs-

sudbkd zushggkdsclrhumkd, ug mkf afkskg giditidkdSclhnnkd jigp`ktt zu vkrm`þakd, hdsthtt gkfdkd Bkfsthunzunrfsclkd, ug lfkr fd afkskr brhukd Mktidwðstk dfcltvi``kdas akd ^krsthda zu vkr`fkrkd.



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Fggkr mksftzkd afk Gkdsclkd dur si vfk` ^krdudnt, wfkBkfst`fcljkft uda Akspitfsgus fldkd ðmkr`hsskd: bklkdsfk kfdgh` ahrðmkr lfdhus, wkrakd sfk vig lfgg`fsclkd

Uird mkarilt iakr hun afkskr Rk`t bkstrhnt. Dfkgh`sjhdd afk fd kwfbkr Jfdalkft bklh`tkdk Gkdscllkft kfdkdSclrftt ildk Kfdwf``fbudb flrkr Nðlrkr tud: afksk mksclán-tfbkd sfk dur gft dutz`iskg Spfk`zkub iakr gft `kkrkdAriludbkd, ug fggkr ðmkr sfk bkmfktkd zu jþddkd. H``kafk, wk`clk flr wfkakr Gut bkmkd iakr flrk ̂ krdudnt hus-

mf`akd jþddtkd, lh`tkd sfk bkfsskdt`fcl nkrd. Rudakrdwfr uds h`si dfclt, ahss afk fg stádafbkd Jhgpn `fkbkdakwhlrk Girh` si wkdfb Nirtsclrfttk bkghclt lht: akdd afkGkdsclkd mkshÙkd fggkr dur afk Girh`, afk flrkd _rfks-tkrd uda Qyrhddkd phsstk. Sfk whr kfbkdsfddfb vkrádakr-`fcl uda wkclsk`da wfk flrk Fdtkrksskd uda @hudkd: nkstk

Brudasátzk whrkd flr nrkga, wkf` h``ks [dvkrádakr`fclkakr @hudk gfssná``t – sfk wf`` ekakd Hubkdm`fcj wkclsk`djþddkd. Afk Rkfslkft jiddtk sfcl jkfd Bklþr vkrsclhnnkd,wkf` sfk afk Fdtkrksskd akr afk Ghclt mksftzkdakd Mislkftzu mkjágpnkd lhttk. Afk Rhlrlkft wurak bknálr`fcl, wkf`sfk udtkr Lkrrkd, akrkd Lkrrsclhnt sfcl dur hun Gkfdudb

uda Mktrub stðtztk, innkdsfclt`fcl fds ̂ krakrmkd nðlrtk.Afk Girh` mkshÙ jkfdk krjkddmhrkd Qrfkmjrántk, sfk whrdfclt fgsthdak, @ild zu vkrbkmkd uda Strhnkd zu vkr-ládbkd, sfk lhttk dfclt afk Gþb`fcljkft, akd Gkdsclkdhg Lkrzkd `fkbkdak Afdbk zu vkrsclhnnkd, sfk wurak vidakd Nðrstkd uda akd BriÙkd dfclt mkhcltkt iakr vkrhcl-

tkt uda dur vid [dmkjhddtkd uda bklhsstkd Gáddkrdliclbksclátzt.

Rfr sklkd, ahss fd ekakg @hdak afk gkfstkd Gkd-sclkd dur fg Sfdd lhmkd, sfcl jfdafsclkd Ukftvkrtrkfm



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zu vkrsclhnnkd uda vid akdkd, afk sfk rkbfkrkd, wfkJfdakr mklhdak`t wkrakd. Rkdd afk Nðrstkd Mkbhmud-bkd nþrakrd, ahdd bkwþld`fcl dur si`clk, afk sfcl gft

Dfcltfbjkftkd uda nðr afk Bksk``sclhnt mk`hdb`iskd Afd-bkd mksclántfbkd. Rkdd Akspitkd gftudtkr `ftkrhrfsclkBksk``sclhntkd brðdaktkd uda aitfkrtkd, ahdd h``kfd,ug Sj`hvkd zu mksftzkd, afk flrkr Kftk`jkft lu`afbtkd.Afksk Bksk``sclhntkd lhttkd jkfdk Nrkflkft, sfk wurakdvfk`gklr fd stádafbkr Hmládbfbjkft bklh`tkd. Afk Rhl`

akr Gftb`fkakr afkskr —Hjhakgfkd‐ wurak bkwþld`fcl vidakr Budst afjtfkrt. Afk nðr akd Nirtsclrftt aks Bkfstks siditwkdafbk Akdjnrkflkft wurak hus fldkd vkrmhddt. Gft-tk`gáÙfbk Qh`kdtk uda udtkrwðrbk Dhturkd krlfk`tkdafk gkfstkd Stfggkd uda wkdd hucl akr Kfdzk`dk dðtz-`fclk uda b`ádzkdak Rkrjk sclun, si mrhcltk afk bhdzk

Jþrpkrsclhnt dfclts zuwkbk, wkf` afk gkfstkd bkgkfdkuda jrfkclkrfsclk Dhturkd whrkd.

Ahss afksk Qitkdvþbk` ðmkr gfr jrkfskd, jhdd fcl lfkrdfclt ádakrd, ahss sfk sfcl hmkr kfd Dkst hun gkfdkg Jipnmhukd, jhdd sklr wil` vkrlfdakrt wkrakd !

Akr pritksthdtfsclk Bknádbdfspnhrrkr lht Krmhrgkd udamrfdbt gfr h``k Mðclkr, afk fcl mkdþtfbk, ug gkfd Stuafugzu mkbfddkd, bkbkd h``k Rfakrstádak akr Ghsclfdk udaflrkr Jdkcltk, afk gfcl lfkr fd Jkttkd bk`kbt zu kfdkgGhsskdpriaujt kfdsthdzkd wi``kd. Kr mrfdbt gfr sibhrgkfdk bk`fkmtk Kaftl _fhn fd gkfdk Uk``k. Fcl nhdbk hd zu

thdzkd uda nðr kfdkd Hubkdm`fcj mfd fcl nrkf, akdd nrkffst, wkr fd Jkttkd thdzkd jhdd.

Kfd h`tkr Murk, akr h``kfd hun skfdkr Nhrg fg Swhrt`hdafd akr sðahnrfjhdfsclkd Rkstjhp-_rivfdz `kmtk, shbtk



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kfdgh` zu gfr5 —Rkr Mðclkr lht, fst dfkgh`s h``kfd.‐ Rfkrkclt kr aicl lht !

Afk Rhlrlkft nádbt hd sk`mst gfr zu sclgkrzkd uda ahs

@kmkd wfra kfdgh` gklr zu kfdkr Xuh`, kfdkr udkda`fclsclkfdkdakd Xuh`, hmkr akr Qia fst dur kfd jurzkr Hubkd-m`fcj akr Hdbst. Rfkakr hldtk fcl, ahss fcl dhcl gkfdkrKdt`hssudb dicl `hdbk dfclt nrkf skfd wkrak.

Rkrak fcl Sk`mstgira mkbklkd 9 Dkfd ! Ks bfmt dicl zuvfk`, whs fcl fg @kmkd ghclkd wf``. Fcl wkrak zu NuÙ afk

Hdakd ðmkrqukrkd, fg Aribkdrhuscl fd Dkuskk`hda gftGhirfs thdzkd, aurcl afk SclkfÙk aks Bhdbks sclwfggkd,ug hg hdakrkd Kdak shumkr wfkakr lkrhuszujiggkd, fclwkrak kfdk bhdzk Riclk gft eðafsclkd Stuakdtkd fd Qk`Hvfv aurclnkfkrd, fcl wkrak akg pi`fijrhdjkd Gáaclkd,ahs gft vkrjrðppk`tkd Mkfdkd uda akg Kdbk`sbksfclt fg

Arkcj hun akd StrhÙkd fd Ahrkssh`hg sftzt, kfdkd ]i``-stul` jhunkd, akd Jlhd Qkdbrf mkstkfbkd, kfdgh` aurclCftæ Si`kf` sphzfkrkd uda fcl wkrak ahs Gkkr hd akr K`-nkdmkfdjðstk hunsuclkd, ug zu sklkd, im fcl airt dak,whs gfr fg Qrhug krsclfkdkd fst …

Akddicl mfd fcl kfd Sk`mstgþrakr. Lfkr guss bkshbt

wkrakd, ahss ks nh`scl fst, wkdd ghd dur ekdk GkdsclkdSk`mstgþrakr dkddt, wk`clk sfcl wfrj`fcl ugmrfdbkd.[dtkr afkskd sfda sibhr vfk`k, afk dur bkwfsskrghÙkd husUunh`` Sk`mstgþrakr wkrakd, zu akrkd Rkskd ahs Sk`mst-gþrakrtug dfclt ditwkdafb bklþrt. [dtkr akd Gkdsclkdildk _krsþd`fcljkft, ildk sthrjk _rábudb, ildk sthrjks

Sclfcjsh`, udtkr akd Autzkda- uda Lkrakdgkdsclkdsfda ghdclk, afk aurcl Sk`mstgira ugjiggkd, ildkahrug fd flrkr bhdzkd Sfbdhtur uda _rábudb akg Qypusakr Sk`mstgþrakr hdzubklþrkd, wálrkda wfkakrug vid



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ekdkd, wk`clk akg Rkskd dhcl zu akd Sk`mstgþrakrdzál`kd, sklr vfk`k, vfk``kfclt afk gkfstkd, dfkgh`s tht-sácl`fcl Lhda hd sfcl `kbkd. Akr —Sk`mstgþrakr‐ – uda

fcl mfd kfdkr – mrhuclt dfclt ditwkdafb fd kfdkg mksid-akrs sthrjkd ^krlá`tdfs zug Qiak zu `kmkd – afks jhddghd tud, hucl ildk Sk`mstgþrakr zu skfd.

Rfk ekak Jrhnt hucl zu kfdkr Sclwáclk wkrakd jhdd, sijhdd ugbkjklrt akr typfsclk Sk`mstgþrakr hus skfdkr

hdsclkfdkdakd Sclwáclk int kfdk Jrhnt uda Stðtzk gh-clkd. Rfk thuskdak vid gkfdksb`kfclkd ghclk fcl husakr îrstk`ùdb, ahss gfr zu ekakr Studak akr Rkb fd akdQia innkdstklt, dfclt mìÙ kfd eubkda`fcl-gk`hdcli`f-sclks _lhdthsfkspfk`, sidakrd mhuk gfr hus kmkd afkskdBkahdjkd kfdkd Qrist uda kfdk Stðtzk. Afk ^krtrhutlkft

gft akg Bkahdjkd, ahss ekdkr Dithusbhdb mkstádafbinnkdstklt, bfmt gfr Jrhnt, ghclt gfcl dkubfkrfb hunahs Husjistkd vid Sclgkrzkd uda ðm`kd Uustádakd udawkdd ks gfr rkclt k`kda bklt, jhdd fcl zuwkf`kd gft brfg-gfbkr Nrkuak kfdk Hrt Sclhakdnrkuak kgpdakd. Fcl mfdaicl dkubfkrfb zu sklkd, wfk vfk` kfbkdt`fcl kfd Gkdscl

huszulh`tkd vkrghb ! Fst afk Brkdzk aks dicl Krtráb`f-clkd krrkfclt, ahdd mrhuclk fcl eh mìÙ afk Qðr zu þnndkduda mfd kdtriddkd. Hus afkskd Bkahdjkd kdtstklkd gfrudbklkurk Jrántk. Si bkrd fcl gfcl int hucl hus`þsclkdgþcltk, ug zug Hdnhdb zurðcjzujklrkd, fcl jhdd ksdfclt, akdd ks wðrak mkakutkd, gfcl hd gkfdkr Guttkr

zu vkrsðdafbkd. H`si bklt akr Ri`n wkftkr uda mkbdðbtsfcl gft skfdkd Bkahdjkd.

Fcl jþddtk ðmkr afk Uushggkdládbk uda [rsh-clkd gkfdks @kfakds, gkfdkr Skk`kdjrhdjlkft, gkfdkr



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^krlkxtlkft uda Dkurisk afk j`ðbstkd uda kfdsfcltsvi``s-tkd Shclkd sclrkfmkd, afk Gkclhdfj fst gfr aurclsfcltfb.Hmkr dfclt Rfsskd uda ^krstklkd fst ks, whs gfr dittut,

widhcl fcl gfcl si vkrzwkfnk`t skldk, sidakrd Kr`kmkd,Kdtsclkfaudb, StiÙ uda Sprudb.

Dicl kfdgh` mrfclt kfd [dwkttkr ðmkr gfcl lkrkfd,afksgh` fst ks gkfdk Nrhu, afk fcl Ehlrk spátkr fd Qhdsh-dfh bklkfrhtkt lhttk, afk gfr dud fg Sirbkrkcltsstrkftug udskrkd Sild uda fg ̀ hunkdakd Sclkfaudbsvkrnhlrkd

akd StiÙ zug Sprudb vkrphsskd wf``, ug gfr h``k jðdn-tfbkd Kdtsclkfaudbkd zu krsphrkd, uda gfr kfd Kr`kmdfsakr Kxtrhj`hssk hunzwfdbt. Dhcl udzál`fbkd Krprks-sudbsvkrsuclkd, ug hd gkfd Bk`a zu jiggkd, ahs sfk`ádbst vkrprhsst lht, zkfbt sfk gfcl hd, fcl láttk kfdk8=-Eálrfbk vkrnðlrt. Ahs —Ipnkr‐ fst kfd Gáaclkd hus ud-

skrkg bkgkfdshgkd Mkjhddtkdjrkfs. Rhs ni`bt, fst kfdwfakr`fclks Sclgfkrkdtlkhtkr, ah afk lhhrstráumkdakBksclfcltk si wfrr fst, vkrsuclt afk Ghsclfdk afksgh` krstbhr dfclt sfk hunzum`hskd. Afk Hdj`hbk mrþcjk`t stðda-`fcl uda wfra zu kfdkr kfdzfbkd _kfd`fcljkft, hg gkfs-tkd nðr afk Lkxk, afk sfcl lkutk gkfdk Kxnrhu sclfgpnkd

ahrn. Ahs kfdzfbk Bkstádadfs, ahs fg Bkrfclt zusthdakjiggt, fst ahs aks Gáaclkds, h`s ks mkrfcltkt, vid gkf-dkr Kxnrhu =; Sf`mkr`fdbk mkjiggkd zu lhmkd, ug gfclgft Sclgutz zu mkwkrnkd … Ks tátk flr nurcltmhr `kfabk`ibkd zu lhmkd. Ahgft fst akr _rizkss zu Kdak, akd-dicl sfda sfcl afk Bþtzkdhdmktkr akr Ghsclfdk dkridfscl

fd flrkr Imskssfid kfdfb, ahss fcl ahs Gáaclkd gft Sf-clkrlkft —frbkdawhdd, frbkdawi, frbkdawfk‐ gft gkfdkdQhtzkd zugfdakst kfdgh` mkbrhmsclt lhmkd guss. Ahnðrbfmt ks zwkf Gidhtk Bknádbdfs hun arkf Ehlrk Mkwálrudb.



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Rhs nðr kfd Sclhuspfk`. Hdsthtt sfcl zu sclágkd, tþdtafk ]fcltkrfd gfr gft flrkg bráu`fclkd ]hmkdbkjráclzkdicl lfdtkrlkr5 —Rfr wkrakd Sfk fg Hubk mklh`tkd.‐ H`s

im fcl ahs dfclt wðsstk, lht sfk gfcl aicl bkrhak gftflrkr ]kcltsvkrhcltudb nðr arkf wkftkrk Ehlrk hd afk

Ghsclfdk bkjkttkt ! Akddicl krwfkskd gfr afk Ahgkd

uda Lkrrkd kfdkd ]fttkrafkdst, akdd fcl `krdtk, si

augg sfda ahdd aicl wfkakr wkdfbk, ahss sfk dfclt

pùgpk Fdtrfbkd fd Szkdk sktzkd jþddkd.

Mkf kucl, flr Lkrrd, jhdd ghd ahs Rkskd

bkwþld`fcl hus akg Dhgkd `kskd,

wi ks h``zu akut`fcl wkfst,

wkdd ghd kucl N`fkbkdbitt, ^krakrmkr, @ðbdkr lkfÙt.

Biktlk

Kfd Rkftkrks lht gfcl afk Ghsclfdk bk`klrt. Sfclkr mfdfcl fggkr dur ahdd, wkdd fcl fg Hus`hda `kmk. Ghd lhtgfcl ahvidbkehbt, ahvidbkkjk`t. Rkdfbstkds jitzt gfclafk Ghsclfdk hus, wkf` fcl flr udvkrahu`fcl mfd, uda nrfsst

gfcl dfclt vi``kdas !Kurk Eustftfh scl`ánt hmkr dfclt uda sclðttk`t sfcl wfk

kfdk Uhumkrjðdst`krfd dkuk ^krnhlrkd hus akg Árgk`.Ah jiggt sfk gft kfdkg ^krnhlrkd wkbkd udkr`humtkdRhnnkdmksftzks, lfkr gft kfdkg ^krnhlrkd wkbkd î`js-vkrlktzudb uda si bklt ahs fggkr wkftkr. Rkdd fcl

ahdd vid gkfdkd ]kfskd zurðcjjiggk, wkrakd gfr afkdkukd Ðmkrrhscludbkd vid kfdkg ]uak` udfnirgfkrtkrMùtludak sclid hg Nùblhnkd bhdz bfkrfb práskdtfkrt.Fcl lh`tk gkfdkd _hss lfd uda jhdd hdlhda gkfdkr ̂ fsh-



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Stkgpk` mkwkfskd, ahss fcl gfcl zur mkshbtkd Ukft, zuakr fcl afk wðstk Qht sclid wfkakr mkbhdbkd lhmkd si``,bhr dfclt fg @hda hunbklh`tkd lhmk. Ghd ̀ ásst gfcl ahdd

záldkjdfrsclkda bklkd. Kfdgh` bhr wi``tk gfr afk Gh-sclfdk kfdrkakd, fcl láttk ahs Brhm Lkfdz Bh`fdsjfs fdafk @unt bksprkdbt. Uug B`ðcj shÙ fcl zur Ukft, h`s afkskrHdscl`hb phssfkrtk, bkrhak fg Mhucl akr Ghsclfdk – fgEubkdajdhst – sidst wárk fcl ahnðr hucl dicl hun afkStrkcjmhdj bk`kbt uda vkrurtkf`t wirakd. Si hmkr gusstk

ghd ahs Lfrdbkspfdst wfkakr vkrbksskd.Gáddkr vid ]hdb jþddkd jkfd bkrulshgks @kmkd nðl-

rkd, sk`mst wkdd sfk ks wfrj`fcl wi``tkd uda jkfdk klr-bkfzfbkd _`ádk lkbtkd, akdd ghd wðrak ks fldkd dfcltb`humkd.

Dkfd, fcl mkjágpnk afk Ghsclfdk sclid `hdbk dfclt

gklr gft akg Sclwkrt, fcl mkdutzk kfdkd Stfnt, akr fstmksskr h`s kfd Sclwkrt. Qritzakg lh`tk fcl ahs Sclwkrtmkrkft, nh``s akr Stfnt vkrshbt. Akdd gkfdk Krnhlrudbshbt gfr, ks lht jkfdkd Sfdd, frbkdaktwhs Gkdscl`fclkszu akdjkd, zu shbkd, zu sclrkfmkd, ks lht jkfdkd Sfdd,butk Bkahdjkd fd skfdkg Jipn zu mkwkbkd – hun zwkf,

arkf Gkdsclkd, wk`clk ahs tud, jiggkd Qhb nðr Qhb thu-skda Ukftudbkd, Ukftsclrfntkd, ]kakd, þnnkdt`fclk udabklkfgk Sftzudbkd, afk h``k ahs Bkbkdtkf` hdstrkmkd udahucl krrkfclkd … Ahbkbkd hdzujágpnkd wárk kfdk linn-dudbs`isk Aidqufclittkrfk.

Afk Nkfdak, afk mkarilkd gfcl,ahs gklrt vid Qhb zu Qhbk sfcl:

wfk gfr aicl bhr dfclt brhut !

Ahs skl fcl h``ks udmkwkbt,



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sfk zkrrkd hd akr Scl`hdbkdlhut,

afk eðdbst fcl hmbk`kbt.

[da fst afk dáclstk rkfn bkdub,

hm strkfn fcl afk sib`kfcluda whda`k dkumk`kmt uda eudb

fg nrfsclkd Bþttkrrkfcl.

Nrfkarfcl Dfktzsclk

Sfklk ah, ahs Qir sclwfdbt wkft hun, bfmt akd M`fcj nrkfuda ahs fst afk Nrkflkft iakr zugfdakst, whs wfr Nrkflkftdkddkd. Fd ekakg Nh`` hmkr afk StrhÙk, afk vid lfkr dhclðmkrh`` nðlrkd jhdd, arðmkd kfd Lðbk`, vfk`k j`kfdk Láu-skr ahrhun, wfk Spfk`zkub, afk Máugk, fd Bruppkd mkf-kfdhdakrstklkda, wfk vkrshggk`t zu kfdkg krstkd Bk-

sprácl. Fcl shl afk krstkd Hutis virðmkrlusclkd, shl,wfk afk Gkdsclkd bfdbkd, ahss sfk bkdhu wusstkd, wilfdsfk bklkd wi``tkd. Fcl shl zwkf Gáaclkd stklkd, shl flr@áclk`d, nðl`tk gfcl dicl dfclt zubk`hsskd, whr sclid`ádbst aurcl ahs Qir lfdaurcl, lhttk dicl fggkr ahs Bk-nðl`, aurcl kfd Qir zu bklkd.

Ektzt nðl`tk fcl gfcl mkrkft, kfdk wkftkrk Rkbstrkcjkfd gkfdkg @kmkd bklkd zu jþddkd, lhttk ekaicl dicljkfdk ̂ irstk``udb ahvid, whr vid dfkghdakg ahrhun vir-mkrkftkt wirakd. Fcl kgpnhda gkfd Qkrgfdkdak afksgh`h`s kfdk briÙk Bdhak, arkltk gfcl dfclt dicl kfdgh` ug,

ektzt dhcl skclskfdlh`m Ehlrkd. Fcl sclðttk`tk ahs h``ks

hm wfk Rhsskrtripnkd5 afk Bksfcltkr, afk gfr gfssk`kd,afk gfcl bkquá`t lhttkd, afk Jigghdais, afk Kdbk, ahsBrhukd, afk Dit gkfdkr Ehlrk, afk mkkcjtkd Dácltk, h`-`ks, whs gkfdk Bknhdbkdsclhnt husbkghclt lhttk.



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Fg Bknádbdfs wurak gkfd Dhgkdssclf`a vid akr Qðrbkdiggkd uda fd akd _hpfkrjirm bkwirnkd. Kfdfbk Bk-nhdbkdk, afk gfcl bkjhddt lhttkd, shbtkd vid gfr5 —Ektzt

fst kr udtkrwkbs. Ri wfra kr ektzt skfd 9 ^fk``kfclt wfrakr ksskd, vfk``kfclt trfdjt kr dhcl akr Qirtur fg Jkrjkr

ektzt Clhgphbdkr wfk kfd Nðrst. Fd ekakg Nh`` fst kr ektztwfkakr fd N`ubzkubkd uda hun ]kfskd udtkrwkbs.‐

Dkfd, fcl trhdj jkfdkd Clhgphbdkr, fcl hÙ hucl dfcltuda wálrkda gkfdk klkgh`fbkd Gftlánt`fdbk dicl ̀ hdbk

plhdthsfkrtkd, kdtakcjtk fcl hun akr dáclstkd Rkbstrk-cjk afk Fghbfdhtfid. Gkfdk Nrkudak, `hsst gfcl kuclshbkd, afk Fghbfdhtfid fst afk sclþpnkrfsclk Jrhnt, afk_lhdthsfk, hmkr dfclt Fghbfdhtfid, sidakrd afk Brkdzkzug Rhldsfdd. Rkr gft Fghbfdhtfid bkmirkd fst iakr wkrsfk dakt, mksftzt afk ̀ htkdtkd Jrántk akr Dhtur. Afk Fgh-

bfdhtfid `kmt fg vi``jiggkdkd Bkfst, wálrkda afk _lhd-thsfk dur fg Jþrpkr ildk vi``jiggkdkd Bkfst virjiggt.Afk Fghbfdhtfid bklt h``kg virhus, kfdk kdtsclkfakdakFghbfdhtfid jhdd h``ks vkrwfrj`fclkd.



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gh` Rirtkd, sidakrd dur M`fcjkd, uda afksk shbkd gklr,h`s thuskda Rirtk ks huszuarðcjkd vkrgþbkd.

Uug Mktt`kr lhmk fcl ahbkbkd kfd bksph`tkdks ^kr-

lá`tdfs, whs fd gkfdkg bk`fkmt-bklhsstkd Hnrfjh zu skf-dkr lþclstkd Husprábudb jhg. Fcl krfddkrk gfcl dicl hdgkfdk krstkd ]kfskd aurcl ahs sða`fclk Hnrfjh. Gft jfda`f-clkr Dhfvftát bkdiss fcl afk Nrkuda`fcljkft akr Hnrfjhdkr.Hucl lfk`t fcl gfcl nðr ktwhs bhdz Mksidakrks, akdd ekakrwi``tk gkfd Nrkuda skfd, ekak Nrhu, afk gfr bkk`, ni`btk gfr

ildk Rkdd uda Hmkr, ug gfr ahs zu bkmkd, widhcl gfr afk@ust vkr`hdbtk, ks gðsskd ludakrtk bkwkskd skfd ! Ekakrsucltk Jidthjt zu gfr uda lhttk kfd nrkuda`fclks Rirt.

Ks ahukrtk kfd Ehlr fd Hnrfjh, ug gfcl hunzuwkcjkd husgkfdkr Qrhugtádzkrkf, uda si rfcltfb wurak gfr spátkr fdIsthnrfjh mkwusst, whs afk Hnrfjhdkr fd gfr shlkd.

Ks bfmt afk h`tk Rkfslkft5 Dfkghda krwkfst kfdkg hd-akrkd Gkdsclkd kfdkd Bknh``kd, ks skf akdd hus Nurclt,Lhmsuclt iakr kfdkg hdakrkd sk`mstsðcltfbkd Bruda. Righd ildk krjkddmhrkd Bruda ðmkrgáÙfb ]ðcjsfclt udaNrkuda`fcljkft mkbkbdkt, lkbk ghd sib`kfcl Sirbk, ahssks hg Kdak scl`fgg krbklt.

Fd Suhlk`f lhmkd afk Hnrfjhdkr kfd Rirt nðr akd wkfÙkdGhdd. Sfk dkddkd afcl Gzudbu.

Hun gkfdkr ]kfsk aurcl Qhdshdfh `krdtk fcl Hdarkwjkddkd, kfdkd =<-eálrfbkd Sclwhrzkd hus Ahrkssh`hg.Kfdgh` trhn fcl fld, h`s kr gfr nrkuakstrhl`kda mkrfcltktk,ahss kr lkutk hucl gh` kfd Gzudbu skf. Fcl nrhbtk fld, wfk

ahs akdd gþb`fcl wárk, ah kr aicl bhr dfclt wkfÙ fst. Hd-arkw hdtwirtktk, kfd Gzudbu guss dfclt udmkafdbt wkfÙskfd, kfd Gzudbu fst ekghda, akr afk Qhsclkd vi``kr Bk`alht … hun but Akutscl —kfd Bk`ashcj‐ ! Ghd lhttk gfcl



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mkrkfts thuskdagh` Gzudbu bkdhddt uda ghd si``tk gfclhucl dfclt ahs `ktztk Gh` fd Hnrfjh Gzudbu bkrunkd lh-mkd. Hdarkw vkrsinn uda vkrlurtk skfd Bkà, ahs kr aurcl

frbkdawk`clk Bhdbstkrkfkd zusthdak mrhcltk, fddkrlh`mkfdkr Dhclt, ug gfcl hg dáclstkd Qhb j`kfd`hut dhcl kfdphhr _nkddfbkd hdzumkttk`d, wkf` kr vir ̀ hutkr Nkfkrd vkr-bksskd lhttk, ktwhs fd @kmkdsgfttk` zu fdvkstfkrkd udaflg dud wfkakr akr Ghbkd jdurrtk.

Dhclakg fcl zuvir aurcl zhl`rkfclk hnrfjhdfsclk @ád-

akr bkrkfst uda dud gftt`krwkf`k jdhpp 8< Gidhtk hunafkskg Jidtfdkdt lkrugbkpf`bkrt whr, jhdd fcl dfcltkfdgh` gklr zál`kd, wfk int fcl táb`fcl Gzudbu bkrunkduda ug Bkà hdbkmkttk`t wurak. Afk `htkdtk Rut, afksfcl fd afkskr Ukft hdbksthut lhttk, ahss ghd dfclt h`sGkdscl, sidakrd h`s whdak`dak Ai``hrditk iakr kmkd h`s

Bkàshcj whlrbkdiggkd wurak, mrhcl hd afkskg Qhb husuda Hdarkw mkjhg stk``vkrtrktkda nðr bhdz Sclwhrzhn-rfjh gkfdkd hdbksthutkd Uird zu lþrkd. Fcl sclrfk fld hd5—Bittvkrahggt, fcl mfd Hus`ádakr ! Ildk ]kclt, gfcl fdakfdk Hdbk`kbkdlkftkd kfdzugfsclkd. Fcl jþddtk ks bhrdfclt. Fcl mfd dfclt dhcl Hnrfjh bkjiggkd, ug Gf``fidkd

zu nðttkrd. Rkdd kucl dfclts fd afk husbkstrkcjtk Lhdabk`kbt wfra, fd afk hrmkftswf``fbk, whs fcl bkrd b`humk –zug Qkunk`, vkrsuclt aicl kda`fcl, afksk Lhda zur Nhustzu mh``kd ! Scl`hbt sfk akdkd fds Bksfclt, afk hd kurkgLudbkr Scluà sfda. Fst ahs si sclwkr lkrhuszudakd 9H``k Ludbkrdakd Hnrfjhs, wk`cl kfdk Hrgkk ! Fcl wf`` afr

shbkd, whs fcl vid akfdkg Nhth`fsgus lh`tk, akr afr bk-rhak dicl afk Kdkrbfk zug Mkttk`d `ásst5 Fcl jhdd ahsh``ks dfclt gklr krtrhbkd ! ]ðlrkdak iakr hucl kfdnhcldur pùgpk Bksclfcltkd, afk stkts hd afk nh`sclk Harkssk



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jiggkd. Rkdakt kucl vkrahggt dicl gh` hd afk ]fcl-tfbkd. Rhrug mkttk`t flr dfclt mkf kurkg Mðrbkrgkfstkr,mkf kurkd Gfdfstkrd uda Sthggksimkrláuptkrd, afk kurk

]kcltk vkrtrktkd 9 Iakr vir akg Sthatphr`hgkdt 9 Flrghclt ks kucl h``kshgt mkqukg. Sfkl, whs rkclts uda`fdjs hun akg _hstkr scl`ánt 9 Rkdd afk Sclrfttk lþrkd,lh`tkd sfk dicl fg Scl`hn afk Jidskrvkdmðclsk lfd, ahsDklgkd fst fldkd zur Bkstk sibhr fg [dmkwusstkd bk-wirakd, wfk akd Jfdakrd flr ―Gzudbu bfvk gk gidky“ vid

akd @fppkd bklt, simhà kfd Nrkgakr fds M`fcjnkà bkrát.Dfclts wkrak fcl afr lkutk bkmkd huÙkr kfdkd butkd ]ht5Rkcjk afk Scl`ánkr hun ! Au mfst eudb, jrántfb uda whs fgJipn lhst au hucl ! Hbftfkrk ! ^krsclwkdak jkfdk Ukftgklr hd @kutk, afk afr dfclt lk`nkd jþddkd.‐

Fcl ̀ hssk fld stklkd, bklk kfdk StrhÙk wkftkr uda bkmk

akr mkttk`dakd Guttkr gft flrkg Jfda, afk ah hg Rkbks-rhda jhukrt, ahs Bkà, wk`clks Hdarkw vid gfr vkr`hdbtk.Eh, ahs Sðdakdrkbfstkr fst kfdk innkdk ]kcldudb, afk duraurcl butk Qhtkd bktf`bt wkrakd jhdd.

Ghd jhdd dfclt fggkr pi`ftfscl jirrkjt skfd, wkddghd hussprfclt, whs ghd wfrj`fcl akdjt. Fcl ghb eh vfk-

`ks skfd, hmkr kfd Lkucl`kr mfd fcl dfclt ! Rhrug zfkltks gfcl fggkr wfkakr dhcl Hnrfjh, whs fst ks, ahs fcl nðrafkskd sclkfdmhr bittvkr`hsskdkd Jidtfdkdt kgpdak ! 9Gkfd Hnrfjh5 afk _i`fi- uda @kprhjrhdjkd, afk Lurkd, ahsGáaclkd gft akd vkrjrðppk`tkd Mkfdkd uda akg Kdbk`s-bksfclt, afk Stkfdfbudbkd vid Afkmkd, ahs ^krmrkddkd

vid Lkxkd, akr B`humk hd Aágidkd uda sclwhrzk Ghbfk,afk Gkdsclkd, afk zu ludakrtkd fd akd Dácltkd hun akdMirastkfdkd scl`hnkd, afk Jfdakr fg H`jili`- uda Aribkd-rhuscl, afk Jirruptfid, afk Bksktzìsfbjkft, afk Rf``jðr,



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akr Ludbkr, afk Jrfkbk. Afk vig Jrfkb ^krstðggk`tkd,akdkd Ládak, Ilrkd, @fppkd, bhr afk Dhskd hmbkscldft-tkd wurakd. Afk Rhfskd, afk Jrhdjlkftkd, akr Dkfa, afk

Mruth`ftát, akr rðcjsfcltsìsk Kbifsgus, gft akg sfcl ek-akr aurclscl`ábt. Ks bfmt lfkr jkfdk Linndudb, shbkd gfrafk Mkwildkr afksks Jidtfdkdts, akddicl thdzkd udankfkrd sfk, whdd fggkr sfcl fldkd kfdk Bk`kbkdlkft mfk-tkt. Hnrfjh – kfd Irt ildk Linndudb, uda whlrsclkfd`fclfst ks bkrhak afksk Linndudbsìsfbjkft, afk gfcl fggkr

wfkakr wfk kfd Ghbdkt airtlfd zfklt. Kfdk Linndudbsì-sfbjkft, gft akr fcl gfcl fakdtfzfkrkd jhdd !

Fcl akdjk hd akd Afkm, akr fd akd StrhÙkd Jfbighsvid kfdkr wðtkdakd Gkdsclkdgkdbk bkstkfdfbt wurak,mùtfbk Mhtzkd qui``kd hus skfdkg Scláak`, akd ghd zugSclùss gft Mkdzfd ðmkrbiss uda hdzðdaktk. Rkdd au

kfdgh` bksklkd lhst, wfk kfd Gkdscl stfrmt, ahdd vkr-ádakrt afcl ahs nðr fggkr.

Fcl `fkmk Hnrfjh, hmkr fcl ghb ks dfclt. Hnrfjh fst wfkkfd sclþdks, ̀ kfakdsclhnt`fclks, wfàks Gáaclkd hun Lk-rifd, sfk sclwkmt wfk kfd Arhclkd uda akdjt, sfk fst hunakg Bfpnk` akr Rk`t. Sfk gkrjt dfclt, ahss sfk fg Stkrmkd

`fkbt, sk`mst wkdd au flr afk Kfdstfclk zkfbst.Ektzt lhmk fcl hucl dicl kfdk Hnnárk gft @ktiyh Qhyìr,

akr eðdbstkd Qicltkr vid Clhr`ks.

Gft Sclrkcjkd uda Kdtzðcjkd nðl`k fcl, wfk vi`` vid Mf`-akrd gkfdk Skk`k fst, wfk afks `hdbk Rhdakrd aurcl ahs

Dfkghdas`hda gfcl gft Nfburkd vi``bksclrfkmkd lht.Fcl akdjk hd gkfdkd Nrkuda @iddfk Khr` Eildsid, akr

fg tkxhdfsclkd @fvfdbstid fg Qiakstrhjt akr Lhnthdsth`t_iùdsjy [dft hun skfdk Lfdrfcltudb whrtktk.



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Rfr wurakd Mrfknnrkudak zwkf Ehlrk virlkr, h`s fclsk`mst dicl fg Jdhst whr. Ks ghb hmhrtfb j`fdbkd, hmkrskfd [db`ðcj mkrulfbtk gfcl, fggkr wkdd ks gfr sk`mst

fg Jdhst ludakk`kda bfdb. Fcl ahcltk ahdd fggkr, akr@iddfk jiggt dfk gklr hus akg Bknádbdfs uda whrtktdicl Bitt wkfÙ wfk `hdbk, mfs kr skfd Kxkjutfidsahtugzubkstk``t mkjiggt. Akd ]kst skfdks @kmkds vkrmrfdbtkr fg Qiakstrhjt, wi flg hg Kdak afk Lfdrfcltudb aurclafk Bfntsprftzk krwhrtkt. Fcl stk``tk gfr vir, wfk fcl gfcl

fd skfdkr Lhut nðl`kd wðrak. Shl afk _rftsclk, hun afkghd gfcl scldh``kd wfra, ug ahdd vfk``kfclt wfk QiijfkRf``fhgs kfdkd 1?-gfdðtfbkd Qiaksjhgpn gft akg Bfnt,ahs gfr akr Lkdjkr fd afk ^kdkd sprftzt, zu nðlrkd. FclwkfÙ dfclt whrug, hmkr fcl lþrk hun zu htgkd, ug zuprimfkrkd, wfk `hdb fcl afk @unt hdlh`tkd jhdd. Dhcl kf-

dkr Gfdutk akdjk fcl mkrkfts, ahss gfr akr Scláak` p`htztuda kfdk udb`hum`fclk _hdfj ghclt sfcl fd ekakg Rfdjk`gkfdks Jþrpkrs mrkft. Fcl sclwftzk jh`tkd SclwkfÙ hush``kd gkfdkd _irkd uda h`s fcl, wfk fd Qiakshdbst krstf-cjkd zu gðsskd, wfà hdnhdbk dhcl @unt zu scldhppkd, fstgfr, h`s gðsstk fcl gfcl ðmkr afk bhdzk Uk``k krmrkclkd.

1? Gfdutkd, kfdk `hdbk Ukft jhdd ahs skfd !Fcl jklrk wfkakr fd gkfdkd Jþrpkr zurðcj uda mfd

nril, akdd fcl wkfÙ, gkfd @kfa fst dfclts fg ^krb`kfcl zuakg, whs @iddfk aurclghclkd guss. Fcl wkrak hus akgJdhst mhà kdt`hsskd wkrakd, kfd wkftkrks Ehlr, whs fstahs sclid, ahdd wkrak fcl nrkf skfd. Fcl si``tk gfcl whs

sclágkd, ðmkrlhupt krst zu `hgkdtfkrkd.H`s fcl kfdks Dhclts fd gkfdkr Uk``k wfkakr kfdk Ak-

prkssfid kr`kfak, sclrkfmk fcl flg, ahss fcl fld mksuclkdwkrak, simhà fcl lfkr rhus mfd. Hg dáclstkd Qhb bklt



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ks gfr wfkakr mksskr uda fcl mkrkuk mkrkfts, ahss fcl fg]huscl gkfdkr Akprkssfid afksks ^krsprkclkd bhm. Fclwf`` aicl si scldk`` wfk gþb`fcl wfkakr dhcl Hnrfjh. Rhs

zug Qkunk` lht gfcl dur wfkakr bkrfttkd, ektzt guss fclhucl dicl dhcl Qkxhs. îr ekakr Sthhtsbrkdzk fddkrlh`makr [SH fst kfd Sclfà hdbkmrhclt, hun akg zug Mkfspfk`stklt5 —Rk`cigk ti Ch`fnirdfh‐, —Rk`cigk ti Ilfi‐, —Rk`-cigk ti Nìrfah‐ usw. Sibhr fd H`hmhgh uda Gfssfssfppfmfst au —Rk`cigk‐ ! Dfclt hmkr hd akr tkxhdfsclkd Sthhts-

brkdzk, akdd ah stklt kfdnhcl dur mkaril`fcl bksclrfk-mkd5 —Aid‖t gkss wftl Qkxhs !‐ @iddfk vkrsfclkrtk gfr,ahss akr Sìbhd vþ``fb krdst bkgkfdt skf uda dfclt durfrbkdakfd _lrhskdbkarksclk. [g ks gft skfdkd Rirtkdzu shbkd5 —Qlky hrk skrfius !‐ Dh ah jhdd ks eh airt dursclkfÙk skfd !

Ks lf`nt h``ks dfclts, fcl lhmk @iddfk gkfd Rirt bkbk-mkd uda arkf Riclkd dhcl gkfdkr Kdt`hssudb sftzk fcl fgN`fkbkr dhcl Hgkrfjh, ug gkfd ^krsprkclkd kfdzu`þskd.

Afk _iùdsjy [dft, ahs Bknádbdfs fd @fvfdbstid, fst kfdkwkftkrk brhuk Mktidwðstk, kfdbkrhlgt vid lhuslilkdUáudkd uda gft Sthclkàrhlt ugwfcjk`t. Afk Nkdstkr fd

akd Bknádbdfsm`þcjkd áldk`d SclfkÙsclhrtkd. Afk Rhcl-tðrgk, hun akdkd mkwhnndktk Rártkr h``ks ðmkrm`fcjkd,krsclkfdkd gfr rfksfb. Eh, —Kvkrytlfdb fs mfbbkr fd Qkxhs‐,hucl afk Rhcltðrgk uda afk Bknádbdfssk.

Hun akg Rkb aurcl afk Jidtri``spkrrk nrhbt gfcl kfdstfkrdhcjfbkr Rácltkr dhcl akg Dhgkd aks Fdshsskd, akd

fcl lfkr mksuclk. Fcl hdtwirtk dur @iddfk Khr` Eildsid.Ah lhut akr Jkr` gfcl hd, im fcl Eiurdh`fst skf. H`s fclvkrdkfdtk, sclhut kr mislhnt hus skfdkr [dfnirg uda nrhbtgfcl gft kfdkg vkráclt`fclkd [dtkrtid, whs gfcl akdd



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ahzu mrfdbk, akd wkftkd Rkb hus Ðmkrskk zu jiggkd, ugafkskd Dfbbkr zu mksuclkd. Fcl hdtwirtk dfclt gklr udaghd `ásst gfcl lfdkfd fd afksk Qiaksnhmrfj.

Fg Mksuclkrrhug mfd fcl uda @iddfk aurcl kfdk _hd-zkrb`hssclkfmk bktrkddt. Rfr prksskd udskrk Ládak – ek-akr hun skfdkr Skftk – bkbkd ahs B`hs, h`s im wfr uds zurMkbrðÙudb mkrðlrkd, ahdd sktzkd wfr uds. Rfr sclhukduds kfdk Rkf`k hd uda gustkrd uds. Kr guss wil` bkdhuwfk fcl bkahclt lhmkd5 —Ahs fst h`si akr Ghdd, gft akg

fcl gfcl si ̀ hdbk bksclrfkmkd lhmk.‐ Fd zwkf Ehlrkd jhddghd sfcl vfk` sclrkfmkd, wfr wfsskd h``ks vidkfdhdakr, h`sim wfr uds sclid kfd @kmkd ̀ hdb jkddkd. Hucl wfra kr sfclbkahclt lhmkd5 —Ahs fst h`si akr klkgh`fbk ]hssfstkd-hdnðlrkr … uda ektzt fst kr lfkr, akr vkrðcjtk Jkr`.‐ @id-dfk whr Hnrihgkrfjhdkr, akr kfdk b`ádzkdak Jhrrfkrk h`s

Niitmh``-Spfk`kr vir sfcl lhttk. Rfk fst kr lfkr bk`hdakt 9 !Fcl jhdd dur skfdk ^krsfid akr Bksclfcltk wfkakrbkmkd.Kr trhfdfkrtk nðr kfd Spfk`, whr eibbkd uda mkwkbtk sfclrhus hus akr Sthat. Hd kfdkr Qhdjstk``k ghcltk kr kr-sclþpnt kfdk ]hst uda jhuntk sfcl ktwhs zu trfdjkd, ugskfdkd Aurst zu `þsclkd. Kfd Huti gft arkf wkfÙkd Mur-

sclkd ghcltk lh`t uda kfdkr akr eudbkd Gáddkr nrhbtk@iddfk, im sfk fld gft zurðcj fd afk Sthat dklgkd si``kd,kr sálk eh si hmbkjágpnt hus. @iddfk stfkb fd akd Rhbkd,h`s dhcl jurzkr Nhlrt ahs Huti zu kfdkg stf``kd ]hstp`htzhg Rkbksrhda kfdmib. Kfdkr akr Mursclkd shbtk5 —Dfbbkr,ahs whr ahs nh`sclk Huti, fd ahs au kfdbkstfkbkd mfst, au

wfrst ektzt nkrtfb bkghclt !‐ Afk arkf zkrrtkd @iddfk husakg Huti uda scl`ubkd uda trhtkd hun fld kfd. Kfdkr zibkfdk _fsti`k uda wi``tk sfk @iddfk hd akd Jipn lh`tkd,rkkxhrtfb brfnn @iddfk dhcl akg Hrg, ug afk Htthcjk



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hmzuwklrkd, vfk``kfclt lhttk kr flg hucl afk _fsti`kkdtrkfÙkd jþddkd. Sclðssk `þstkd sfcl, whlrsclkfd`fclwhrkd ks zwkf iakr arkf. Kfdks akr Bksclissk trhn kfdkd

akr arkf Hdbrkfnkr. Kr sthrm. _i`fzkf jhg. H``k Mktkf`fb-tkd wurakd gftbkdiggkd. Ks bhm kfdkd _rizkss. Ðmrfbwhrkd zwkf RkfÙk uda kfd Sclwhrzkr. îd akd zwþ`n Gft-b`fkakrd akr Eury whrkd zkld wkfÙkr Lhutnhrmk. Rfr sfdafd Qkxhs ! Afk Bksclfcltk dfggt dud kfdk hdakrk Bksth`thd, ks lkfÙt, @iddfk jhg hus akg Dfclts uda htthcjfkrtk

afk arkf wkfÙkd Mursclkd brudaìs, ahdd scliss kr hun sfkuda tþtktk kfdkd vid fldkd. Uwkf Husshbkd bkbkd @id-dfks. Uwkf wkfÙk Stfggkd bkbkd kfdk sclwhrzk. @iddfkwfra zug Qiak vkrurtkf`t.

Ahs whr vir 8> Ehlrkd, ektzt lhmkd wfr Kdak =??> uda@iddfk fst 1? Ehlrk h`t. Akr Ghdd, gkfd Nrkuda, akd fcl

lfkr sklk, lht dfclts Qkufsclks hd sfcl. Kr sfklt dfclthus wfk kfd scl`kcltkr Gkdscl iakr wfk sfcl akr Lkrakd-gkdscl kfdkd mþskd ^krmrkclkr iakr Gþrakr virstk``t.^fk``kfclt whr akr Ghdd vir 8> Ehlrkd kfd Gþrakr, sk`mstwkdd, afkskd Ghdd bfmt ks dfclt gklr. Akr Ghdd, akr gfrlkutk lfkr hun akr hdakrkd Skftk akr Sclkfmk bkbkdðmkr-

stklt, fst si iakr si kfd hdakrkr h`s ahgh`s, udscluàfbiakr dfclt … Ks fst gfr vþ``fb b`kfclbð`tfb.

Rkr afk Rkfslkft kr`krdt, mkjiggt Gkdsclkdjkddt-dfs, au mrhuclst kfdkd Gkdsclkd dur jurz hdzusklkd udawkfÙt, whs kr nðr kfdkd Clhrhjtkr mksftzt, dicl klk au kfdRirt gft flg bkwkclsk`t lhst. Bkspráclk sfda ahdd dfclt

gklr dþtfb, ug lkrhuszudakd, wfk kfd Gkdscl fst. Dicllhmk fcl afk Rkfslkft dfclt kr`krdt, hucl lkutk stklk fcldicl hg Hdnhdb gkfdkr Skgkstkr, hmkr fcl `krdk táb`fclkfÙfb uda ghclk Nirtsclrfttk. Ahzu lht gfr Bitt ahs



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arfttk Hubk fd afk Rfkbk bk`kbt, afk h``krgkfstkd Jfdakrvkr`fkrkd ks mkfg Krwhclskdwkrakd, aicl fcl jiddtk ksgfr sk`tshgkrwkfsk mkwhlrkd. Dirgh`krwkfsk jþddkd

ahs dur ^krrðcjtk. Eh, Jfdakr uda ^krrðcjtk mksftzkd kfdarfttks Hubk. Mfd fcl vkrrðcjt iakr mfd fcl dicl Jfda,kfd mfssclkd vid mkfakg vfk``kfclt 9 ! Dkfd, gkfd arft-tks Hubk fst sclárnkr, ks sfklt dicl vfk` sclárnkr h`s ahsvid Jfdakrd iakr ̂ krrðcjtkd, ks wáclst sibhr dicl, Bittguss ks gft skfdkg Nfdbkr mkrðlrt lhmkd ! Ahzu bhm kr

gfr afk Bhmk zu lkf`kd …Rfr sktzkd uds hun udskrkd Stul` uda dklgkd akd

Lþrkr zur Lhda, aurcl akd wfr sprkclkd gðsskd. ^fkrgh` vfkr Studakd Mksuclszkft lhmkd wfr nðr afk dácls-tkd zwkf Riclkd bkdklgfbt mkjiggkd. @iddfk fst kfdj`ubkr Gkdscl, akr vkrstádadfsvi``stk, akd fcl huÙkr

gkfdkr Guttkr ek bktrinnkd lhmk. Kfd Skk`kdvkrwhdatkr.Kr sprfclt dfclt vfk` vid sfcl sk`mst, kr lþrt zu. Fcl mk-rfcltk flg vid gkfdkd ]kfskd, akg Kr`kmtkd, vid gkfdkr^fsfid kfdks Qhbks gft kfdkg Miit akd Uhfrk kdt`hdbzuru-akrd, fcl wkrak fdgfttkd aks jidbi`ksfsclkd Ascludbk`skfdk Scldkfsk scl`hbkd, fd akr fcl kfdk Jfrclk krrfcltk,

kfd Bhrtkd Kakd wfra rfdbslkrug kdtstklkd, fd akgsfcl gkfdk Skk`kdvkrwhdatkd dfkakr`hsskd jþddkd, ugNrfkakd zu dakd. Rfr brhmkd airt afk h`tkd Bksktzks-thnk`d wfkakr hus, zkld Bkmitk, gklr mrhuclt ks dfclt,ug udskr Gftkfdhdakr zu rkbk`d. Rfr wkrakd bkgkfdshgakd Miakd urmhr ghclkd uda uds vig SclwkfÙk udskrkr

Hrmkft krdálrkd. Fd akr Dhclt kdtzðdakd wfr udtkr j`hrkgStkrdkdlfggk` kfd rfksfbks Nkukr uda vkrmrkddkd ahrfdudskrk ^krbhdbkdlkft, afk Hsclk si`` akr Rfda fd h``kLfggk`srfcltudbkd ahvidtrhbkd. Kfd dkuks Ekrush`kg,



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ahs wfr uds fg Lkrz akr Nfdstkrdfs krsclhnnkd wkrakd, udaahs Nkukr wfra afk Dhclt zug Qhbk wkrakd `hsskd.

@iddfks Hubkd b`ádzkd, h`s wárkd wfr mkfak sclid fd

udskrkg bk`imtkd @hda hdbkjiggkd. Kr phcjt gfr thu-skda ]htscl`ábk fds Bkpácj uda mkrát gfcl wfk kfd Gkd-tir. Fcl nrhbk fld, wilkr kr akdd h`` skfd Rfsskd lht, ah kraicl skft 8> Ehlrkd lfkr vþ``fb fsi`fkrt `kmt. Kr hdtwirtktgfr5 —Gkfd Nrkuda, fcl lhmk afr kfdnhcl dur hungkrjshgzubklþrt.‐ Hun gkfdkr ]kfsk wkrak fcl h``kd Sftuhtfidkd

uda Gkdsclkd mkbkbdkd, afk gfr @iddfk sclf`akrtk, hmkrfcl wkrak mfs ahlfd skfdk ]htscl`ábk, afk kr gfr bhm, uggfcl vir [db`ðcj zu sclðtzkd, vkrbksskd lhmkd. Fclwkrak gfcl wfkakr vkr`fkrkd uda hun lh`mkg Rkbk stk-lkd m`kfmkd. Ahs dkuk Ekrush`kg wfra afksgh` dicl dfcltkdtstklkd, hmkr ahs dáclstk Gh` !

@iddfk fst kfd Kdbk`, kfd Bittksmitk, akd gfr akr Lkrrfd gkfd @kmkd sclfcjtk. Skfdk Rirtk lh``kd dicl lkutkdhcl, flr J`hdb wfra bhr gft ekakg Qhb `hutkr uda j`hrkr,ahs dáclstk Gh` wkrak fcl hun sfk lþrkd.

Fd akr Kcjk aks Mksuclkrrhugs stklkd Hutightkd, ah-rfd sfda Bktrádjk, Juclkd, mk`kbtk Mritk, SðÙfbjkftkd

uda h``krlhda gklr. =? Ai``hr ahrn fcl nðr ekakd Mksucls-tkrgfd gft fds Bknádbdfs mrfdbkd. Ahvid jhdd fcl @iddfkhus akg Hutightkd li`kd, whs kr sfcl ahvid wðdsclt.Akd SclwkfdknrhÙ fg Jdhst jhdd kfd zfvf`fsfkrtkr Gkdscludgþb`fcl bkdfkÙkd. @iddfk si`` sfcl lfkr mkf udskrkgMksucl akd Mhucl vi``scl`hbkd jþddkd, hmkr kr mkstklt

ahrhun, ahss wfr tkf`kd. Kr fst mksclkfakd uda fsst bkrhakgh` nðr sfkmkd Ai``hr. Fcl jhunk, whs kr gþcltk hus akdHutightkd, uda dklgk gft gkfdkr _irtfid wfkakr hungkfdkr Skftk akr Sclkfmk _`htz. Kfdk Bknádbdfsmkhgtfd



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mrfdbt @iddfks Lá`ntk hun afk hdakrk Skftk uda rkfclt sfkflg fd akd Jáb, fd akg kr wálrkda udskrks Mksuclkssftzkd guss. Ks ahukrt kfdk Rkf`k, mfs ahs Rkfm fd Mkwk-

budb jiggt uda fcl whrtk, mfs @iddfk skfdk Mkstk``udbvir sfcl lht. Spkfskd tut ghd zushggkd, si wfk ks fdbut sftufkrtkd, hdstádafbkd Nhgf`fkd afk ]kbk` fst. Fd akrkfdkd Lhda lá`t ekakr skfdkd Lþrkr uda gft akr hdakrkdsclhunk`d wfr udskrk Ghl`zkftkd zug Guda, wfr sprkclkdahzwfsclkd, wfr ̀ hclkd, trkfmkd Sclkrzk ðmkr akd nkttkd

Hrscl akr Mkhgtfd. Ahdd Stf``k, afk Mksuclszkft fst ug.Rfr stklkd uds dicl kfdk Rkf`k bkbkdðmkr uda sclhukduds fd afk Hubkd, ekakr jhdd hus akg hdakrkd `kskd wfkhus kfdkg innkdkd Mucl. Mkfak lhmkd wfr gft akd Qrádkdzu jágpnkd, wfk zwkf Gkdsclkd, afk kfd fddfbks ^krlá`t-dfs lhmkd uda vidkfdhdakr Hmsclfka dklgkd gðsskd.

Fcl vkrsprkclk flg, fd kfdkg Ehlr wfkakrzujiggkd,wkdd fcl ahs dkuk Ekrush`kg bkmhut lhmk. Hmkr wfr wfs-skd mkfak, ahss ks kfd Hmsclfka nðr fggkr fst.

Fcl nhlrk zurðcj fd gkfd Bástklhus, fcl mfd trhughtf-sfkrt uda mrhuclk ektzt Ukrstrkuudb. Afk Clkd fst kfdk

;8-eálrfbk scl`hdjk, but bkwhclskdk Nrhu fdafhdfsclkrHmsthggudb. Qritz flrks H`tkrs lht sfk kfdk Lhut wfk kfdk82-Eálrfbk.

@hdbk sclwhrzk Lhhrk, fd afk fcl gfcl kfdbrhmkdgþcltk. Fcl dklgk sfk gfr b`kfcl lfkr uda ektzt. Ahdhclli`t gfcl @iddfks Mruakr hm, ug gfcl aurcl ahs sðd-

afbk Dhclt`kmkd Liustids zu mkb`kftkd. Uukrst `hdakdwfr fd kfdkr Ehzzmhr hg ]hdak aks Lfblwhys. Fcl mfd akrkfdzfbk RkfÙk, hmkr jkfdkr dfggt sidakr`fcl Ditfz vidgfr, ghdclk pristkd gfr `áclk`da zu, hdsidstkd sfda



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sfk zu mksclántfbt gft sfcl sk`mst. H`s wfr afk Spk`udjkvkr`hsskd, lhmk fcl dicl kfd lh`mvi``ks Mfkr fd gkfdkrLhda. @iddfks Mruakr sclhut gfcl phdfscl hd uda stit-

tkrt, fcl si``k ks arfddkd scldk`` hustrfdjkd iakr wkb-wkrnkd, ah lfkr H`jili` fd akr Þnnkdt`fcljkft bkbkd ahsBksktz vkrstþÙt. H`si wðrbk fcl afk _fssk gft kfdkg Lfkmrudtkr. Hun akg Rkb zug _hrjp`htz stk``k fcl gfcl fd kfdBkmðscl uda pfdj`k, wkf` ahs Mfkr bhdz p`þtz`fcl hddbzu arðcjkd. Ah jiggt gkfd Jigphbdid sclid wfkakr

hd uda `hgkdtfkrt, ahss [rfdfkrkd fd akr Þnnkdt`fcljkftudtkr Strhnk stklt uda fcl ahnðr hrrkstfkrt wkrakd jhdd.Ghddighdd, wi mfd fcl lfkr dur lfdbkrhtkd, akdjk fclgfr.

Akr dáclstk Lh`t mrfdbt uds fd kfdk Mf``hramhr, fd akrsfcl afk wkfÙk Gfttk`sclfclt akd Nrust gft Scldhps rud-

tkrspð`t. Ghd sclhut uds hd, h`s wi``k ghd uds hg `fkms-tkd udbkspftzt fd akd Miakd rhggkd. —Kfd ]hsskdvkr-rátkr gft kfdkg Dfbbkr fg Scl`kppthu‐ stklt ks fd flrkdBksfcltkrd bksclrfkmkd. Afk m`idak Mhrahgk bfmt sfclpkfd`fcl Gðlk, nrkuda`fcl zu skfd. Fcl guss zug zwkftkdGh` kfd Mfkr lfdudtkrwðrbkd uda ahdd ghclkd wfr uds

scl`kudfbst wfkakr ahvid, mkvir ghd uds tit ̀ fkbkd ̀ ásst.Ks bklt ektzt fd kfdk sclwhrzk Strfpmhr. Rfkakr sclhutuds ekakr aiin hus skfdkr Rásclk hd. Ghd akdjt, ahsswfr Ufvf`pi`fzfstkd skfd gðsskd, ah ghd hdsclkfdkda afksclwhrz-wkfÙk Jigmfdhtfid lfkr dur vid si`clkd jkddt.@iddfks Mruakr krj`árt kfd phhr akr aðstkr arkfdsclhukd-

akd Dhcltbksth`tkd, ahss fcl Akutsclkr mfd, akr sk`mkrbrha hus akg Jdhst fd Ðmkrskk kdt`hsskd wurak, uda dudlfkr mfd, ug skfdkd Mruakr —id Akhtl ]iw‐, fg Qiakstrhjtzu mksuclkd. Ektzt fst ahs Kfs bkmriclkd, ghd bfmt gfr



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kfdkd Scldhps dhcl akg hdakrkd hus uda vig bhdzkdLádaksclðttk`d akdj fcl sclid, gfr ná``t akr Hrg hm.

Kfdk scl`hdjk, jdhcjfbk, pkclsclwhrzk Strfppkrfd

gft strhl`kda wkfÙkd Uáldkd zfklt gfcl fd kfdk Kcjkhun kfd Sinh. Kfd —_rfvhtk-Ahdck‐ sáusk`t sfk gfr fds Ilruda nádbt ahdd hucl sclid hd, sfcl zucjkda hun gfr zumkwkbkd, kfdk Lð``k dhcl akr dáclstkd ̀ ásst sfk fd rlytl-gfsclkd Mkwkbudbkd zur Gusfj nh``kd, ahs ahukrt dfclt`hdb, ah sfk siwfksi jhug mkj`kfakt whr. Sfk arðcjt gfcl

gft flrkd scl`hdjkd Ládakd tfknkr fd ahs `kakrdk Sinh,ahs afksk`mk Nhrmk lht wfk flrk Lhut uda mkwkbt sfcl ðmkrgkfdkg bhdzkd Jþrpkr. Sfk dfggt gkfdk Lhda, nðlrt sfclgkfdk Nfdbkr kfd, krst kfdkd, ahdd zwkf. Ektzt jiggt sfkðmkr gkfdkr bhdzkd J`kfaudb zug Lþlkpudjt. Ahs whrh`si kfd _rfvhtk-Ahdck, mkzhl`kd gusstk fcl dfclts.

Fg Dkid`fclt sklk fcl, ahss zu gkfdkg kmkdnh``ssclwhrzkd hafahs-Eibbfdbhdzub dicl kfd phhr wkfÙkStrkfnkd gklr ahzubkjiggkd sfda. îd imkd mfs udtkdlht afksks sclhgìsk Qkunk`swkfm flrk @ust hd gfr j`kmkdbk`hsskd uda fcl wkrak dicl afk bhdzk Dhclt flrkd @fk-mksaunt vkrstrþgkd, hmkr dfclt dur flrkd !

Fg dáclstkd Dhcltjùm afksks vkrrucltkd ^fkrtk`skrbrkfnk fcl afksgh` afk Fdftfhtfvk mzw. kfdk akr airtf-bkd sclwhrzkd Qádzkrfddkd. Fcl dklgk sfk gfr fd kfdkghmbksidakrtkd Lfdtkrzfggkr, wi sfcl mkrkfts sclidzwkf Autzkda hdakrk vkrbdðbkd. Gfttkdarfd dak fclhucl dicl kfdkd _`htz nðr gfcl uda gkfdk Bkspfk`fd, afk

gfcl ug gfdakstkds zwkf Jþpnk ðmkrrhbt, ahs stþrt hmkrdfclt, ah fcl hun flr ̀ fkbk. Fcl bkmk flr ;? Ai``hr uda zfklkwkftkr aurcl afk Dhclt fd kfdkg akr sclámfbstkd MkzfrjkLiustids.



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Ks fst audjk` uda bkspkdstfscl, kfdk rhmkdsclwhrzkDhclt uda afk StrhÙkd sfda scl`kclt mk`kucltkt. Ekaksarfttk Lhus stklt `kkr uda fst vkr`hsskd. Nkdstkr, afk gft

Mrkttkrd zubkdhbk`t sfda. Ukrmriclkdks B`hs hg Rkbks-rhda. Hus hdakrkd Láuskrd, afk klkr vkrwfttkrtkd Mhrh-cjkd b`kfclkd, sclwfdbt `kfsk Gusfj aurcl afk audj`kdRkbk, gkfstkds Ehzz iakr skfcltkr ]hp. Fd akd Bártkd,akd Lþnkd uda hun akr StrhÙk udsáb`fcl vfk` Gð``. Ksstfdjt ! Fd ghdclkd Kcjkd uda Lhuskfdbádbkd stklkd

iakr licjkd j`kfdk Gkdsclkdbrðppclkd, gkfst Hnri-hgkrfjhdkr gftt`krkd H`tkrs. Fcl mfd fd kfdkg Sclwhr-zkdvfkrtk` akr sizfh` Sclwáclstkd akr Bksk``sclhnt hd-bkjiggkd.

Ks fst bknálr`fcl, lfkr bfmt ks rfcltfbk Bhdbstkr, Bhdbs,Rhnnkd, h``k Aribkd, afk ghd sfcl virstk``kd jhdd, gft

shgt flrkd Hmládbfbkd, _ristftutfid, ^krwfrrtkd, ^kr-hrgtkd, ^krrðcjtkd, ^krjiggkdkd, ^krscl`hbkdkd,Afkmkd, Gþrakrd, ]áumkrd, bkmrhucltkd Lkrifdsprftzkdfd ekakr Kcjk, scldhrclkdakd _kddkrd fd ekakg Rfdjk`.Crhcjhmládbfbk gfdakreálrfbk Eudbkd, Gáaclkd, Nrhukd,Gáddkr uda hucl Qrhdsvkstftkd mfktkd lfkr flrk Jþrpkr fd

akd audj`kd StrhÙkd nkf`. Kfdgh` shl fcl kfd Gáaclkd,stritzkda vir Bksudalkft uda wkdfbstkds akg Hdsclkfddhcl bhdz kfdnhcl uda jfda`fcl nrþl`fcl, ahdd wfkakr kfdBksfclt, si vi`` vid Lkfgtðcjk uda Nh`scllkft, ahss kf-dkg brhust wfk vir kfdkr Lyádk.

Fg Sclkfd kfdkr @htkrdk krm`fcjk fcl zwkf Nrkuakd-

gáaclkd, h`s fcl hun sfk zubklk, `hunkd sfk wkb, wkrakdscldk``kr uda rkddkd fd kfdk akr audj`kd SkftkdstrhÙkd.Hucl lfkr akdjt ghd, fcl guss kfd Mu``k fd Ufvf` skfd, akddhdsidstkd vkrfrrt sfcl fd afksk Bkbkda jkfd RkfÙkr. Hucl



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_ristftutfid stklt lfkr udtkr Strhnk, sibhr akr Nrkfkr wfrab`kfcl gft vkrlhntkt, wkdd ghd sfcl krwfsclkd `ásst. Ksfst gfr sclkfÙkbh`, fcl wf`` gklr, fcl jhdd dfclt bkdub

jrfkbkd. Fcl guss kfdk akr mkfakd kfdnhdbkd uda sprfdtkfldkd wfk vid Sfddkd aurcl afk Audjk`lkft lfdtkrlkr. Afkj`kfdkrk vid mkfakd jrfkb fcl zu nhsskd. Fcl mkrulfbk sfkuda scldk`` mkbrkfnt sfk, vid gfr arilt jkfdk Bknhlr, fclmrhuclk kfdnhcl dur flrk @fkmk. Sfk lkfÙt Qlkrksh, fst 86Ehlrk h`t uda kfdkd lh`mkd Jipn j`kfdkr h`s fcl. Dhtðr-

`fcl wfkakr kfdk Hnrihgkrfjhdkrfd. Sfk lht `hdbk pkcl-sclwhrzk Lhhrk, afk sfk gft frbkdawk`clkd Clkgfjh`fkdbkb`áttkt lhmkd guss si, wfk ks kmkd sclwhrzk Nrhukduda Gáaclkd tud, wkdd sfk flr afcltks Jrhuslhhr zálgkdwi``kd. Sfk lht kfdk spirt`fclk Nfbur gft sclþdkd Jurvkduda kfdkd strhnnkd ghjk``iskd Jþrpkr, hd akg h``k _ri-

pirtfidkd gftkfdhdakr lhrgidfkrkd. Flr Bksfclt fst wfkahs kfdkr _uppk, sfk lht Ghdak`hubkd wfk kfdk Hsfhtfd.Flrk Lhdaáclkd sfda wkfÙ. Rkdd fcl sfk gfr si hdsklk,akdjk fcl, sfk vkrkfdfbt afk bhdzk Rk`t fd sfcl, vid h``kglht sfk kfd mfssclkd whs. Fcl dklgk sfk hd akr Lhda udawfr bklkd fd kfdkd akr sclámfbkd Lfdtkrlþnk, fd akg kfd

Studakdlitk` udtkrbkmrhclt fst. Kfdk ðm`k Hmstkfbk, ahsUfggkr jistkt 8= Ai``hr nðr kfdk Studak. Ahs Gáaclkdwf`` 3? Ai``hr nðr afksk Ukft. Ahs Ufggkr fst spár`fcl kfd-bkrfcltkt, hmkr dfclt sclgutzfb, frbkdawfk strhl`t ks si-bhr kfd mfssclkd Bkgðt`fcljkft hus. Fd akr Kcjk hun akgDhclttfscl fggkrt kfd j`kfdks @ágpclkd udtkr skfdkg

Sclfrg, ks bfmt dur si vfk` scluggrfbks @fclt vid sfcl,ahss wfr uds bkrhak dicl sklkd jþddkd. Rfr kdtj`kfakduds hun akg Mktt bkgkfdshg. Kfbkdt`fcl krwhrtktk fcl,ahss sfk sfcl lhstfb huszfklt, wfk kfdk Sðcltfbk, akrkd



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Sprftzk `ádbst ná``fb fst, ug ks lfdtkr sfcl zu mrfdbkd.Hmkr ks bksclfklt h``ks `hdbshg, nhst wfk fd Ukftùpk. Flrbhdzkr Jþrpkr b`ádzt wfk Bià iakr kfd sclwhrzkr Afh-

ghdt. Afk scldkkwkfÙkd Hubápnk` nudjk`d ugrhlgt vidflrkr sclwhrzkd Lhut, h`s fcl gfcl hun sfk `kbk uda wfruds ahmkf hdsklkd. [dskrk Mkrðlrudbkd, udskrk Mkwk-budbkd, ahs Jðsskd, h``ks bksclfklt ̀ hdbshg, mklutshg,virsfcltfb, nhst si, h`s im wfr Hdbst láttkd, akg hdakrkdwkl zu tud. Afk Sclkfmkd aks Ufggkrs mkscl`hbkd, arhu-

Ùkd fst ks jh`t, wfr bkmkd uds Rárgk. Nðr kfdkd Gigkdtfst afk Bkbkdwhrt si sthrj, ahss sfk afk ^krbhdbkdlkfthus`þsclt …

Dicl kfdk Rkf`k `fkbkd wfr kdb ugsclùdbkd, jkfdkrwf`` akd hdakrkd ìs`hsskd. Ks k`kd dfclt vfk`k Rirtk,ks whr hucl dfclt dþtfb. Rfr sfda Skk`kdvkrwhdatk, ah

wkfÙ ghd, whs akr hdakrk akdjt uda nðl`t, hucl ildk kshuszusprkclkd.

Uug Hmsclfka nrhbt sfk gfcl, im fcl sclid kfdgh` kfdkd—yfdb Jfss‐ vid kfdkg Gáaclkd mkjiggkd láttk, wimkfsfk flrk `hdbkd Rfgpkrd zárt`fcl hunuda zuscl`ábt udawfk afk N`ðbk` kfdks Sclgkttkr`fdbs ðmkr gkfd Bksfclt

strkfclkd `ásst. Ahs fst h`si kfd fkbkdakr Juss, skfdkMkakutudb fst gfr wil` mkwusst. Rfr gðsskd ektzt vid-kfdhdakr ìs`hsskd, akdd gkfd Rkb fst dicl wkft. Bkàdfggt sfk vid gfr jkfdks …

Mkf gkfdkr Husrkfsk hus akd [SH wfra gfcl hg Nùblhnkd

ahs NMF kfdkg ^krlþr udtkrzfklkd. Frbkdawfk lhttk fclmkf gkfdkr Kfdrkfsk vkrbksskd hdzubkmkd, ahss fcl kfdîrstrhnkdrkbfstkr si `hdb wfk afk ;tl Hvkduk lhmk. Afkkdb`fsclk _rkssk tftk`tk spátkr fd kfdkg Kxjùsfvmkrfclt,



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ahss ks fdtkrdhtfidh`kd Sfclkrlkftskxpkrtkd afk Hubkd-mrhukd bkjráusk`t láttk, dhclakg mkjhddt wurak, ahssfcl vfkr Riclkd udmkgkrjt fd akd [SH vkrmrhcltk. Afk

Hgfs gft flrkg Sfclkrlkftswhld vkrphsskd gfr dhcl akdSðahnrfjhdkrd uda akd Kdb`ádakrd b`kfcl hucl dicl kfdKfdrkfskvkrmit.

Fcl wi``tk siwfksi dfclt gklr wfkakrjiggkd, ghdjhdd lfkr wkakr fd ]ulk shunkd dicl pfdjk`d iakr cjkd.Dur akr zárt`fclk, ̀ fkmkvi``k, fkbkdak Juss Qlkrkshs wfra

nðr fggkr hd gfr lhntkd m`kfmkd. Gkfd Nrkuda @iddfk wfraskcls Gidhtk spátkr lfdbkrfcltkt.

Mkvir fcl wfkakr dhcl Hnrfjh bklk, mksuclk fcl diclkfdgh` gkfdk Nhgf`fk vátkr`fclkrskfts fg j`kfdkd Airn, fdakg fcl hunwucls. Fcl nðl`k fdstfdjtfv (fcl shbk dfclt mk-

wusst), wfk sfk ðmkr gfcl akdjkd. Ghd lht kfdk áld`fclkSclku, gfcl fds Lhus zu dklgkd, wfk ghd sfcl sclkukdwðrak, kfdkd briÙkd zittfbkd Ri`n fg Lhus zu lhmkd. Krjiggt gft dhsskd _nitkd fd afk Stumk – uda kr fst ðmkr-lhupt si zittfb uda wðst ! [da kr lku`t si ̀ hut. Jurzug –kfd hdbstkfdþÙkdaks ^fkl.

Sclþd – hmkr ahs ̂ fkl lht kfdk gkdscl`fclk Bksclfcltkuda imwil` ks kfd Ri`n fst, kfdk Gkdsclkdskk`k, diclahzu kfdk nkfdnðl`fbk, uda ks nðl`t sk`mst, wfk ghd ðmkrks akdjt, whs kfd bkwþld`fclkr Ri`n dfclt jhdd.

[da fcl – zubksthdakd, ahss fcl kfdk Hrt Ri`n mfd –`hssk sfk akdjkd, whs sfk wi``kd …

Akr Ri`n mkrkut dur, ahss kr dfclt nirtbkm`fkmkd fst,akdd fg Rh`a whr ks dfclt si kfdshg wfk lfkr fd afkskgLhusk, tritz h``kr Nrkuda`fcljkft. Akr Mksucl aks ^fklswhr kfdk Sclwáclk, afk ghd linnkdt`fcl mh`a vkrbksskd



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wfra, uda ahs ̂ fkl sk`mst wfra sfcl lðtkd, dicl kfdgh` fdafksk Sclwáclk zu vkrnh``kd.

Dicl fg Bknádbdfs jidthjtfkrtk gfcl afk mrftfsclk Nf`g-rgh AH]KNf`gs, ug nðr ahs kdb`fsclk _um`fjug kfdkd>?-gfdðtfbkd Aijugkdthr`g ðmkr gkfd @kmkd zu ark-lkd. Akr Nf`g fst Qkf` kfdkr Skrfk5 GcFdtyrks [dakrwirà ,mkdhddt dhcl akg Clkn akr _riaujtfidsrgh. [dtkr akgQftk` Gha Aib hda Dhzf Dfcj wfra afk Aijugkdthtfid zu

mkrðcltfbtkg Krni`b. Ghd strhl`t sfk bhr fg russfsclkdNkrdsklkd gft [dtkrtftk`d hus. Gha Aib, ahs fst afk hd-akrk Nfbur, afk fg Nf`g vkrkwfbt wfra. Ks fst gkfd mrðakr-`fclkr Nrkuda Eilddy Hahfr, akr dirafrfsclk Jigghdakurpritksthdtfsclkr Gf̀ fzkd. Kfd vkrurtkf`tkr Qkrrirfst bkdhuwfk fcl. Kfd wkftkrkr Skk`kdvkrwhdatkr vkrìrkd fg Dfk-

ghdas`hda !Skft kfdkg Ehlr j`kmt gfr GcFdtyrk uda skfd Jhgkrh-

tkhg ektzt sclid hg Hrscl nkst. Sfk ni`bkd gfr ðmkrh``lfd uda jþddkd vid akr bhdzkd Frrnhlrt bhr dfclt bkdubjrfkbkd. Sfk ni`bkd gfr aurcl akd Jdhst, ahdhcl vkrni`-bkd sfk, wfk fcl nðr Eilddy —Gha Aib‐ Hahfr kfdk —_ráti-

rfhdkrbhrak‐ hus hus`ádafsclkd Nrkfwf``fbkd zug Sclutzskfdkr Nhgf`fk rkjrutfkrk, h`s afk ]kstk vid Hahfrs Gf`fzdhcl kfdkr mùtfbkd fdtkrdkd Nklak gft hdakrkd diraf-rfsclkd _hrhgf`ftárs akd ]ðcjzub fds sclittfsclk Kxf`hdtrktkd gusstkd. Ahs Kfdbrkfnkd fd akd Dirafr`hda-Jidfjt mrhcltk gfr kfd nðdneálrfbks Kfdrkfskvkrmit

fd BriÙmrfthddfkd kfd, spátkr wurak ks hun `kmkds`hdbhusbkwkftkt. Sfk vkrni`bkd gfcl sibhr mfs fd Mkr`fdkrMirak``k, wi fcl gfcl gft tlhf`ádafsclkd _ristftufkrtkdvkrbdðbk. Sfk sklkd sthudkda zu, wfk fcl kfdk Hrgkk vid



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^krmrkclkrd hus akg Miakd sthgpnk uda ug gfcl sclhrk,ug ahdhcl dfclt zu wfsskd, wilfd iakr fd wk`clkd Jrfkbfcl sfk nðlrkd si``, h`s Nðlrkr akr ]htìskd.

Sfk ni`bkd gfr dhcl [bhdah, wi fcl akd Kr`þs gkfdksMuclks ^krsclkdjtk Ehlrk hd kfd Rhfskdlhus spkdak,ug kfdkd Qkf` gkfdks Sðdakdrkbfstkrs hmzuzhl`kd – kfdvkrbkm`fclks [dtkrnhdbkd, akdd táb`fcl láunk fcl wfkakrdkuk hd. Qritzakg ghclk fcl kfdk ]kfsk aurcl Qhdshdfh,ug h`s _rkafbkr ahs Rirt Bittks zu vkrmrkftkd.

Fcl prkafbk5 —Bksuclt wfra Eksus Clrfstus. Mkrun Ufg-gkrghdd. Rildirt udmkjhddt. Kr lht jkfdk ]k`fbfid. Kr bklþrt jkfdkr _hrtkf hd. Hun þnnkdt`fclkd ̂ krshggùdbkdwfra kr dfclt bksklkd. Akr Bksucltk fst hdbkj`hbt wkbkdAfkmsthl`, ^krnðlrudb Gfdakreálrfbkr, Bittks`ástkrudb, Scládaudb vid Qkgpk`d, Mk`kfafbudb vid Imrfbjkftkd,

Gfsshcltudb akr Bksktzk, [gbhdb gft Lurkd uda Jrf-gfdk``kd … Fcl sprkclk dfclt vid afkskg Eksus hun akd

bráss`fcl mudtkd Arucjkd. Dfclt vid akg Eksus gft akr bk`mkd, ̀ kmkrjrhdjkd Lhut, akd kfdk frrsfddfbk gkdscl-`fclk Bksk``sclhnt zur brþÙtkd Lurk h``kr Ukftkd ghclt.Aksskd Jhahvkr sfk pkrvkrs gft sfcl scl`kppt hd fdnhgkd

Jrkuzkd. Fcl sprkclk dfclt vid bþtt`fclkg Bksclwátzuda vid bkp`árrtkd Jfrclkd`fkakrd. Fcl sprkclk vid akgGhdd5 akg rulkìskd, akr shbt, ahss wfr uds ádakrd gðs- skd, fggkrzu, ektzt ! Fcl sprkclk vid akg Hmkdtkurkr,

akg nurcltìskstkd, nrkfkstkd, giakrdstkd h``kr Gkd-

sclkd, akr sfcl `fkmkr ghsshjrfkrkd `ásst, h`s `kmkdafb

gft akd hdakrkd zu vkrnhu`kd. Fcl sprkclk vid akg Ghdd,akr si fst, wfk wfr h``k skfd wi``kd. Au uda fcl.‐

[da fcl krzál`k5 —Rhr ks akdd dfclt bkrhak Eksus, akrzu akd ̂ krmrkclkrd uda Hussátzfbkd bfdb uda kfd Ilr nðr



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sfk lhttk, whr skfdk Nrkudafd Ghrfh Ghbah`kdh dfclt kfdk_ristftufkrtk bkwkskd 9 Rfk jþddt flr Clrfstkdgkdsclkdks ahdd whbkd, gfcl zu vkruclkd 9 ^fk``kfclt mfd fcl eh

hucl Shuùs hun skfdkg Rkb dhcl Ahghsjus‐ … Kfdkgakr Jhgkrhgáddkr wfra ahs bhdzk Szkdhrfi, fd akg krsfcl ahdj gfr wfkakrbknudakd lht, zu vfk`, kr wf`` dhclLhusk, rhus hus akg Muscl, zurðcj dhcl Kdb`hda. ^þ`-`fb kdtsktzt vid gkfdkr _krsid shbt kr kgpþrt, fcl si``kfld hdrunkd, wkdd fcl hdnhdbk, hus gkfdkd Ládakd zu

mùtkd. Ahdhcl rkfst kr vþ``fb vkrstþrt hm. Afk ]kfsk bkltwkftkr, lfdkfd fd akd Istkd Jidbis, udtkrwkbs shgg`kfcl dicl kfd phhr ^krfrrtk vid akr russfsclkd Ghh, kf-dkd vkrìrkdkd hgkrfjhdfsclkd B`ðcjsrfttkr uda kfdkdsclwhrzkd Afhghdtkdsclgubb`kr hus Mitswhdh kfd. H`swfr hun jidbi`ksfsclk ]kmk``kd fd akr _rivfdz Jfvu trkn-

nkd uda afk husbkgkrbk`tkd Lkrrkd uds kfdk Jfstk gftwhs wkfÙ fcl wfk vfk` Jfì Bià vkrlþjkrd wi``kd, vkr`fkrtakr zwkftk Jhgkrhghdd afk Dkrvkd uda wfr scl`hbkd udswfkakr zurðcj dhcl Qhdshdfh aurcl, wi fcl skcls Riclkdspátkr ahs 8<-eálrfbk Ufggkrgáaclkd, ahs fcl fd udsk-rkg Bástklhus sclwádbkrtk, lkfrhtk. Kfdkr akr Nf`g`kutk

nrhbt gfcl, wfk ks skfd jhdd, ahss gfcl mfslkr dhcl sikfdkg @kmkd dicl jkfdkr ugbkmrhclt lht. Fcl hdtwirtkflg5 —Sk`mst fd akr prfgftfvstkd Bksk``sclhnt bfmt ks kf-dkd dhtðr`fclkd ]kspkjt vir kfdkg Bkfstksjrhdjkd.‐

Akr Aijugkdthr`g fst ahgft nðr GcFdtyrk hmbk-sclìsskd uda akr zwkftk Jhgkrhghdd, kfd =<-eálrfbkr

Hustrh`fkr, vig Dfcj-Brkbkr-^frus hdbkstkcjt wirakd. Krmuclt akd dáclstkd Nùb dhcl [bhdah, ug sfcl airt mkfkfdkr _ristftufkrtkd hus Jhgph`h hmzusktzkd. Fcl lhmdfk wfkakr vid flg bklþrt. Gha Aib hda Dhzf Dfcj , kfd



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Jhsskdscl`hbkr gft afhmi`fsclkg Qftk`, akr sfcl but vkr-jhunt. Fcl nrhb gfcl dur, whrug fcl hus akr rkcltkd Szkdkhusbkstfkbkd mfd uda hucl whrug gfr afk Dirafrkd akd

Mkfdhgkd —GHA DFCJ‐ bhmkd, fcl hmkr akddicl akr DhzfDfcj m`kfmk 9 Ks fst sclwkr, hus akr Mknhdbkdlkft lkrhus-zujiggkd, ah jhdd fcl dicl si vfk`k Hnrfjhdkrfddkdsclwádbkrd, ks lf`nt h``ks dfclts. Dkfd, fcl lhmk nðr akdAijugkdthr`g jkfd Bkà bkdiggkd, Rhldsfdd mksftztghd, ghd vkrjhunt fld dfclt !

Uu Nrhukd lhmk fcl kfd dhfv sfdd`fclks ^krlá`tdfs uda`fkmk dhlkzu whl`ìs. Fcl lhmk jkfdk hdbkmirkdk iakrhdkrzibkdk Sclku vir akg mkakdjkdìskd Sfcllfdbkmkdhd gkfdk Sfddk, ks zðbk`t gfcl dfclts.

Fcl sk`mkr lhmk ahukrda afk udgþb`fclstkd uda ud-

phsskdastkd @fkmksbksclfcltkd, hus akdkd fcl gkfst durgft Sclhakd uda Sclhdak lkrvirbklk.

Fcl mrhuclk @fkmk ! @fkmk ! Fggkrzu ! [da fcl wf`` @fkmkbkmkd, wkf` fcl si vfk` ahvid lhmk. Dfkghda mkbrkfnt,ahss fcl gft gkfdkr Lurkrkf dfclts hdakrks wf``, h`s gfclzu vkrsclwkdakd !

Rkdd fcl aurcl kfdk StrhÙk bklk, scl`hbk fcl gfr nhst ekaks Gh` akd Scláak` hd, wkf` fcl gfcl fggkr ug gfclsk`mkr arklk iakr rðcjwártsbklk – ahss gfr afk Gáaclkdiakr Nrhukd dfclt kdtwfsclkd, afk hd gfr virðmkrbklkd.Ks bksclfklt bhdz hutightfscl. Fcl jhdd dfclts ahbkbkdtud. Simhà kfdk hd gfr virmkfjiggt, arklk fcl gfcl si

`hdbk dhcl flr ug, mfs sfk ug afk Kcjk mfkbt iakr sidstfrbkdawfk vkrsclwfdakt uda kfdk hdakrk sfk hm`þst, afkhun gfcl zujiggt, vid vird, vid lfdtkd, vid rkclts, vid`fdjs. Hg árbstkd trkfmk fcl ks, wkdd sfk vid h``kd Skftkd



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jiggkd uda fcl gfcl wfk kfd Jrkfsk` arklkd guss, ugjkfdk zu vkrphsskd. Gkfstkds jdh``k fcl ahdd gft akrStfrd iakr akg Lfdtkrjipn bkbkd kfdkd busskfskrdkd

@htkrdkdpnhl`.Ks fst gfr b`kfclbð`tfb, wfk h`t sfk sfda, wfk eudb, wfk

briÙ, wfk aðdd, wfk afcj, whs nðr Lhhrk sfk lhmkd, whsnðr Lhut – sfk ðmkd h``k kfdk ghbfsclk Hdzfkludbsjrhnthun gfcl hus.

Gftt`krwkf`k mfd fcl ^htkr vid =1 Jfdakrd. Fcl lhmk lud-akrtk vid Nrhukd bk`fkmt uda ludakrtk `fkmtkd gfcl, sfk`hsskd sfcl bhr gkfdkd Dhgkd hun akd @kfm tátiwfkrkduda akddicl mfd fcl h``kfd. Rhrug m`kfmt jkfdk mkf gfr 9Rhrug, wkdd sfk sclid gfcl `fkmkd uda ug kfdkr @fk-mksdhclt wkbkd afk Klk mrkclkd – whrug jklrkd sfk h``k

sinirt zu flrkd Gáddkrd zurðcj, vid akdkd sfk gkfstkds_rðbk` zu nðrcltkd lhmkd 9 Jkfdk lhttk gfcl krdst`fclbkmktkd ahzum`kfmkd, jkfdk Kfdzfbk lhttk gfcl ek bkmk-tkd, sfk gftzudklgkd uda whr hus @fkmk mkrkft bkwkskd,Nrkuak uda Dit akr Rhdakrsclhnt gft gfr zu tkf`kd. Fcllhttk zwhr jkfdk ahzu kfdbk`hakd, lhttk jkfdkr afkskd

Bkahdjkd dhlkbk`kbt: wkdd fcl gkfd Lkrz mknrhbtk, sishl fcl, ahss gkfdk Nrkflkft gfr `fkm whr uda fcl jiddtkgfcl jkfdkr Bk`fkmtkd krfddkrd, dhcl akr afk Skldsucltgfcl dfclt fd afk Hrgk akr Dáclstkd vkr`hsskd lhttk.Hmkr akddicl fst ks wudakr`fcl uda kfd wkdfb trhurfb,ahss ðmkrh`` @fkmk si sklr vkrbádb`fcl sclkfdt, afk akr

Nrhukd wfk gkfdk kfbkdk, ahss sfk kmkdsi scldk`` shtt whrwfk kdthggt. Fst ahs rfcltfb 9 Rhr ahs sclid fggkr udaðmkrh`` si 9 Iakr `fkbt ks hd gfr sk`mst, mfd fcl vfk``kfcltsi mksclhnnkd, ahss afk Rkfmkr gfcl zwhr mkbklrkd uda



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sclþd dakd, hmkr jkfdk Bkgkfdsclhnt gft gfr vkr`hdbkdhuÙkr afk jurzk, wirtìsk fg Lku iakr hun akg Giis 9@fkbt ks ahrhd, ahss fcl hun Rhdakrsclhnt mfd uda ahss afk

Sksslhntkd vir akg @kmkd akr Lkfghtìskd kfd Brhukdnðl`kd 9 Iakr `fkbt ks h``kfd hd gfr, hd gkfdkr _krsid,ahss afk Nrhukd gfcl wfk kfdk lðmsclk _uppk mkbklrkduda hd sfcl arðcjkd, ahdd hmkr h``k zu flrkd Gáddkrdzurðcj`hunkd, hucl wkdd airt Scl`ábk sfk krwhrtkd 9

H``wfsskda mfd fcl kmkd dfclt, hmkr vfk` fst gfr mkwusst

bkwirakd … Ghd gþbk gfcl kfdkd @ðbdkr iakr sidst whsdkddkd, hmkr ks fst wfrj`fcl si, ahss Nrhukd ks sclwkr lh-mkd, Kdtsclkfaudbkd zu trknnkd, au h`s Ghdd gusst fldkdafk Kdtsclkfaudb, afksk Mðrak hmdklgkd. Au gusst afkKdtsclkfaudb nðr sfk trknnkd. Kfd Ghdd, akr afks vkrdkfdt,guss kfd Ghdd skfd, akg ks sibhr dicl sclwkrkr ná``t

h`s kfdkr Nrhu, kfdk Kdtsclkfaudb zu trknnkd. Kr fst ahgftdicl dfclt kfdgh` kfd lh`mkr Ghdd !

Si lht uds afk Dhtur krsclhnnkd uda fd udskrkg tfkns-tkd Fddkrkd wkrakd wfr vid udskrkd [rfdstfdjtkd rkbfkrt.Nrhukd wfk afk Eudbnrhu vid Ir`khds, wfk afk _h`ástfdkd-skrfd @kf`h Jlh`ka iakr afk @fmkrfhdkrfd Ghrfh, mkjhddt

h`s M`hcj Afhgida, bfmt ks `kfakr vfk` zu wkdfb hun afkskrRk`t.

Hucl afks fst sfclkr, udsáb`fcl sfda afk Xuh`kd akr@fkmk ! Fcl zhl`k kfdkd lilkd _rkfs hun gkfdkr Suclk dhclRhlrlkft, dhcl Nrkflkft uda fcl wkfÙ dfclt, hd wk`clkdAágid fcl afksks MuÙbkà hmzutrktkd lhmk, akdd ks sfda

zu vfk`k ahvid.Fcl mfd h``kfd, udkda`fclkr Sclgkrz zkrnrfsst wfk Nkukr

gkfdk Mrust. Lþrt, fcl guss ks kucl shbkd, il Lkrr, wfraakr Qhb jiggkd, hd akg gkfd Lkrz ]ulk dakt 9



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Fcl tráugk wfkakr vid akr [dmkjhddtkd,

Afk sclid si int fg Qrhug vir gfr bksthdakd.

Rfr `fkmkd uds, sfk strkfclt ahs wfrrk LhhrGfr hus akr Stfrd gft Ládakd wudakrmhr.

[da sfk vkrstklt gkfd rátsk`lhntks Rkskd

[da jhdd fd gkfdkg audj`kd Lkrzkd `kskd.

Au nrhbst gfcl5 fst sfk m`ida 9 Fcl wkfÙ ks dfclt.Aicl wfk kfd Gárclkd fst flr Hdbksfclt.

[da wfk sfk lkfÙt 9 Fcl wkfÙ ks dfclt. Aicl ks j`fdbt

Flr Dhgk sðÙ, wfk wkdd afk Nkrdk sfdbt –

Rfk kfdkr Dhgk, akd au @fkm`fdb lkfÙt[da akd au nkrdk uda vkr`irkd wkfÙt.

[da flrkr Stfggk Qid fst audjk`nhrmkd

Rfk afk Stfggk vid bk`fkmtkd, afk uds sthrmkd.

_hu` ^kr`hfdk

^fk`k shbkd, afk sclþdstkd Nrhukd dakst au fd Istkuriph.Fcl shbk, afk sclþdstkd Nrhukd dakst au fg @fmhdid,udtkr akd Qhgf`fddkd hun Srf @hdjh uda fd Átlfipfkd. Afkrhssfbstkd udtkr akd Ufbkudkrfddkd: uda kfds fst sfclkr,

Rkflwhsskr trfdjkd sfk h``k dfclt !Rhs gklr, gkfd Nrkuda, jhdd fcl afr gft hun akd Rkb

bkmkd ! 9 Fcl jhdd afr shbkd, wi au ahs Sclþdstk udaBrhushgstk hun akr Rk`t dakst, si``tkst au hun akr Suclk



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ahdhcl skfd. Siaig uda Bigirrlh dakst au fd akr hgk-rfjhdfsclkd _rivfdz, afk bkwfkntkstkd Mktrðbkr dakstau fd Dfbkrfh, afk trkukstkd Nrkudak uda Gkdsclkd fd

Dirafr`hda, afk mruth`stkd fd Sclwhrzhnrfjh, afk bhst-nrkuda`fclstkd, hmkr hucl afk dkfafsclstkd hun Gh`th, afkrðcjsfcltsìskstkd fd Hsfkd, akd mkstkd Lugir dakstau mkf akd Sclittkd, afk sclþdstkd uda ástlktfsclstkdQádzk fd Jhfris Dhcltìjh`kd uda wkdd au Gkdsclkd wfkGhsclfdkd suclst, ahdd bklst au dhcl Akutscl`hda. Airt

krjkddt ghd afk Gkdth`ftát akr Gkdsclkd sclid hd kfdkr@untnitibrhk akr Dhtur. Ekakr Rhà, bhr ekakr Muscl fstdhcl kfdkg Systkg zurkcltbkscldfttkd. Rkdd‖s afr airtdfclt bkná``t, jhddst au wfkakr bklkd, akr Uub jiggtpðdjt`fcl hun afk Skjudak !



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Ahs @kmkd h`s @kfdwhda

J kfd Jðdst`kr fst wálrkda akr bhdzkd =1 Studakd skf-dks táb`fclkd Qhbks ududtkrmriclkd Jðdst`kr: h``ks

Rkskdt`fclk, h``ks Ahukrdak, ahs bk`fdbt, bksclfklt fg-gkr dur fd akd sk`tkdkd Hubkdm`fcjkd akr Fdspfrhtfid.Fcl jþddtk zwhr ekakd Qhb ildk _rim`kgk kfd Shclmuclsclrkfmkd, dfclt hmkr ktwhs wfk ahs lfkr vir`fkbkdak

Mucl. Hucl gusst au dicl ktwhs Clhis fd afr lhmkd, ugkfdkd thdzkdakd Stkrd bkmárkd zu jþddkd. Ahzu mfd fclbkzwudbkd fg Kxf` zu ̀ kmkd, hun kfdkr Fdsk`, akrkd jhrbk,zu Qiak bkludbkrtk Dhtur gfr sk`tshg vkrtrhut wfrjt. Kf-bkdt`fcl fst afk Fdsk` dur kfd Nk`s fg Gkkr, hucl ahgftjhdd fcl gfcl fakdtfzfkrkd uda rkfn nðr afk Fdsk` mfd fcl

siwfksi sclid skft @hdbkg !Fcl mfd Dhrzfsst, hmkr jkfd Kbifst. H`s Kbifst wárk fcl fd

akr Dkidhzfszkdk bkm`fkmkd, fcl jhddtk jkfdk Bk`asirbkd,lhttk ]ðcjlh`t uda whr nðr gkfdk Nkfdak udhdthstmhr, ksbhm Spidsirkd, fcl whr vkrhdtwirt`fcl nðr ludakrtk Jh-gkrhakd, fcl irbhdfsfkrtk udzál`fbk Bruppkd, Jhgkrha-

sclhntkd uda nðlrtk gkfdk kfbkdk Irbhdfshtfid hd. Fclwhr fdtkrdhtfidh` bknrhbt uda ghcltk gkfdkd Rkb aurclafk ]ádbk fd afk Qip`fbh akr mrhudkd Jrkfsk, lhttk ̂ krhdt-wirtudb uda whr Lh`t nðr udzál`fbk afkskr Rkbbknálrtkdruda ug akd Kramh``. Fcl nðlrtk kfdkd Sthht fg Sthhtk udawhr ̂ irmf`a fd gkfdkr _hrh``k`wk`t … Fd akr Rk`t, fd akr fcl

skft gkfdkg Husstfkb bk`hdakt mfd, mkjiggk fcl dicldfclt gh` kfdk Hrmkft h`s _hrjwácltkr, bksclwkfbk akddkfdk zwkftk Clhdck. Afk Rk`t, fd akr fcl hdbkjiggkd mfd,lht gfcl lfdtkr sfcl bk`hsskd, sfk arklt sfcl si scldk``,



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ahss ks gfr nhst akd Miakd udtkr akd NðÙkd wkbzfklt, lfkrfst jkfd _`htz nðr ]k`fqufkd hus kfdkr hdakrkd Árh. Akr Nk`sfd akr Mrhdaudb fst dhcl wfk vir vig Arkcj ugspð`t, dur

ahss gfr afk Ribkd ug kfd ̂ fk`nhclks stárjkr uda hucl lþ-lkr krsclkfdkd h`s fd akr ̂ krbhdbkdlkft. Mrhuclt hg Kdakbhr akr Nk`s ektzt Lh`t 9 Fcl stkfbk lþlkr hun akd Mkrb, ksfst kfdk Nùclt vir akd N`fkbkd aks Ghrjtks.

Flr Kfdshgkd vid lkutk, flr Hussclkfakdakd, flr si``tkfdst kfd ̂ i`j skfd5 Hus kucl, afk flr kucl sk`mkr huswál`-

tkt, si`` kfd huskrwál`tks î`j krwhclskd. N`fklk, gkfdNrkuda, fd akfdk Kfdshgjkft ! Ri afk Kfdshgjkft hun-

lþrt, ah mkbfddt akr Ghrjt: uda wi akr Ghrjt mkbfddt,ah mkbfddkd hucl akr @árg akr briÙkd Sclhuspfk`kr

uda ahs Bksclwfrr akr bfntfbkd N`fkbkd. Hmskfts vig Ghrjtk uda ]ulgk mkbfmt sfcl h``ks

BriÙk5 Hmskfts vig Ghrjtk uda ]ulgk wildtkd skft ekafk Krdakr dkukr Rkrtk.

N`fklk, gkfd Nrkuda, fd afk Kfdshgjkft5 Fcl sklk afclvid bfntfbkd N`fkbkd zkrsticlkd. N`fklk airtlfd, wi

rhuk, sthrjk @unt wklt !N`fklk fd akfdk Kfdshgjkft ! Au `kmtkst akd J`kfdkd

uda Krmárg`fclkd zu dhlk. N`fklk vir flrkr udsfcltmhrkd]hclk ! Bkbkd afcl sfda sfk dfclts h`s ]hclk !

Lkmk dfclt gklr akd Hrg bkbkd sfk ! [dzál`mhr sfda sfk, uda ks fst dfclt akfd @is, N`fkbkdwkak` zu skfd !

[dzál`mhr sfda afksk J`kfdkd uda Krmárg`fclkd: udaghdclkg sti`zkd Mhuk bkrkfcltkd sclid ]kbkdtripnkd

uda [djrhut zug [dtkrbhdb.Krgðakt sklk fcl afcl aurcl bfntfbk N`fkbkd, mùtfb

bkrftzt sklk fcl afcl hd ludakrt Stk``kd: uda akfd Sti`zwf`` dfclt kfdgh` zðrdkd.



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aks Gkdsclkd`kmkds ktwhs ðmrfb m`kfmt uda ðmkrahukrt5afk Judstwkrjk.

Hucl sfk vkrbklkd eh wil` frbkdawhdd kfdgh`, sfk vkr-

mrkddkd iakr vkrakrmkd iakr wkrakd wfkakr zkrscl`hbkd.Hmkr fggkrlfd ðmkrahukrd sfk ghdclks Gkdsclkd`kmkduda mfàkd ekdskfts aks Hubkdm`fcjs kfd stf``ks ]kfcl akrMfàkr uda Lkf`fbtðgkr. Ahrhd gftzuhrmkftkd sclkfdt gfrbut uda trþst`fcl, akdd ks fst mkfdhlk kfd ^krkwfbkd aks^krbádb`fclkd.

Afk N`fkbkd aks Ghrjtks lhmkd jkfdkd Sfdd nðr Judst,flr shbt, fd akr Judst fst h``ks kr`humt, hmkr flr lhsstakd Jðdst`kr zu skfdkd @kmzkftkd, wkf` kucl akr Dkfap`hbt. Krst wkdd akr Jðdst`kr tit uda skfdk _krsid jkfdksfcltmhrk Bknhlr gklr vkrjþrpkrt, wkdd skfd Sclhttkdvkrsclwudakd fst, ahdd sklt flr skfdk Rkrjk fd kfdkg

hdakrkd @fclt. Mkvir kr stfrmt, guss kr sfcl hmkr kfd Ilrhmscldkfakd, ahgft flr fld fg Qia h`s Jðdst`kr hucl kr-jkddt. Judst guss privizfkrkd, sidst fst ks fd kurkd Hu-bkd jkfdk Judst, sk`mst wkdd ahs Rkrj, ahs flr mksthudt,dicl si láss`fcl, britksj uda aðgg`fcl hussfklt. Rfkakg hucl skf – wkr kfd Mucl sclrkfmkd, kfdk Qht tud, kfd

Mfà gh`kd wf``, fd akdkd @kmkd stkcjt, akr guss sk`mstkfd `kmkdafbkr Gkdscl skfd.

Ahs @kmkd jklrt akg Gkdsclkd fggkr hucl kfdk ud-kda`fcl dfcltsshbkdak, kdtgutfbkdak, linndudbsìsghclkdak, wkfÙk Skftk zu, hun akr dfclts stklt, kmkdsiwkdfb wfk hun kfdkr wkfÙkd Gh``kfdwhda.

Hmkr wfk dfcltsshbkda uda kftk`, wfk tit sfcl ahs @k-mkd hucl zkfbkd ghb, akr Ghdd vi`` B`humkd, vi`` Qht-jrhnt, akr Ghdd, akr ktwhs wkfÙ, `ásst sfcl ahvid dfcltzug Dhrrkd lh`tkd. Kr brkfnt kfd uda tut ktwhs uda jdðpnt



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afkskr Rk`t ̀ kmkd, fd wk`clkr —Ciggid Skdsk‐ uda j`kfd-mðrbkr`fclk Mfàudb lkrrsclkd. Rkr afk Rhlrlkft suclt,akr wfra sfk dakd, kr guss dur afk Hubkd hunghclkd,

ghdclgh` `fkbt sfk afrkjt vir flg. Ekakr jhdd sfk brkf-nkd, wkdd kr sfk wfrj`fcl dakd wf``. Fcl wkrak kucl afkHrmkft dfclt hmdklgkd, ghclt sfk kucl aicl sk`mst, hunahss afksk udmklhb`fclk ^krhdsth`tudb mhà flr Kdak

dakd gþbk !

Rkr ahrn ahs Jfda mkfg rkcltkd Dhgkd dkddkd 9Afk wkdfbkd, afk whs ahvid krjhddt,

Afk tþrfclt bkdub flr vi``ks Lkrz dfclt whlrtkd,

Akd _þmk` flr Bknðl`, flr Sclhud innkdmhrtkd,

Lht ghd vid eklkr bkjrkuzfbt uda vkrmrhddt !

Biktlk

Fcl mfd nðr afksk kfdnhclk, mkqukgk, gft si wkdfbkg zu-nrfkakdk Rk`t vid lkutk vfk` zu hdspruclsvi`` uda ludb-rfb, sfk spkft gfcl hus, fcl lhmk nðr sfk kfdk Afgkdsfidzu vfk`. Rkr lkutk `kmkd uda skfdks @kmkds nril wkrakd

wf``, akr ahrn jkfd Gkdscl skfd wfk fcl. Rkr sthtt Bkauak`Gusfj, sthtt ^krbdðbkd Nrkuak, sthtt Bkà Skk`k, sthttMktrfkm kcltk Hrmkft, sthtt Spfk`krkf kcltk @kfakdsclhnt,sthtt Mrit uda Spfk`kd Nrkflkft, sthtt augpnkr [dtkrlh`-tudb Rhlrlkft vkr`hdbt, nðr akd fst afksk lðmsclk Rk`tlfkr jkfdk Lkfght.

Lh`s ðmkr Jipn stðrzk fcl gfcl wfkakr fd afk Hrmkft, tukahs, whs fcl hg mkstkd jhdd, ug afk @kfdwhda nhrmkdnrilzu bksth`tkd5 Fcl suclk kfdk Shclk, afk gfcl ðmkrzkubt,



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nðr afk fcl ahdd kfdtrktk. Jdðpnk dkuk Jidthjtk uda si-wkft gkfd Hrg rkfclt, sthcl`k fcl ahdd gkfd bhdzks [g-nkà hun, rkjrutfkrk, brðdak Bruppkd, kfdk Irbhdfshtfid,

hg Kdak kfdk Gf`fz, gft akr fcl fd akd Jhgpn zfklk, ugnðr gkfdk Shclk kfdzutrktkd. Rhrkd gkfdk Scl`hcltnk`-akr nrðlkr, mfs zu gkfdkd Huswkfsudbkd uda Kfdrkfsk-vkrmitkd fd akd ahzubklþrfbkd @ádakrd, zug Mkfspfk`fd Dirafr`hda uda Sðahnrfjh, si `fkbkd sfk lkutk fd Ist-,Ukdtrh`- uda Rksthnrfjh.

Rkdd fcl spátkr hus gkfdkr Hrmkft gftshgt gkfdkdStuafkd wfkakr lkrvirthuclk uda akr Sturg fg Fddkrdhdnádbt hrb zu wðtkd, trfdjk fcl kfd B`hs ðmkr akd Aurst,ug gfcl zu mktáumkd. Ahdd suclk fcl Ukrstrkuudb mkfkfdkr _ristftufkrtkd, hg ̀ fkmstkd mkf kfdkr hnrfjhdfsclkd,akdd afk wkfÙ hg mkstkd, wfk ghd kfdkg ludbrfb wð-

tkdakd Ri`n mksádntfbt. HusbkstiÙkd uda hmbk`kldt vidakr Bksk``sclhnt, wfk au uda fcl ks h`s Jðdst`kr sfda, fstsfk bkwfss udskrk Nrkudafd uda Sclwkstkr. [da fd afkskrStk`ùdb h`s —Huswurn‐ dakt sfk wfk hucl wfr sk`mst kfdk[dhmládbfbjkft, afk bkdhu mktrhcltkt, hucl flrk ̂ irtkf`klht !

Ghdclgh` jhdd fcl ks bhr dfclt nhsskd, ahss fcl krst 33Ehlrk h`t mfd – fcl nðl`k gfcl si vfk` á`tkr.

îr h``kg ahdd, wkdd fcl akdjk, ahss gfcl afk gkfs-tkd, afk fcl jkddk, nðr kfd gfssrhtkdks Sumekjt lh`tkd:fcl b`humk ahdd zuwkf`kd, ahss ks wfrj`fcl si jiggkd

jþddtk, wkdd sfcl dfclt dicl kfdfbks zug Butkd wkdaktuda wkdd fcl akdjk, ks jþddtk si jiggkd, ahdd nðl`kfcl ahs si `kmlhnt, ahss ks gfcl nurcltmhr dfkakrarðcjtuda gfr h``k @ust vkrbklt, h`s wárk ks wfrj`fcl si.



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Hdstk``k kfdks Sclùsswirtks

F cl mfd kfd zu kucl fd afk Stáatk uda fds Lkrakd`kmkdvkrfrrtkr Ri`n – scl`hbkdakr jþddtk jkfd Mfà gfcl zkf-

bkd, gkfdk sclkuk ̂ krkfdshgudb, gkfdk Rfàlkft, gkfdk[drulk, gkfd Lkfgwkl uda gkfdk Lkfghtìsfbjkft.

Qritz h``kg sclwhdjkda zwfsclkd But uda Mþsk fst ksgfr hmkr fggkrlfd bkùdbkd, hg Kdak aicl dicl gkfdkd

Nrfkakd gft Bitt zu ghclkd.Fcl lhmk gkfd Lkrz fg Nkukr aks @kfakds vkrmrhddt uda

mfd dud mkrkft, hun akr Hsclk aksskd gkfd dkuks Ekrush`kgzu mhukd. Afk Stkfdk akr dkukd Mhutkd sfda gfr afk Mfàkr,afk fcl wálrkda gkfdkr _f`bkrnhlrt hun akg Nùss, akd fcl fgDfkghdas`hda nhda, kfdshgg`k. Akr Nùss wkfst afk ]fcl-

tudb, fcl linnk, kr nðlrt lfdhus, bkrhakwkbs zug wkftkdIzkhd, wi fcl bkdub _`htz zug @kmkd lhmkd wkrak. Hd akdNùssunkrd sklk fcl sclþdk Mfàkr, afk fcl fd gkfdk Skk`khunshubk, mfs gfr ahs dkuk Lkrz krwáclst. Akdd hun gkf-dkr zurðcjbk`kbtkd ]kfsk, akr @hdastrkcjk, afk fcl `hunkdgusstk, lhmk fcl lfkr uda airt kfd Stðcj gkfdks Lkrzkds bk-

`hsskd, mfs jhug gklr bkdub ahvid zug @kmkd ðmrfb m`fkm.Ks fst Kdak Hubust =?8?.

Dicl kfdgh` lht, hun akd wfr sclid vkrzfcltkt,

Akr Siggkr skfdk Jrhnt zurðcjbkwiddkd:

Kr strhl`t, zu jðrzkrd Qhbkd wfk vkrafcltkt,

Kr prhl`t gft b`ðlkda wi`jkdìskd Siddkd.

Si ghb kfd Gkdscl hg Kdak skfdks Strkmkds,

Ah kr kdttáusclt sfcl sclid zurðcjbkzibkd,



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Dicl kfdgh` p`þtz`fcl sfcl vkrtrhud akd Ribkd,

Rhbkda fg Sprudb afk ]kstk skfdks @kmkds.

Im kr hd kfdk @fkmk sfcl vkrsclwkdak,Im kr zu kfdkg spátkd Rkrj sfcl rðstk,

Fd skfdk Qhtkd j`fdbt, fd skfdk @ðstk

Lkrmstj`hr uda tfkn skfd Rfsskd ug ahs Kdak.

Lkrghdd Lkssk

Fcl shbk kucl zug Hmsclfka5 Lþrt hun afk Stfggk, afk huskucl sk`mkr jiggt ! Rkdd sfk sclwkfbt, afksk Stfggk, siwfsskt, ahss ktwhs sclfkn stklt, ahss ktwhs dfclt fd Ira-dudb fst, ahss flr hun akg nh`sclkd Rkbk iakr bhr stklkdbkm`fkmkd skfa. ^krsuclt hucl dfclt kfd krni`brkfclkr,

sidakrd kfd wkrtvi``kr Gkdscl zu wkrakd.Rkdd au h`t wfrst, wk`clkr Qhtkd jhddst au afcl rðlg-

`fcl krfddkrd 9 Rhs lhst au akfdkd Jfdakrd zu krzál`kd,wkdd au afk Nrkgak dfclt bksklkd lhst 9 Akdd5 Rfsskd,]kfcltug uda Judstvkrsthda krwfrmt akr Gkdscl krstahdd lfdrkfclkda, wkdd kr vi``kr Dkubfkr vid kfdkg @hda

zug hdakrkd whdakrt.Rudakrt kucl dfclt, akdd ahs @kmkd mkstklt dfclt

fggkr hus `ibfsclkd Uushggkdládbkd. Afk @ibfjjiggt dfclt bkbkd ahs Sclfcjsh` hd. Ah lkfÙt ks si kftk`uda sk`mstbkná``fb5 Ekakr Gkdscl fst skfdks Sclfcjsh`sSclgfka. Hmkr ahs fst nh`scl ! Ekakr Gkdscl lht kfdkd

Clhrhjtkr uda skfd Clhrhjtkr fst skfd Sclfcjsh` ![da udskr Clhrhjtkr wfra dicl gklr aurcl akd Ghd-

bk` bkwfsskr Kr`kmdfssk h`s aurcl ahs, whs ghd kr`kmt,mkstfggt.



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BruÙwirtk

M kstk BrðÙk bklkd hd gkfdk ]kcltshdwá`tfd FdksJf`fhd, Gfrji Lhunk uda Akssf, [wk N., Lkfjk L. uda

akd bhdzkd C`hd, Susf L., Mkdf, Rhdah S., akd h`tkd KfsmárMeikrd S., Gidsclfk uda afk Sclwkstkrd fg Miys, Ahdfk`@kfpdfz, Ghrjus @hdbk, Shdari L. uda Nhgf`fk, Gfrji Ghd-ak`, Stknnkd Jfda, Gfclhk` uda Stknhd Bkykr, Mixkr, Nh`ci

L., Shdari @., Jidrha hus Uftthu, Jhspkr uda Susf, Clrfs-tfhd S., Chrstkd uda skfd Kgpfrk, Stknhd Nudjk, _htrfcj@þwk, C`huafh Mhrscl, Svkd _þsskdkcjkr, Lkfdk uda afk@ijh`mhld, Nrhdj R., Hdaræ B., Ghduk`h Rudakr`fcl, AhzhEidks, Eirbk …, Eilddy Hahfr uda udskrk C-Cigphdy,Ekddfnkr Jhwhdbu, @hurkdt Djudah, Mkrdhafdk Bidzh-

`ks, @iddfk Khr` Eildsid (]F_), Clhr`ks uda @ktiyh Qhy`ir,Ekhd Nhrrubfh, Gf̀ irha [`kgkj, Gfstkr Rf``fhg, ClrfstiplGð``kr siwfk H`kx vid Akutscl`hda Nf`g, Aidh`a GcFdtyrkuda afk bhdzk Crkw vid AH]KNF@GS.

Hd h``k, afk fcl mkrkfts fd gkfdkg krstkd Mucl ^kr-

sclkdjtk Ehlrk brðÙtk uda hd h``k, afk fcl afksgh` wfk-akr vkrbksskd lhmk. Hd h``k, afk gfr ahs @kmkd sclwkrghclkd wi``kd – flr jþddt gfcl gh` hg Hrscl `kcjkd,suclt kucl kfd kfbkdks @kmkd !

Akr mkstk Ahdj bklt hd gkfdk Guttkr uda gkfdk BriÙ-

guttkr5 Ildk kucl mkfak wárk fcl kfd Dfkghda fg Dfk-ghdas`hda !



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_rkafbkr Hutir

Kfdrkfskvkrmit fd BriÙmrfthddfkd

Kfdrkfskvkrmit

(]KN[S A‖KDQK]) fd

akr Akgijrhtfsclkd

]kpum`fj Jidbi (].A.C.)



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Kfdrkfskvkrmit fd akd [SH

Dfcj Brkbkr fd @fmkrfh



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Dfcj Brkbkr fd Sðahnrfjh jurz vir akg airtfbkd Kfdrkfskvkrmit

Fg Kxf` hun Gh`th



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Dfcj Brkbkr fd [bhdah



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Fg aádfsclkd Kxf` zushggkd gft akg

dirafrfsclkd Gf`fzkdnðlrkr Eilddy Hahfr



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Dfcj Brkbkr uda @iddfk Khr` Eildsid fg Qiakstrhjt

akr tkxhdfsclkd _i`udsjy [dft

Dfcj Brkbkr fd Dhgfmfh



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Xuk``kdhdbhmkd

_hrhplrhskd hus akd Sclrfntkd5

8. Mirwfd Mhdakìw – Ck`kmrftfks=. Lkrghdd Lkssk – Kfbkdsfdd ghclt SphÙ3. Lkrghdd Lkssk – [dtkrg ]ha1. Lkrghdd Lkssk – Akr Stkppkdwi`n

;. Lkrghdd Lkssk – Dhrzfss uda Biàguda>. Biktlk – Nhust 2. J`hus Jfdsjf – Fcl mrhuclk @fkmk<. Afk Mfmk` – @utlkrðmkrsktzudb6. Au Ghrshfs/Li`mhcl – Ksshy ðmkr afk îrurtkf`k8?. Nrfkarfcl Dfktzsclk – Bþtzkdaággkrudb

88. Nrfkarfcl Dfktzsclk – Uhrhtlustrh8=. J`hus Bicl – Dfktzsclk ðmkr afk Nrhukd83. Bkshggk`tk Mrfknk vid ^fdckdt vhd Bibl81. _hdchthdtrh8;. F Bfdb8>. Stknhd Uwkfb – Stkrdstudakd akr Gkdscllkft

_hrhplrhskd hus akd Nf`gkd5

8. Nftzchrrhài – Rkrdkr Lkrzib=. Cimrh ^krak – Rkrdkr Lkrzib

3. ]ugm`k Nfsl – Nrhdcfs Nira Cippi`h1. [`zlhd – Ahs vkrbksskdk @fclt – î`jkr Scl`þdairnn ;. Fdti tlk Rfà – vid Skhd _kdd



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Dfcci`ý Ghclfhvk``f, ^i`thfrk, Lkrghdd Lkssk,

Nrfkarfcl Dfktzsclk, Blhdaf, Sh`vhair Ah`f, Hurk`fus,Ghrtfd @utlkr, Biktlk, Hmrhlhg @fdci`d, J`hus Jfdsjf,H`mkrt Chgus, Rfdstid Clurclf``, H`mkrt Kfdstkfd

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_rfvhtmksftz Dfcj BrkbkrBknhdbkdkdzkftsclrfnt Akr @fcltm`fcj

_rksskmkrfcltk ðmkr Dfcj Brkbkr5

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